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GOWAN

That is a laugh, that one. Only, not so loud, huh? to disturb the

ladies-disturb Miss Drake-Miss Temple Drake.-Sure, why not cowardice.

Only, for euphony, call it simple over-training. You know? Gowan

Stevens, trained at Virginia to drink like a gentleman, gets drunk as

ten gentlemen, takes a country college girl, a maiden: who knows?

maybe even a

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virgin, cross country by car to another country college ball game,

gets drunker than twenty gentlemen, gets lost, gets still drunker than

forty gentlemen, wrecks the car, passes eighty gentlemen now, passes

completely out while the maiden the virgin is being kidnapped into a

Memphis whorehouse-

(He mumbles an indistinguish-

able word)

STEVENS

What?

GOWAN

Sure; cowardice. Call it cowardice; what's a little euphony between

old married people?

STEVENS

Not the marrying her afterward, at least. What-

GOWAN

Sure. Marrying her was purest Old Virginia. That was indeed the

hundred and sixty gentlemen.

STEVENS

The intent was, by any other standards too. The prisoner in the

whorehouse; I didn't quite hear-

GOWAN

(quickly: reaching for it) Where's your glass? Dump that

slop-here-

STEVENS

(holds glass)

This will do. What was that you said about held prisoner in the

whorehouse?

GOWAN

(harshly) That's all. You heard it.

STEVENS

You said 'and loved it.'

(they stare at each other)

Is that what you can never forgive her for?- not for having been the

instrument creating that moment in your life which you can never

recall nor forget nor explain nor condone nor even stop thinking

about, but because she herself didn't even suffer, but on the

contrary, even liked it-that month or whatever it was like the episode

in the old movie of the white

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girl held prisoner in the cave by the Bedouin prince? -That you had to

lose not only your bachelor freedom, but your man's self-respect in the

chastity of his wife and your child too, to pay for something your wife

hadn't even lost, didn't even regret, didn't even miss? Is that why this

poor lost doomed crazy Negro woman must die?

GOWAN

(tensely) Get out of here. Go on.

STEVENS

In a minute.-Or else, blow your own brains out:

stop having to remember, stop having to be forever

unable to forget: nothing; to plunge into nothing and

sink and drown forever and forever, never again to

have to remember, never again to wake in the ni ' ght

writhing and sweating because you cannot, can never

not, stop remembering? What else happened during

that month, that time while that madman held her

prisoner there in that Memphis house, that nobody

but you and she knew about, maybe not even you

know about?

Still staring at Stevens, slowly and deliberately Gowan sets the glass of

whiskey back on the tray and takes up the bottle and swings it bottom up

back over his head. The stopper is out, and at once the whiskey begins to

pour out of it, down his arm and sleeve and onto the floor. He does not seem

to be aware of it even. His voice is tense, barely articulate.

GOWAN

So help me, Christ ... So help me, Christ.

A moment, then Stevens moves, without haste, sets his own

glass back on the tray and turns, taking his hat as he passes

the sofa, and goes on to the door and exits. Gowan stands a

moment longer with the poised bottle, now empty. Then he

draws a long shuddering breath, seems to rouse, wake, sets

the empty bottle back on the tray, notices his untasted whiskey

glass, takes it up, a moment: then turns and throws the glass

crashing into the fireplace, against the burning gas logs, and

stands, his back to the audience, and draws another long

shuddering breath and then draws both hands hard down his

face, then turns, looking at his wet sleeve, takes out his hand

kerchief and dabs at his sleeve as he comes back to the table,

puts the handkerchief back in his pocket and takes the folded

napkin from the small tray beside the saltcellar and wipes his

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sleeve with it, sees he is doing no good, tosses the crumpled napkin back

onto the whiskey tray; and now, outwardly quite c,91m again, as though

nothing had happened, he gathers the gl-sses back onto the big tray, puts

the small tray and the napkin onto it too and takes up the tray and walks

quietly toward the dining-room door as the lights begin to go down.

The lights go completely down. The stage is dark.

The lights go up.

Scene Three

Stevens living room. 10:00 P.m. March eleventh

The room is exactly as it was four months ago, except that the only light

buming is the lamp on the table, and the sofa has been moved so that it

partly faces the audience, with a smqll motionless blanket-wrapped object

lying on it, and one of the chairs placed between the lamp and the sofa so

that the shadow of its back falls across the object on the sofa, making it

more or less indistinguishable, and the dining-room doors are now closed.

The telephone sits on the small stand in the corner right as in Scene Two.

The hall door opens. Temple enters, followed by Stevens. She now wears a

long housecoat; her hair is tied back with a ribbon as though prepared for

bed. This time Stevens carries the topcoat and the hat too; his suit is

different. Apparently she has already warned Stevens to be quiet; his air

anyway shows it. She enters, stops, lets him pass her. He pauses, looks

about the room, sees the sofa, stands looking at it.

STEVENS

This is what they call a plant.

He crosses to the sofa, Temple watching him, and stops, looking down at the

shadowed object. He quietly draws aside the shadowing chair and reveals a

little boy, about four, wrapped in the blanket, asleep.

TEMPLE

Why not? Don't the philosophers and other gynecologists tell us that

women will strike back with any weapon, even their children?

STEVENS

(watching the child)

Including the sleeping pill you told me you gave Gowan?

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TEMPLE

All right.

(approaches table)

If I would just stop struggling: how much time we would save. I came

all the way back from California, but I still cant seem to quit. Do

you believe in coincidence?

STEVENS

(turns) Not unless I have to.

TEMPLE

(at table, takes up a folded yellow telegraph form, opens

it, reads)

Dated Jefferson, March sixth. 'You have a week yet until the