My feet got cold next.
My legs chimed in third.
By the time I reached the Boston University bridge, maybe a mile and a half to go, my head and chest both hurt. My pace flagged, meaning more steps to finish, but I didn't see that I had much choice. I wheezed to the Massachusetts Avenue bridge, breaking down to a trot and finally a walk. A fast walk, because as soon as I stopped running, my teeth began to chatter.
There are a few public benches upriver of the Fairfield ramp. The bum in the Redskins hat was sitting on one of them. As I drew even with him, my right calf cramped. I stopped walking to stand still on it, then tried to stretch it, using a tree as support for my palms. A voice behind me said, "A little of that beforehand'd do you a world of good."
I turned my head. The bum on the bench nodded. Without replying, I turned my head back to the tree.
He said, "Might also run into the wind first. You won't sweat so much, and on the homeward leg, you'll be going with her and feeling cozy."
I gritted my teeth and over my shoulder said, "Right."
"But consider the source, eh?"
This time I turned completely around. The man's voice had the singsong quality of Frank Perdue hucking chickens. The eyes behind the glasses were alert, almost jovial. What hair I could see sticking out from under the hat looked black and gray, the three-day growth on his cheeks and chin grayer still.
I said, "Sorry. Thanks for the advice."
"Another thing?"
"Yeah?"
"You won't ever get to the marathon, much less finish her, without changing your stride some."
Watching him, I put my fists on my hips and tried walking gingerly. The cramp was still there, but not as compelling. "The marathon."
"That's right."
"What makes you think I'm aiming at that?"
"Everything. It's cold enough, the fair-weather folks are on treadmills or stationary bikes somewheres, comparing their portfolios with the person next to them. You're out here, early enough in the morning, but you obviously don't know how far you can go in this weather and that kind of outfit. Or much about your own endurance curve and how to build it. Oh, the shoes are beat up, so you haven't been on your dead ass all year, but basically you don't have a clue how to condition yourself."
"Anything else?"
"Yeah. You're the right age too."
I stared at him. "The right age."
"Yeah. The age where you start wondering, 'Can I really do it?' That wondering, that gives you the look."
"I've got the look too, huh?"
"Like Rocky in that first training scene, where he gets to the monument steps and looks like he's maybe gonna infarct."
I laughed. Which made me shiver and reminded me how cold I was. I shook my head and turned to go.
"One suggestion about that stride?"
I stopped. "Yeah?"
"Man your size has to lengthen his stride a little, cover more ground. Otherwise, you're gonna pound your knees to powder, all the steps you'll be taking in training. Only two ways to lengthen the stride. One's to lunge with the front foot. Bad in more ways than you got time to hear. Other way's to push off with your back foot a little more, use the quads at the front of your thighs to kind of launch that back leg into the next stride. Try that, the longer distances'll come a little easier."
Made sense. "Thanks again."
The man stood up. In a quieter voice he said, "Better get yourself inside and warm now," and began moving upriver, hands in the side pockets of his jacket.
I said, "Hey?"
"Yeah'?"
"Why all the free advice?"
The man stopped, turned partway. I didn't think he was going to say anything, then he spoke quickly. "When I was sitting against that skyscraper over there?"
"Yes'?"
A shrug and the quieter voice again. "You waved back."
After showering I wolfed down a couple of English muffins and a quart of ice water. I put on a suit and tie, then started walking to the South End.
Boston has law schools like New York has museums, seven all told. Harvard is Harvard. Boston College and Boston University are both solid institutions often confused with each other by people from out of state. The schools with the most interesting histories are New England (founded to give women the opportunity to study law) and Suffolk (founded to give male immigrants the same). Northeastern's co-op program fills the niche for people who want to alternate school and on-the-job training.
Mass Bay thought it could fill a niche too. In the late sixties some entrepreneurs figured they could prosper on the baby boomers' abject horror of graduating college and having nowhere to spend their parents' remaining money. Even though both New England and Suffolk offered long-established evening divisions, Mass Bay felt it also could cash in on full-time employees who wanted part-time law study. After getting back from Vietnam, I was one.
Given that my stipend under the G.I. Bill would cover most of the tuition, a career counselor at Empire allowed as how it wouldn't be a bad idea for me to do one year of law school. I chose Mass Bay because I hadn't been what you'd call a scholar during my undergraduate days at Holy Cross. Also, I did about as well on standardized tests like the LSAT as Ray Charles would shooting skeet. The only standardized number Mass Bay cared about was 98.6, and the school was located within blocks of Empire's office tower. At the end of the year my grades were a little better than average, but I knew the law and I would not enjoy each other over the course of a lifetime. So I simply didn't register the following fall.
Mass Bay's first and only building was a converted armory, the facade of pink granite and turrets still impressive. The security desk was just inside the entrance, only a few students sitting on plastic chairs in a linoleum lobby.
"Help you?" said the guard, a pensioner with a green uniform shirt, khaki pants, and no tie or badge.
The clock on the wall told me I was ten minutes late. "I'm here to see Inés Roja."
The guard moved something around in his mouth. "Good luck to you." He pushed a button on an old – fashioned switchboard and said into the receiver, "Inés, you expecting somebody?… Didn't say…" He looked up at me. "Yeah, yeah, that's him… Right."
Hanging up, he pointed to the elevator at the back of the lobby. The only elevator. "Take that to three and turn left. Can't miss it."
"Thanks. Kind of quiet, isn't it?"
"Kids are out for Christmas already, you can believe it. We're in special session now." He spoke the phrase the way a prison guard would say "rehabilitation therapy."
When the elevator doors opened on three, Inés Roja didn't give me a chance to turn left.
Pulling back the cuffed sleeve of a copper-colored suit, she checked her watch. "The professor teaches at eleven. I will take you to the classroom. After that you and she can return to the office to talk."
"Wait a minute. I'm going to sit through a whole class hour before I talk with her?"
"It will not be as long as an hour. It is the initial meeting of special session, so it will be short. The professor wants you to see her in the classroom. Please?"
Roja got on the elevator with me, and we rode down to the second floor. She indicated a door marked 205. The room I'd sat in for my first-year courses.
"Please, go in and make yourself comfortable."
From what I remembered about 205, that would be quite a trick.
5
"TAKE YOUR SEATS, PLEASE.”
Shuffling mixed with comments and laughter as thirty or so students arranged themselves in the classroom that could hold seventy-five. Unlike my day, the ratio of women to men was now almost fifty-fifty.
The room itself hadn't changed, though. Floor flat rather than pitched, tiled rather than carpeted. Fixed, narrow tables in straight lines. Fixed, narrow benches as well, the backs too low and at right angles to seats too shallow. It was as though an extraterrestrial designer had been told the function of the room without being shown the human bodies that would occupy it for hours at a time.