back and breathed after a merger, she who was no financial genius. He replied that she was just about the sourest thing he knew. "But the merger!" she insisted. "Let us keep to the painful point!" How he laughed. He said she was the most unholy bitch. "I was always gentle as a girl," she said, "but simply made the mistake of marriage." "With all its perks!" he suggested. He was helping himself, it sounded, from a bottle. "Which disappear overnight," she said. The mattress was groaning on which she lay, or threw herself into another position. The maid knew how her mistress could whip the sheets around her at a certain stage in a discussion. "Look, Jinny," he said, "if only you give me your assistance, we can manage this situation as we have the others." "I!" She laughed. "Well! It positively staggers me to hear there are uses to which I can be put!" "You are an intelligent woman." She was laughing very short laughs. "If you hate your husband, no doubt it is because he is a stupid beggar who doesn't deserve much more." There was a pause then, in which there was no means of telling who was playing the next card. The maid did not hear her mistress's husband go, because she began to yawn, and sag, and crept away finally. Somewhere in her sleep she heard, perhaps, the front-door knocker clap, and in the morning she found that Mr Chalmers-Robinson was no longer there; nor had he slept in the bed she had prepared for him. Mrs Chalmers-Robinson was particularly funny and dreamy over a cup of early tea. She had frizzed out her hair in some different way, too. She said, "You will not understand, Ruth-you are too good-how other people are forced to behave contrary to their natures." "I don't know about that," the maid agreed, but wondered. Then the mistress suddenly stroked the girl's hand, almost imperceptibly, almost unconsciously, it seemed, until the latter pulled it away. Both were momentarily embarrassed, but forgot that it had happened. On a later occasion, Mrs Chalmers-Robinson did remark, "I think I am only happy, Ruth, with you." But the girl was busy with something. Not long afterwards, a new man brought the ice. He clattered down the back steps, on a morning washed by early rain, though not so clean that it did not smell of lantana and midnight cats. "Good day there!" said the new man. "Where's a bloke expected to put it?" Ethel, who was always cranky early, and particularly on days when she was expected to dish up something hot for lunch, did not look up, but said, "Show him, will you?" "Yes," said Ruth. "The kitchen chest is just through here. In the larder. Then there's a second one, along the passage, beside the pantry. You'll have to mind the step, though." The man was crossing the girls' hall, where Ethel sat with a cup of tea, studying the social page. From the man's hands hung steel claws, weighted with double blocks of ice. It looked like rain was frozen in it. Then he had to go and drop one of the big blocks. How it bumped on the brown lino, and lumps of ice shooting off, into corners. Ethel was ropeable, while Ruth tried to calm her down. "It's all right, Ethel. I'll get the pan, and clean it up in two shakes." The man was already groping after the bigger of the broken bits. His hands were rather pinched and green from handling so much ice. But he did not seem to worry about his clumsiness. "Good job we missed the cook's toe!" he joked. But Ethel did not take it good at all. "Oh, get on with it!" she said, hitting the paper she was reading, without looking up. Ruth was glad to lead the man to the pantry ice-chest. He had one of those long, tanned faces, too thin; it made her think of used pennies. He was rather tall and big, with hollow-looking eyes. He was wearing a greenish old digger coat, from which one of the buttons was hanging, and she would have liked to sew it on. "That is it," she said, closing the lid of the chest. "And double on Saturdays." "If I stay the course till Saturday," he said. "But you've only begun, haven't you?" "That don't mean I'm all that shook on the job," he said. "Ice!" "Oh," she said. "No." They were crossing the girls' dining-room, where already there were pools of water from all those pieces of half-melted ice. "No," she repeated. "But if it is you that comes." Then she thought she would have a look at his face, just once more, although it was a kind of face that made her shy. What it told her was so different from all she knew of herself; it was the difference between a knife and butter. But she would have gone on looking at the man's face, if he had not been in it. In her mind's eye, she saw him without his hat. She liked, she thought, black hair on men. "Gunna rain," said the iceman. "Yes," she said, "it looks like that." Looking at the sky as though she had just discovered it was there. Still, you had to show an interest. "Yes," he said. "It's a funny old weather." She agreed that it was. "You never know, do you?" she said. Then he jerked his head at her. She almost overbalanced from the step to watch the new iceman go, the rotten stitches giving in the seams of his old overcoat. "I thought you was going to do something about all this nasty mess," the cook complained. "Yes," said the parlourmaid. "I'll get the pan." "A cloth and a bucket," said the cook, "is what you'll need by now." That evening as she waited for the mistress to finish powdering herself, Ruth Joyner announced to the dressing-table mirror, "There was a new iceman called today." "But Ruth, when I expect to be _stimulated__!" Mrs Chalmers-Robinson protested. Because she could not