“Thank you, master,” I whispered, anticipating the punishment he had in store for me.
“Do the work and ride to your next orgasm.” Totally hard again, he slipped deep into my core and spread his hands over my ass. “I’m not handing it to you this time.”
I loved this position. I rose and fell, taking him where and how I wanted him; the sensations floating me higher with each movement. I was so susceptible, so ready to explode again that when he stilled my hips and placed his hands over my thighs to prevent me from rising again, I almost objected, but the anticipation of his next demand had me holding my breath.
“Turn around,” he commanded.
My heart thundered in my chest, and my clit ached as I swung my legs together so I could turn and face him. Even though I tried to keep him inside as I pirouetted, he pulled out and pressed his length between my butt cheeks.
“I’ll take your suggestion into consideration,” he said, reaching up and caressing my breasts.
What consideration? I had no clue, but as the color of his irises darkened, a thrill rocked me again.
“Now bend over me so I can taste those rosy tips,” he instructed.
Suckling my nipples, he spread my own moistness on my ass. The sensual massage was making me nuts. I wanted him again. I wanted him back inside.
As if reading my mind, he released my nipple and looked me in the eyes. “You take what I give you.”
Thankfully, he gave me two fingers and rubbed my clit. I was so close to going over the edge again, but he hadn’t said I could. In a vain attempt to hold back my orgasm, I squeezed my legs together. The tension and friction was overwhelming. I had to let go-had to.
I closed my eyes as my climax hit. My head fell back and I struggled to inhale.
His hands secured my hips and held me tight on him. He didn’t enter me, didn’t try to come himself. He simply steadied me as the world shattered to millions of pieces.
“Open your eyes,” he said evenly in a low voice.
I dared to peek.
“What am I going to do with you?” Christian asked, shaking his head.
Chapter Two
“Sweet punishment,” I cooed, stretching my leg over Christian’s thighs as the sun entered our room and announced the morning. “When do I get to punish you?”
“When I say so,” he replied, dropping a kiss on the top of my head and wrapping me into his embrace. “Sleep a little. We have a few hours before the stores open and you’ll have the pleasure of shopping for my Christmas present.”
Most of my holiday shopping was done. The only gift left was Christian’s, and I still wasn’t sure what to get him. He never asked for anything specific. Plus, when he did, it always had to do with buying something I’d use-you know, for our mutual pleasure.
“I’m meeting Ally for lunch. Who said I’m going shopping?”
“Fine. Be like that. Don’t buy me a present.” Pretending to pout, he stuck out his lower lip and I couldn’t resist a quick kiss.
“How do you know I didn’t buy it already?”
He laughed, patting my shoulder so I could move over. “It isn’t under the tree. I checked every box you’ve decorated so fancy with those pretty ribbons.”
“Well,” I breathed, tossing my hair over my shoulder and giving him a stern look. “Perhaps you’ve been a bad boy and won’t be getting a present this year? Especially after all the foul language you employed last night.”
“I didn’t hear you complaining.”
“It doesn’t matter what I think. Santa makes those decisions.” Licking my lips, I raised my palms up and acted all confused.
“Fine. I see what it’s like. Use me and dump me like that.” Snapping his fingers, he swung his legs over the side of the bed and got out. “Looks like you don’t have much use for me in the daylight hours. Double standard for sure.” He shrugged his broad shoulders and stood over the bed. “I remember the plans. Have fun with your sister. I’ll just stay home alone and watch the tree lights reflect off other people’s presents.”
I squinted against the early morning sunlight, admiring his perfect physique. Christian carried his six foot three frame with sculpted muscle from head to toe. Toned and perpetually tanned, he certainly resembled a Roman god. No matter if the ground was frozen and carpeted with fresh snow, it steamed below his feet.
“I love you,” I said, smiling and reaching for his hand. “Last night was amazing.”
He sat back on the bed, looked at our intertwined fingers, and cleared his throat. His thumb caressed the inside of my wrist, and I could see that his mind was occupied with something. I had a haunting inkling on the culprit, but I didn’t want to argue again. I didn’t want to give him reason if I was mistaken.
“You okay?” I asked.
“I’m great.” He nodded and looked up and straight into my eyes. “Want to join me in the shower and conserve water?”
He knew I couldn’t. We hadn’t showered together since our anniversary. Besides, if we showered together now, it would lead to making love again. Ejaculating too often could reduce the potency of his sperm. Even the repeated sex last night could have done that, but the sex was so amazing and we were so engrossed in each other that I’d forgotten about our baby plans for a few hours.
I shook my head. “Go ahead without me. I’ll put on the coffee.”
He didn’t get up, but he did let go of my hand and fisted his together. “Kat, were you fertile last night?”
Damn, here was the talk I’d tried to avoid. I didn’t want to fight. But, I wasn’t about to lie, either.
“Yes.”
“So, this willingness to try new things was solely attributed to an ovulation test?”
“No,” I said. “Not solely.” Originally it had been, but once I was with him, I had wanted Christian more than I had in months. “Last night was really amazing. I haven’t been so excited in ages, and my orgasms were out of this world.”
“So, does that mean that you’re now willing to stop doing that damn test twenty-four-seven and enjoy our life again?”
“I do enjoy our life,” I insisted. “Don’t you?”
Christian had suggested we try to be more spontaneous, not limit our lovemaking to the bed, and not keep it only at night. I listened, I tried. It wasn’t easy for me to seduce him the way I had. Actually, that wasn’t true. Once I had the guts to get things rolling, it was great. I’d enjoyed it to no end and the thrill still raced through me. I could have told him, but I wasn’t ready.
Running his palm down his face, then rubbing his shoulder, Christian certainly didn’t look encouraging. He didn’t say a thing.
“You wanted variation. You said something adventurous, so I did that. Did I do something wrong?” The silence made my stomach roil and the thrill disappear. I crossed my arms over my abdomen. “Talk to me, Christian. Let’s not do this again. We need to talk.”
“You really want me to talk?” He faced me, sharing his dismay and disappointment. “Will you listen?”
I nodded.
“It’s not that I don’t want a baby,” he said, lowering his gaze and taking an audible breath. “It’s that I don’t want to lose us in the process. Sometimes I feel like nothing more than a stud horse, here to perform when the test says I should.”
“But-”
“No buts,” he interrupted. “That is how I feel. You asked, so listen and don’t try to justify what has been going on.”
I’d never thought of him that way. Had I?
No. I loved him. He was my world. Each and every time he touched me, I went up in flames. Sharing a total of ten years together had not put a damper on the way I felt about or reacted to him. I was simply working on what we both wanted. He was the one who had originally suggested that the moment was right to start a family.