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“Papa. A very strange name for a girl,” Assad grunted.

Rose shrugged. It was something of a turnup, Carl had to admit. Were there really no Danish girl’s names of four letters beginning with a “P”? That was what she said, anyway. Impossible, surely?

Carl glanced at Assad, who looked like he had question marks drawn all over his face. No one could ponder in as spellbound a fashion as his stocky assistant.

“It is not a Muslim name, either,” he said from within his frown. “I can think only of Pari, which is Iranian.”

Carl grimaced. “And Iranians don’t live in Denmark, or what? Never mind, let’s just say this bloke’s called Poul or Paul; that makes things a lot easier, doesn’t it? We’ll have him found in a jiffy.”

At this point, Assad’s frown deepened. “Found in a what, did you say, Carl? Where is that?”

Carl sighed. Perhaps he ought to send his little helper over to see his ex soon. She could teach him idioms that would make his wide eyes roll in his head.

He glanced at his watch. “So his name’s Poul, is that what we’re saying? Well, I’m off on a break, then. Fifteen minutes, and when I get back, you’ve found him, OK?”

Rose did her best to ignore Carl’s tone of voice, though her nostrils flared visibly. “I’m sure Poul’s an excellent candidate. Or Piet, or Peer with two ‘e’s, Pehr with an ‘h,’ or Petr without an ‘e.’ Or it could be Pete, or Phil. The possibilities are endless, Carl. We’re multiethnic now, as well, so there’s all sorts of new names flying around. Paco, Pall, Page, Pasi, Pedr, Pepe, Pere, Pero, Peru…”

“All right, Rose, for Chrissake, that’ll do. Anyone would think this was a register office. And who’s Peru, anyway, when he’s at home? I thought that was a country, not a bloody name…”

“…and Peti, Ping, Pino, Pius…”

“Pius? Yeah, why not bring the popes in while we’re at it? They’re male, at least…”

“Pons, Pran, Ptah, Puck, Pyry.”

“Are you finished?”

There was no answer.

Carl considered once again the signature on the wall. Whatever else he might think, it was hard to conclude otherwise than that the letter had been written by someone whose name began with “P.” So who was this “P”? Piet Hein was hardly a candidate. Who, then?

“The first name may be a compound, Rose. Are you sure there’s no hyphen in there?” He gestured toward the blur. “In which case it could be Poul-Erik, or Paco-Peti, or Pili-Ping.” He tried to transfer his smile to Rose’s face, but she was far away and impervious. Sod it, then.

“All right, should we let this magnified message look after itself for the moment, so we can get on with more important matters and Rose can get her poor nails painted black again?” Carl suggested. “We can hardly avoid coming back to it every now and then. Maybe some bright ideas will emerge. Like when you leave the crossword lying around in the bathroom for the next time you need to go.”

Rose and Assad studied him with wrinkled brows. Crosswords on the toilet? Obviously neither of them spent as much time in there as he did.

“No, hang on a minute. I don’t think we can leave it stuck to that wall. We need to get through the door. Part of our archive’s behind it, in case you’d forgotten. All those old, unsolved cases. You’ve heard of them, I suppose?” He turned on his heels and headed for his office and the comfy chair that awaited him. Rose’s ice pick of a voice halted him in his tracks after only two steps.

“You look at me, Carl.”

He turned with caution and saw her pointing back toward her work of art.

“If you think my nails look like crap, I don’t care. Get it? And besides that, do you see that word up there at the very top?”

“Yes, Rose, I do. In fact it’s about the only thing I can say with any certainty that I do see. It very plainly says ‘HELP.’”

With that, she waggled a blackened finger menacingly in his direction. “Good. Because that’s the word you’ll be wanting to scream if you remove so much as a single sheet of that paper. Do you get my drift?”

He released his eyes from her rebellious gaze and waved Assad to his side.

He would have to put his foot down before long.

7

Whenever she looked in the mirror, she always thought she deserved better from life. Nicknames such as Peach and Thyregod School’s Sleeping Beauty were still part of the way she saw herself. When she took off her clothes, she could still be pleasantly surprised by her body. But what good was that if she was alone?

The distance between them had become too great. He never saw her anymore.

When he came home, she would say he wasn’t to leave her again and that surely there had to be other job opportunities. She wanted to be close to him, to know about his work and to watch him wake up beside her in the mornings.

That’s what she was going to say.

***

In former times, there had been a little rubbish tip at the bottom of Toftebakken, used by the old mental asylum. Now the tatty mattresses and rusty bed frames were long gone and in their place was an oasis of showcase residences, all of which enjoyed an unspoiled vista of the fjord.

She loved to stand here above the windbreak of trees, gazing out over the marina at the blue fjord in all its splendor, gradually allowing her eyes to drift out of focus.

In such a place, and in such a state of mind, it was no wonder that a person should feel defenseless when confronted by the randomness of life. Perhaps that was why she had not declined when the young man got off his bike and suggested they go somewhere for coffee. He lived in the same neighborhood as she did, and on several occasions they had acknowledged each other with a nod in the Føtex supermarket. Now they were standing here.

She glanced at her watch. There were still a couple of hours before her son had to be picked up. Surely there was no harm in a cup of coffee?

On that point, however, she was terribly wrong.

***

That evening, she sat like an old woman, rocking in her chair, clutching her belly as if that might relax the tension in her muscles. What she had done was unfathomable. Was she really that desperate? It was as though this handsome young man had hypnotized her. After ten minutes, she had switched off her mobile and had begun to tell him all there was to know. And he had listened.

“Mia, that’s a nice name,” he had said.

It was so long since she had heard anyone speak her name that it sounded almost foreign. Her husband never used it.

This man had been so easy to be with. He had shown interest in her life and told her about his own when she asked. He was in the army, and his name was Kenneth. His eyes were kind and it hadn’t felt at all wrong when he had placed his hand on hers, even though the café was full of customers. And then he had drawn it toward him across the table and held it tightly.

And she had done nothing to stop him.

Afterward, she had dashed off to the day care, his presence lingering all around her.

Now, neither the darkness nor the hours that had passed since then could settle her breathing and make things normal again. She bit her lip. Her mobile lay accusingly on the coffee table in front of her, still switched off. She was stranded on an island and could see no escape. With no one to ask for advice. No one from whom to seek forgiveness.

Where could she go from here?

***

When morning came, she was still in her clothes, her thoughts still racing in bewilderment. The day before, while she had been with Kenneth, her husband had called her mobile. It had only just occurred to her. Three missed calls on the display would require explanation. He would call her and ask why she hadn’t answered, and the story she would be forced to concoct would surely give her away, no matter how plausible it might seem to her. He was older and wiser and more experienced than she was. He would sense her deception, and the thought made her entire body tremble.