have felt flatter. She had a headache, too. "I mean," she said, and frowned, "I should like to be taken out of myself." She would have liked to descend a flight of stairs, in some responsive model, of lamé, in the circumstances, and the faint play of ostrich feathers on her bare arms. Her legs were still exceptional; it was her arms that caused her anxiety. "Tell me something beautiful. Or extraordinary. Even disastrous." Mrs Chalmers-Robinson sighed. She did also hope suddenly that she had not hurt the feelings of her dull maid, for whom she had about as much affection as she would ever be capable of giving. Ruth thought she would not say any more. But smiled. She remembered as much as she had seen of the iceman's rather strong neck above the collar of the greenish overcoat. If she did not dwell on that image, it was because her upbringing suggested it might not be permissible. Though it continued to flicker forth. The following morning, as the mistress's spirits had not improved, the maid was sent to the chemist at the corner. When she returned, and had handed over the little packet, she could not resist looking in the pantry chest. The fresh ice was already in it, double for Saturday. So there she was, herself imprisoned in the mass of two solid days, from which no one would have heard her, even if she had been able to call. Once she went and stood for company beside the cook, who had been very quiet all these days, and was now stirring mysteriously at a bowl. "What is that?" the parlourmaid asked, though she did not particularly want to know. "That is what they call a _liayzong__," Ethel answered, with a cold pride that obviously would not explain further. On Sunday evening Ruth went to service, and felt sad, and got soggy in the nose and did not care to sing the hymns, and lost a glove, and came away. On Monday she clattered early downstairs, in fresh starch, because she had heard, she thought. "How are we?" the iceman called. "It's still you, then," she said. "How me?" "Thought you was fed up." He laughed. "I am always fed up." "Go on!" She was incredulous. Then she noticed. She said, "The button fell off that I saw was going to." "What odds!" he said. "A bloody button!" "I could of sewed it on, easy," she said. But he dumped the ice in the chest, and left. Most days now, she coincided with the iceman, and it was not all by trying; it seemed to happen naturally. Once he showed her a letter from a mate who was starting a carrying business between the city and the near country; and would he come in on it? The name, she discovered, was Mr T. Godbold, from the address on the envelope. Once he asked, "Got a free Sunday, eh? What about takin' a ride on the ferry?" She wore her new hat, a big, rather bulbous velour, of which she had been proud, but which was unfashionable, she realized almost at once. They bought some oranges, and sucked them in the sun, down to the skins, on a little stony promontory, above a green bay. Few houses had been built yet in that quarter, and it seemed that she had never been farther from all else in her closeness to one person. It was not wrong, though; only natural. So she half closed her eyes to the sunlight, and allowed his presence to lap against her. In the course of conversation, when they had thrown aside the orange skins, of which the smell was going to persist for days, she realized he was saying, "I never had much to do with girls like you. You are not my type, you know." "What is your type?" she asked, looking in the mouth of her handbag, of which the plating had begun to reveal the true metal. "Something flasher," Tom Godbold admitted. "Perhaps I could become that," she said. How he laughed. And his arched throat hurt her. "I never had a girl like you!" he laughed. "I am not your girl," she corrected, looking heavy at the water. He thought he had cottoned on to her game. "You're a quiet one, Ruth," he said. Laying his hand, which she already knew intimately from looking at it, along her serge thigh. But she suddenly sat up, overwhelmed by the distance she was compelled to keep between herself and some human beings. "You are not religious?" he asked. Now she wished she had been alone also in fact. "I don't know what you would call religious," she said. "I don't know what other people are." Whereupon he was silent. Fortunately. She could not have borne his remarks touching that most secret part of her. He began throwing stones at the sea, but looking sideways, or so it felt, at her hot and prickly serge costume. Now, indeed, he did wonder why he had tagged along with this lump of a girl. Even had she been willing, it was never worth the risk of putting a loaf in some slow oven on a Sunday afternoon. So that he got resentful in the end. He remarked, "We're gunna miss that ferry." "Yes, " she agreed. He continued to sit, and frown. He put his arms round his knees, and was rocking himself on his behind, quite regardless of her, she saw. She waited, calmer. While the girl watched, it was the man who became the victim of those unspecified threats which the seconds can conjure out of their gulf. Although he was screwing up his eyes, ostensibly to resist fragmentation along with the brittle sunlight and the coruscating water, what he feared more was to melt in the darkness of his own skull, to drift like a green flare across the no-man's-land of memory. This suddenly shrivelled man gave the girl the courage to say, "You are a funny one. You was talking about missing the boat." Nor could she resist dusting his back. It was her most natural gesture. "Dirty old dust