"Why was she obliged to wed you, sir?"
"The usual practical reasons, namely my title and my fortune. Catherine's parents insisted on the match and she agreed to it. Her lover was quite penniless and Catherine was not so lost to common sense as to actually run off with him."
"How very sad. For both of you."
"You may well believe I wished she had run off with the bastard. I would gladly have paid him to take her away if I'd known my own fate. But what was done, was done." Harry shrugged. "She told me she regretted everything but that she would endeavor to be a good wife to me. I believed her. Hell, I wanted to believe her."
"And it would not have been right for you to hold her lack of virginity against her," Augusta said, frowning seriously. "Unless you yourself were, uh, untouched?"
Harry quirked a brow and did not respond to that comment. "In any event, there was little I could do about the situation except make the best of it."
"I understand. Marriage is so very permanent," Augusta murmured.
"I believe Catherine and I could have made a go of it if Catherine had not lied to me right from the start. Dishonesty is something I cannot forgive or condone."
"No, I can see where it would be very difficult for you to make allowances for a woman or anyone else who lied. You are very severe about some things, my lord."
He eyed her sharply. "Catherine, as it happens, had no intention of ever trying to be a true wife. The best I can say for her was that at least she was not carrying her lover's babe when she came to me. She did, however, become pregnant on our wedding night and was extremely angry about the fact. Apparently her lover lost interest in her as she grew big with my child. To keep him bound to her she began giving him money."
"Harry. How awful. Did you not notice that she was doing so?"
"Not for quite some time. Catherine could be extraordinarily convincing. Whenever she came to me for more money, she would tell me she needed the funds to further her charity work. Which was not precisely a lie, I suppose, when you think about it. Her lover was entirely without means and quite dependent on her largesse."
"Oh, dear."
"I have let the rumor stand that she died of the fever after giving birth to Meredith," Harry said without inflection. "The truth is, she was recovering quite nicely when she learned her lover was seeing someone else. She rose from childbed too soon and slipped away to confront him. When she came home she was distraught. She had also caught a chill that settled in her lungs. She went back to bed and never recovered. Toward the end she was out of her mind and she began calling for her paramour."
"That was how you discovered who he was?"
"Yes."
"What happened to him?" Augusta demanded, a sense of foreboding closing in on her.
"Cut off from his only means of reliable financial support, he was obliged to join the army. Quite soon thereafter he managed to die a hero's death on the peninsula."
"How dreadfully ironic. No one knows about all this?"
"I have kept my own counsel until now. You are the only other person I have ever told and I fully expect you to keep equally silent on the subject."
"Yes, of course," Augusta said weakly, thinking of how badly Harry's honor must have been savaged. "After such a disastrous experience, 'tis no wonder you are so concerned with the proprieties, my lord."
"It is not only my own pride that concerns me," Harry said bluntly. "I wish to maintain the fiction of Catherine's perfection for Meredith's sake. A child needs to be able to respect the memory of her parents. Meredith is nine years old and as far as she is concerned, Catherine was a loving mother and a virtuous wife."
"I comprehend completely. You need not worry that I will alter her impression of her mother."
Harry smiled faintly. "No, you would not do any such thing. You are very kind and very loyal to those for whom you feel affection, are you not? 'Tis one of the reasons I married you. I am hoping you will come to care for my daughter."
"I am certain I shall." Augusta looked down at her gloved fingers, which were laced on her lap. "I just hope she will learn to love me."
"She is an obedient child. She will do as she is told. She knows you are to be her new mother and she will show you every respect."
"Respect is not the same as love, my lord. One can force a certain amount of respect and good manners from a child, but one cannot force love from anyone, can one?" She slanted him a meaningful glance. "Not even from a wife or a husband."
"I will settle for respect and good manners from both my child and my wife," Harry said. "In addition, I shall expect loyalty from my wife. Do I make myself clear?"
"Yes, of course." Augusta went back to plucking at the braid trim on her gown. "But I have tried to tell you from the beginning, my lord, that I cannot promise to be a model of perfection."
He smiled gravely. "No one is perfect."
"I am very glad you realize that."
"I will, however, expect you to make a few earnest efforts in that general direction," Harry added, his voice quite dry.
Augusta looked up quickly. "Are you teasing me, sir?"
"Good Lord, no, Augusta. I am a dull, prosing scholar entirely lacking in the sort of lightness of spirit that would inspire me to any levity."
Augusta scowled. "You are teasing me. Harry, I must ask you something."
"Yes?"
"You say you cannot abide deceit in a wife, but I myself have not always been completely straightforward with you. I did not tell you about that stupid gaming debt I owed to Lovejoy, for example."
"That was not a matter of deliberate deceit. You were simply acting in your customary reckless fashion, carrying the standard of Northumberland Ballinger honor, and you quite naturally got into trouble."
"Quite naturally? Now see here, Harry—"
"If you have an ounce of common sense, madam, you will refrain from reminding me of the incident. I am trying to put it out of my head."
"It is going to be difficult to do that, sir, considering the fact that the 'incident, as you call it, led directly to your being obliged to marry me out of hand this morning."
"I would have married you sooner or later, Augusta. I told you that."
She looked at him, perplexed. "But, why, my lord? I still do not completely comprehend why you settled on me when there were so many other more suitable candidates on your list."
Harry eyed her consideringly for a long moment. "Contrary to everyone's opinion, impeccable manners and perfection of behavior were not my chief requirements in a wife."
Augusta 's eyes widened in surprise. "They were not?"
"Catherine's manners and deportment were exemplary, as it happens. Just ask anyone who knew her."
Augusta frowned. "Then, if it was not perfection of manners and behavior, what precisely were you looking for in a wife?"
"You said it yourself that night I found you sneaking about in Enfield's library. All I wanted was a truly virtuous woman."
"Yes, I know. But surely for someone such as yourself, female virtue goes hand in hand with a sound knowledge and respect for the proprieties."
"Not necessarily, although I will admit it would be convenient if it did." Harry looked rueful. "As far as I am concerned, virtue in a woman is based solely on her capacity to be loyal. From all I have observed, while you are unfortunately inclined to be impetuous and headstrong, you are also a very loyal young female. Probably the most loyal one I have ever encountered."
"Me?" Augusta was startled at the observation.
"Yes, you. It has not escaped my notice that you have demonstrated great loyalty toward your friends, such as Sally, and the memories of the Northumberland Ballingers."