“Oh. You’re innocent? Is that it?”
“I…”
“Let me tell you something, Sara.”
She started at hearing her name. Almost as though he’d hit her again.
“That’s right, I know who you are. And I didn’t just lift your name off your driver’s license either. I know plenty about you. But we’ll get to all of that later. Let me tell you something. The only innocent on God’s green earth is an infant, Sara. A baby. Some people would say an unborn baby. But I’d extend that to, say, the first six months of life or so. In my own opinion. What’s your feeling on the subject?”
“I… I don’t know. I…”
“Let me ask you something. What were you going to do with your unborn child? Your baby. Your innocent…” He laughed. “I know perfectly well what you were going to do with him. You were going to let some fucking jew doctor kill him and flush him down the toilet. Now that’s real nice. I don’t think that makes you exactly an innocent yourself, do you? I honestly don’t think so. Plus you had to do a little fancy fucking in order to get yourself knocked up the first place, didn’t you? And I don’t see any wedding ring on your finger. So you tell me. Who’s innocent here?”
She heard a series of snapping sounds and realized that he was taking her photo. Walking around her, getting her from various angles. She heard what sounded like him opening and closing a drawer behind her and then heard his footsteps approaching.
“This won’t hurt,” he said.
And then his hand was moving over her, rubbing some viscous scentless lotion over her shoulders, down across her back and waist. The relief was immediate. But he was wrong about the hurting. In a way it hurt like hell. When he got to her buttocks it hurt and when he got to her breasts. It hurt that this sick son of a bitch should be touching her in these places and that she had no say in the matter. She was learning that there were realms of hurt she’d never imagined.
“You’re doing this because I…?”
“I’m doing this because I can, Sara. Get that through your head. Because I can. But yes, I also have an agenda. Let me tell you how it’s going to be,” he said almost gently. “Have you ever heard of the Organization?”
“No.”
“I didn’t think so. Open your legs.”
She’d been holding them tight together. She didn’t want him touching her there. The whip hadn’t touched her there thank god so there was no reason and even if there were a reason she…
“I said open them. Do you remember what happened to you just now? Just a couple minutes ago? You want me to turn you around maybe, try the other side?”
She uncrossed her legs and braced herself, shivering. She felt his lingers smooth the salve over each of her upper inner thighs. His fingers coarse, the salve soothing. But the fingers went no further. They left her alone there.
“That’s good,” he said. “You’re cooperating. I could have forced you. But that’s not what this is about. This is about you doing what I ask you to do because I ask you.”
She felt him stand and heard him walk around in front of her. “I’m not going to tell you much about the Organization right now. Except to say that the Organization has a very long reach. And that you’re involved with it now, like it or not. Just like I am. I told you I know a lot about you. Well, here’s just a little part of what I know.
“Your full name is Sara Evelyn Foster. You were born Sara Evelyn Schap in Boston, Massachusetts, on September 6th, 1955. Your parents are Charles and Evelyn Shap of 221 South Elm Street in Harrison, New York. Your mother is sixty-eight and your father’s seventy-two. You teach learning disabled kids at the Winthrop School at 115 West 77th Street in Manhattan. You’ve got a boyfriend named Gregory Glover who lives at 224 Amity Street in Rye and who dropped you off for a ten-forty-five appointment this morning with a Dr. Alfred Weller, to abort your three-month-old fetus. How am I doing?”
Her head was swimming. How long had he been stalking her? To know this much?
“How can you know all that?”
“It’s not what I know personally, Sara. It’s what the Organization knows. And believe me, we know plenty. This is nothing but the tip of a very big iceberg. But the point is what I said before. That we’ve got reach. And we get what we want, one way or another. So don’t think you’re in this alone. You’re not. Your mother and father are in it. Glover’s in it. Your kids at the Winthrop School are in it. Along with plenty of others. This is not just your problem.
“So it all depends on you, Sara. If you do exactly as I say you’ll not only avoid another beating like this you’ll be keeping a lot of other people you care about safe and sound and out of some very deep shit.”
“Why? What is this about?” She was practically screaming at him. She couldn’t help it. It was crazy! She felt like a receiver on overload, could practically smell her fuses burning. “ What do you want from me?”
“I want you to calm down, for starters.” He sighed. “Look, I’ve got some stuff that needs taking care of. I’m going to take you down, put you in the Long Box again. You can rest.”
How could she rest?
“You’re not going to give me any trouble, are you? If I take you down? Remember what I said. The lives and safety of a lot of people are depending on exactly how you handle this.”
Could all this possibly be true? Could there really be some kind of Organization out there waiting to pounce on her parents or Greg or the kids? Or was this some invention of his, something he’d made up just to scare her?
All this planning, she thought. So much planned ahead of time. The coffin — what he called the Long Box. The whipping frame. That horrible confining thing he put over her head. The abduction itself, so fast and clean. They’d targeted her specifically. Could there be something to what he was saying?
Then the woman. Who was she? Part of this Organization, whatever it was? The woman hadn’t made an appearance since the car to her knowledge.
She remembered the quick deft plunge of the needle.
She needed more information. A lot more. Right now it wouldn’t do any good at all to resist him.
“I won’t give you any trouble.”
“Good. Do you need to go to the bathroom? I can bring you down a pan.”
“No.”
When he’d uncuffed her and was leading her across the room she asked for some clothes but he refused. He told her she could take off the blindfold once she was inside and that he would tell her when it was okay to do that but that she’d have to keep it handy and put it on before he let her out again. She asked him for a blanket because it was cold in there and he handed her one made of light cotton, thin and soft like a baby’s blanket and she wrapped it around her against her nudity as she lay down on the sliding board and he began to push her in. And then she had to ask him one more time.
“Please. What do you want from me? What do I have to do?” she said softly.
“Lots of things,” he said, no harshness in his voice either. Almost as though he were somehow in league with her now. “You’ll see. Most of it won’t all be as bad as today. Though I have to be honest with you, some of it will probably be worse. I know how these things go. But it’s all for your own good, believe me. I’m not so bad. You’ll find that out in time. After a while everything will be fine. I don’t want to hurt you any more than I have to, Sara. Honestly.”
He slid her into the dark.
“Why would I?” he said. “You’re pregnant. You’re going to be a mother. You ’re going to have a baby.”
He went upstairs and saw Kath on the couch with a bag of potato chips open in her lap.
“How’s your movie?” he said.