and needles!" she mumbled to herself. He shook her off then, and jumped up, though her touch remained. He had always shivered at what was gentlest. Many of his own thoughts made him wince, and it was the simplest of them that fingered most unmercifully: touching a scab, dusting down, pointing, with the bread-dough still caked round arthritic joints. But he became quite cheerful as they walked, and once or twice he took her by the arm, to show her something that attracted his attention, a yacht, or a bird, or the limbs of some tortured tree. Several times he looked into her face, or it could have been into his own more peaceful thoughts. In any case, the lines of his face had eased out. And in her pleasure, she confessed, "I could come out again, Tom. If you will ask me. Will you?" He was caught there. She was too simple. So he had to say yes. Even though he left her in no doubt how she must interpret it. Curiously, though, she did not feel unhappy. She was smiling at the sun, the strength of which had grown bearable by now. She could still smell the smell of oranges. It was the relentless procession of mornings that killed hope, and made for moodiness. And the slam of the lid on the ice-chest. For sometimes the girl would not go out to receive the iceman. "That iceman is a real beast," the cook had to comment once. The parlourmaid did not answer. "You are feeling off colour, Ruth," said the mistress. She was lying on a sofa, reading, and the maid had brought her her coffee as usual on the little Georgian salver. "I hope there is nothing really wrong?" The girl made a face. "I am no different, " she said. But had developed an ugly spot on her chin. "I can see you ought to take up Science," said the mistress. "It is wonderful; you don't know how consoling." The opinions and enthusiasms of those around her would slide off the girl's downcast eyelids. She liked people to have their ideas, though. She would smile gently, as if to encourage those necessities of their complicated minds. "I am not educated," she replied on this occasion. "Understanding is all that is necessary," Mrs Chalmers-Robinson replied. "And it does not always come with education. Quite the contrary, in fact." But Ruth continued listless. Then the mistress had to say, "I am going to give you something. You must not be offended." She took her into the bathroom, and gave her a little flask, in which, she explained, was a preparation of gin and camphor, excellent against pimples. "One simply rubs it into the place. Rather hard," she advised. "I find it infallible." Because, really, Ruth's ugly spot was getting on her nerves. "Of course, I know you will think, in my case, at least: Science should do it." Here Mrs Chalmers-Robinson sighed. "But when you have reached my age, you will have discovered that every little helps." Ruth took the bottle, but she did not think it helped. Although her mistress assured her it was having the desired result. Certainly, one morning very soon after, the girl's skin was suddenly clear and alive. She began to sing in that rather trembly mezzo which Mrs Chalmers-Robinson so deplored. She sang a hymn about redemption. "Do you feel happy when you sing those hymns?" her mistress was compelled to ask. "Oh, yes, I am _happy__!" Ruth replied, and was extra careful with the Brasso. She said that that Sunday she was going to the beach at Bondi with her friend. Mrs Chalmers-Robinson's bracelets rustled. "I am glad you have a friend," she said. "Is she also in domestic service?" The girl folded the rag with which she was polishing the door-knobs. "No," she said. "That is, I got friendly, recently, with the man that brings the ice," she said. "Oh," said Mrs Chalmers-Robinson. She had composed her mouth into a line. On Sunday when her maid was all arrayed, the mistress appeared somewhat feverish, her eyes more brilliant than ever before. She had done her mouth. There it was, blooming like a big crimson flower, with a little, careful, mauve line, apparently to keep it within bounds. "Enjoy yourself, Ruth!" she called, brave and bright. Before she settled down to Science. "God is incorporeal," she read, "divine, supreme, infinite, Mind, Spirit, Soul, Principle, Life, Truth, Love." Mrs Chalmers-Robinson read and studied, to transform "hard, unloving thoughts," and become a "new creature." Ruth waited on the corner near the park. She waited, and her sensible heels no longer gave her adequate support. On Sundays the few people in the street always belonged to someone. They were marching towards teas in homes similar to their own, or to join hands upon the sand. Whenever people passed her, the waiting girl would look at her watch, to show that she, too, was wanted. When Tom came at last-he had been held up by meeting a couple of blokes-it was quite late, but she was that glad; her face was immediately repaired by happiness. Oh, no, she had not had to wait all that long. By the time they reached the beach at Bondi, the light was already in its decline. They ate some sausages and chips in a refreshment room. Tom was a bit beery, she thought. "I near as anything didn't come this evening," he confessed. "I nearly stayed and got full. Those coves I met wanted me to. They'd stocked up with grog enough for a month of Sundays." "Then it was a pity you had asked me to come," she said, but flat, with no trace of bitterness or censure. "I sort of felt there was no way out." "It would have been better not to come." "Oh, I wanted to," he said. And again, softer, after a pause: "I wanted to." "I wish you would always tell me the truth,"