After Galina boarded the tram that would take her home, Filip walked aimlessly, his hands deep in his pants pockets. His senses were filled with Galina—the open, spirited look of her, the way she smelled faintly of starch and rosewater, the little joyous skip in her step, the curve of her neck when she bent her head over her schoolwork. Filip had stopped offering to help her; she was not troubled by her mediocre grades, moving from one class to the next with just enough effort to get by. “You want to go to university, to be an architect. I only want to sing,” she would say. “Do I need geometry to sing?”
And she sang at every opportunity: traditional folk songs and the new jazzy tunes and romances introduced by popular performers at Sunday bandstand dances in the park. Her voice was pure and sweet; it never failed to tug at his heart. It had an ephemeral beauty but also a concrete quality, as if you could pluck it from the air and hold it in your hand, sift it through your fingers like fine sand. Even now, the fading refrain of “Chernoye Morye” lingered in his ears.
Not knowing quite how he got there, he found himself in front of Avram’s shop. The usual crates of cherries and apricots rested on rough wooden trestles beside the open door, but something was different. The battered, peeling sign (HOUSEHOLD GOODS, PRODUCE, FLOUR, TEA), with its hand-painted whimsical teapot, was gone. In its place hung a garish red board, THE PEOPLE’S STORE spelled out in large white letters. A short, round-faced woman in a dingy brown smock leaned against the doorway, cracking sunflower seeds with her teeth.
“Shto nado?” she asked brusquely, popping the last few seeds into her mouth and brushing her large square hands down over an ample stomach. “What do you need?”
“I—I,” Filip stuttered. “Where is Avram?”
“No more Jew store,” the woman said, spitting sunflower shells onto the sidewalk and crossing arms plump as unbaked dough across her bosom. “No more Jew boardinghouse. Rooms for officers only.”
“But where is Avram?” Filip repeated dumbly. “I—I owe him some money.”
“Gone,” she shrugged. “I don’t know where, and I don’t care. Nor should you,” she added, nodding at the Young Pioneer pin on his collar. “If you owe money, you can pay me. The motherland needs you, young man.”
“I… don’t have it with me.” Filip backed away, feeling assaulted by the slogan; it sounded glib and hollow coming from this peasant. Who was this baba anyway? The Pioneers were young and energetic, led by schoolteachers and government clerks. Even the factory workers’ children among them were striving for a better future. From each according to ability, to each according to need. He had repeated the words countless times, thinking he knew their meaning: you serve your country, make your contribution to society, you receive education, wages, housing, food, a pension when you retire. That made sense. But this woman, this crude, seed-crunching uneducated usurper, who was she? She must be the embodiment of “the people,” an amorphous, faceless entity Filip had always assumed had nothing to do with himself and his world. Then where did Avram fit in, and Laila? They had served the neighborhood since before Filip was born, making a modest living in exchange for tireless and cheerful labor. There was room in the Soviet future for them, too. Wasn’t there?
10
FILIP HURRIED. It had not been easy to slip out of the house with his mother’s favorite records; even finding a spare pillowcase to hide them in had taken some doing. But the clubhouse door was not locked, and he was able to hide his package under a table in the vestibule, concealed by a red cloth someone had draped over it in honor of the holiday.
What holiday was it again? He could not remember which fearless leader’s birthday or pivotal struggle was being celebrated. Now he was late for the Young Pioneer meeting at school, and was sure to catch a reprimand from the unit leader. The reprimand did not matter to him as much as the attention—he dreaded being singled out before the group, everyone a witness to his shame.
“…and this is why we have called a special meeting today. Good morning, Comrade! Did you sleep well?” Every head turned to watch Filip, red-faced, sink into the nearest seat amid general laughter.
The leader, a young schoolteacher, held up a restraining hand. “Some may think that a patriotic holiday is a time for personal relaxation. Not so. What the motherland expects of you is personal reflection and ever-greater vigilance. What have you observed this week?” She scanned the room expectantly.
“My mother was up very early to iron a fresh blouse for the ceremony. But my grandfather grumbled, saying he would miss his walk in the park,” a girl in the third row offered.
“Good work. We must help our older citizens to overcome their outdated thought habits. You must do this. And remember, we are all here to help you, to help one another recognize the greater good, and to fight against weakness and negativity.”
Filip squirmed in his seat. When had things changed? He missed the innocence of the earlier meetings, the stories of valor and leadership, the lessons from history. He had loved hearing about the downfall of Napoleon’s prideful exploits, about the heroes of the French Revolution, unafraid to spill the blood of aristocrats in the streets along with their own. He had loved learning how, even in America, the fearless revolutionary George Washington had triumphed against imperialist evil, only to see his efforts sabotaged by greedy capitalist interests. And had not the great Abraham Lincoln, a humble man of the people, laid down his life to lift his black brethren out of bondage? Most of all, Filip missed the songs of his childhood, the songs of brotherhood and hope in a shiny new future, a future as unequivocally pure, true, and logical as a mathematical equation.
Now the meetings had acquired a different character. There would still be a song or two, but the words were harsh, impatient, militant. The rest of the hour was given to sharing—what have you heard in your neighborhood, your building, your home? Who has extra rations, and how did they get them? Every bit of information, no matter how small, was praiseworthy. One child after another rose to report on intimate domestic activities, ridiculously harmless in themselves, that took on a sinister cast in the leader’s cynical suspicious interpretation.
In this, Filip’s efforts were deemed to be nearly worthless. He could see no danger to the state from his mother’s love of opera, even if some of the recordings she treasured were sung in decadent foreign languages. If his own father, a Party member, could tolerate her participation in clandestine religious meetings, from which she returned calm and visibly happy, he could see no reason to expose her to ridicule or punishment. By his early adolescent years, he had gained a reputation as the least observant of dreamers, content to spend his time with books and stamps, deaf to any amount of increased pressure to do his share of reporting on the activities of others.
So he kept quiet, or, when pressed to the limit, made his remarks so vague as to be entirely useless.
“I heard someone say the Bolsheviks were becoming as bad as the old regime,” he’d disclosed at an earlier meeting.
“Where did you hear this? At home?”