He gave back against the wall, looked at her a moment like she was some kind of eetee, then leaned his head back, turned his face away and stared into nowhere a second or two, all the wild temper gone. He just looked hurt and tired and quietly, heart-deep, mad at something. A muscle worked in his jaw. "I have work to do," he said. Distant voice, a little wobbly and a little nowhere. And he straightened up and made to do that, but she blocked him.
"That's not all!" she said, fast, while he was listening to anything at all. "Hughes come at me this morning. Hear me? I set him back some."
He was focussed tight on her then. Scared.
" Don'tdo anything stupid," she said. " Don'tgo out of sight, for God's sake. You can be mad at me, just don't do anything that's going to put you where there aren't any witnesses."
"You're a damned fool," he said. "Bet, they're going to kill you."
"Mmmn, no, they aren't. Don't you worry."
" Fitch—" He got his voice down, under the ship-sound, and if Bernie and Musa were through talking over there across the consoles, they were letting them both alone for the moment. "I told you from the start. You're going to get killed."
No—no, not good for a man's pride to say she had sent Hughes to infirmary, after Hughes had sent himthere—even if it had been Hughes and two friends and a no-fighting rule that got him, even if it had been a supply locker Hughes had caught him in, and NG
had a lot of real spookiness when it came to being boxed in and trapped.
"I been on ships like this all my life," she said, reasonably—a lie, but the important part was true. "I told you, there's ways to get at people without laying a hand on 'em, and there's a time you can do it and get away. I know Hughes' game, damn if I don't. You can trust me, NG, you can trustme. I know what I'm doing."
That was a real hard thing for him. But he thought about it. She saw the figuring going on in his eyes, saw him scared and upset, and shying off from the obvious conclusion.
Couldn't. Couldn't make it that far. And he was at least straight enough with her to let her see it.
"I been there," she said. "I been there more'n once, man. Like letting a knife against your gut. But you got to take a chance on it now while you gota chance. You got a handful of guys come up to a party you was at and they give you a little haze about it, but friendly, you understand that? You got to say good mornin' now and don't take it hard.
They got their pride too, and they come a long way, a longway last night. You got to come at least that far to them."
"The hell I do."
That made her fit to hit him. But she said, calmly and quietly, "Dunno how you feel about them or why. But I sure know what you owe me, mister, and if you slap them in the face after all I've done you make mea fool. You're the one'll get me killed."
That got through, how deep, she couldn't tell, but it hit, and he shut up and just looked mad, the way he would when he was cornered.
While she had the shakes like a neo, fighting with a damn merchanter who had been no more than a kid when she had signed onto Africa.
Andlearned the lessons he had yet to figure out.
Damnhim!
I can fuckin'see why you make so many friends on this ship, misterc
She didn't say that. She just walked off and left him, too mad to think straight, but Bernstein had been patient, and Bernstein deserved a calm face and a clear head.
So she went over to number three station and checked comp to see what her next-up job was.
See me, it said.
She shut down and turned to go do that—but there was a bridge officer in the doorway, and her heart did a little tick-over.
Orsinic notjust sightseeing, damn sure.
Orsini did his little courtesy to Bernstein, Bernstein caught her eye and beckoned.
So she walked over and Musa melted off sideways, finding business to attend to.
"Yeager," Orsini said.
"Yessir?"
"There was an accident in the showers this morning."
"Yessir."
"You were a witness?"
"Yessir."
"What happened?"
Hope to God Hughes took the cue she'd handed him and hadn'tgotten elaborate. Or didn't want to go up on countercharges.
"Wasn't a line outside, I guess Lindy just figured there might be a stall free, and he come in just as I was drying off—opened the door, he scared me, I guess I scared him; anyway, he must've hit a wet spot."
"He slipped."
"I guess he slipped, sir."
Long silence from Orsini. A dead-black stare, while the sweat ran down her sides.
Then Orsini wrote something down on the TranSlate he was carrying, something more than a sentence, said, "That'll be all, Yeager," and she said: "Sir," while he walked off.
She didn't want to look at Bernstein. But you didn't walk off from a mof without a courtesy either, and Bernstein waited.
"Sorry, sir," she said, then.
"What'd he do?"
"Made a grab," she said. Bernstein didn't look like he was going to kill her, so she added, "At a soapy woman. And him dressed. Must've lost his grip, sir."
"Yeager—" Bernstein drew a breath. "You watch it. Dammit, you watch it."
"Yessir." She was shaking. That was twice this morning.
"You got a finish-up on a system over in the shop. You want to see to that? Ought to take you about an hour. This afternoon you got sims on three, long as you can stand it."
Simulations. Engineering sims. It didn't help her stomach at all.
A close brush with Orsini, Hughes and his friends were damn sure going to be smarter coming at her now, Musa thought she was a fool, NG was ready to kill her, and Bernie wanted an unlicensed machinist running the boards on a jury-rig like Loki.
Sure.
She went and started the electronics job, flipped through the manual and found out it was out of the helm-engineering interface.
God.
Do-it-in-your-sleep stuff—if you didn't know where it was going back to. She triple-checked everything, went to Bernie to ask if there was an install or if she just left it, and he said, "That's the backup to the backup now, but there's some reason it blew. Mainday's still looking for it."
Makes you real confident.
Damn ship's falling apart.
NG still wasn't speaking much by shift-change—as if every word cost him money—
but he was civil, at least, and subdued—the NG who sat the boards, mostly, just business.
"You got to help me some more," she said to him, "with this stuff with the boards.
Bernie's on me about it."
And he just nodded, nothing really engaged and nothing really to fight with, not actually looking at her.
She was sure Musa read him just fine, she was sure Musa was mad about NG's acting up, but NG wasn't going to give either one of them a handle to grab, just a not-there, don't-care, do-what-you-like.
It made you want to back him up against a wall, that was what it did; but you couldn't, NG would do about what he'd done with Hughes and his friends, she reckoned.
So he just wandered on around the rim on his own with them behind him, and he walked up on the end of the supper-line in rec and didn't speak to anybody, didn't look at anybody, even when people looked at him to see what kind of mind he was in.
And she and Musa got in line behind him and he didn't turn around, didn't come alive at all.