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going to save her, but now you can say so. It wont be difficult. Just one

word-

(she stops, arrested, utterly motionless, but even then she is

first to recover)

Oh God.

(Gowan rises quickly. Temple whirls to Stevens)

Why is it you must always believe in plants? Do you have to? Is it because

you have to? Because you are a

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lawyer? No, I'm wrong. I'm sorry; I was the one that started us hiding

gimmicks on each other, wasn't it?

(quickly: turning to Gowan)

Of course; you didn't take the sleeping pill at all. Which means you

didn't even need to, come here for the Governor to hide you behind the

door or under the desk or wherever it was he was trying to tell me you

were hiding and listening, because after all the Governor of a Southern

state has got to try to act like he regrets having to aberrate from being

a gentleman-

STEVENS

(to Temple) Stop it.

GOWAN

Maybe we both didn't start hiding soon enough-by about eight years-not

in desk drawers either, but in two abandoned mine shafts, one in Siberia

and the other at the South Pole, maybe.

TEMPLE

All right. I didn't mean hiding. I'm sorry.

GOWAN

Dont be. Just draw on your eight years' interest for that.

(to Stevens) All right, all right; tell me to shut up too.

(to no one directly)

In fact, this may be the time for me to start saying sorry for the next

eight-year term. Just give me a little time. Eight years of gratitude

might be a habit a little hard to break. So here goes.

(to Temple) I'm sorry. Forget it.

TEMPLE

I would have told you.

GOWAN

You did. Forget it. You see how easy it is? You could have been doing

that yourself for eight years: every time I would say 'Say sorry,

please,' all you would need would be to answer: 'I did. Forget it.'

(to Stevens)

I guess that's all, isn't it? We can go home now.

(he starts to come around the

desk)

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TEMPLE

Wait. (Gowan stops; they look at each other) Where are you going?

GOWAN

I said home, didn't I? To pick up Bucky and carry him back to his own

bed again. (they look at one another) You're not even going to ask me

where he is now? (answers himself) Where we always leave our children

when the clutch-

STEVENS (to Gowan) Maybe I will say shut up this time.

GOWAN

Only let me finish first. I was going to say, 'with our handiest

kinfolks.' (to Temple) I carried him to Maggie's.

STEVENS (moving) I think we can all go now. Come on.

GOWAN

So do 1. (he comes on around the desk, and stops again; to Temple) Make

up your mind. Do you want to ride with me, or Gavin?

STEVENS (to Gowan) Go on. You can pick up Bucky.

GOWAN

Right. (he turns, starts toward the steps front, where Temple and

Stevens entered, then stops) That's right. I'm probably still supposed

to use the spy's entrance. (he turns back, starts around the desk

again, toward the door at rear, sees Temple's gloves and bag on the

desk, and takes them

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up and holds them out to her: roughly almost)

Here. This is what they call evidence; dont forget these.

(Temple takes the bag and gloves. Gowan goes on toward the

door at rear)

TEMPLE

(after him) Did you have a hat and coat?

(he doesn't answer. He goes on, exits)

Oh God. Again.

STEVENS (touches her arm) Come on.

TEMPLE (not moving yet) Tomorrow and tomorrow and tomorrow-

STEVENS

(speaking her thought, finishing the sentence)

-he will wreck the car again against the wrong tree, in the wrong place,

and you will have to forgive him again, for the next eight years until

he can wreck the car again in the wrong place, against the wrong tree-

TEMPLE

I was driving it too. I was driving some of the time too.

STEVENS

(gently) Then let that comfort you.

(he takes her arm again, turns toward the stairs)

Come on. It's late.

TEMPLE

(holds back) Wait. He said, No.

STEVENS

Yes.

TEMPLE Did he say why?

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STEVENS Yes. He cant.

TEMPLE

Cant? The Governor of a state, with all the legal power to pardon or at

least reprieve, cant?

STEVENS

That's just law. If it was only law, I could have plead insanity for her

at any time, without bringing you here at two o'clock in the morning-

TEMPLE

And the other parent too; dont forget that. I dont know yet how you did

it.... Yes, Gowan was here first; he was just pretending to be asleep when

I carried Bucky in and put him in his bed; yes, that was what you called

that leaking valve, when we stopped at the filling station to change the

wheeclass="underline" to let him get ahead of us-

STEVENS

All right. He wasn't even talking about justice. He was talking about a

child, a little boy-

TEMPLE

That's right. Make it good: the same little boy to hold whose normal and

natural home together, the murderess, the nigger, the dopefiend whore,

didn't hesitate to cast the last gambit-and maybe that's the wrong word

too, isn't W-she knew and had: her own debased and worthless life. Oh yes,

I know that answer too; that was brought out here tonight too: that a

little child shall not suffer in order to come unto Me. So good can come

out of evil.

STEVENS

It not only can, it must.

TEMPLE

So touchg, then. Because what kind of natural and normal home can that

little boy have where his father may at any time tell him he has no

father?

STEVENS

Haven't you been answering that question every day for six years? Didn't

Nancy answer it for you when she told you how you had fought back, not for

yourself, but for that little boy? Not to show the father that he was

wrong, nor even to prove to the little boy

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that the father was wrong, but to let the little boy learn with his

own eyes that nothing, not even that, which could possibly enter that

house, could ever harm him?

TEMPLE

But I quit. Nancy told you that too.

STEVENS

She doesn't think so now. Isn't that what she's going to prove Friday

morning?

TEMPLE

Friday. The black day. The day you never start on a journey. Except

that Nancy's journey didn't start at daylight or sunup or whenever it

is polite and tactful to hang people, day after tomorrow. Her journey

started that morning eight years ago when I got on the train at the

University-

(she stops: a moment; then

quietly)