“There are too many people. We are to leave our luggage here. Mama has the claim tickets. I’ve heard rumors that the Red Army is advancing, so they want to move us away from the border. Maybe they’re afraid we’ll join forces with our troops. I don’t know.”
“Where are we going?” Filip asked. “Must we leave everything here?”
“South and west.” Ilya looked at his ticket. “Leipzig. Our things should be on the next train out.”
“We are permitted to each take a small bundle or case,” Ksenia added, spreading her hands apart to indicate the size. “No bigger than a woman’s handbag.”
They spent the next hour or so sorting through their belongings. All around them, clustered in tight family groups, people were doing the same, pulling on extra clothes, setting aside bulky items and household goods to reclaim later.
Ksenia focused on food supplies, tying a small article of clothing around each packet of rice, flour, and salt, finding room in her bundle to add two tin cups and some spoons. For Galina, she fashioned a flat backpack using a thin blanket rolled with underclothes and socks.
“Ai, Mama, I can hardly move,” Galina complained. “I’m already wearing two dresses and a sweater under this coat.”
Ksenia ignored her daughter’s protests, crossed the ends of the blanket over Galina’s shoulders, and tied them firmly in back. “Hush. Now sit here on this suitcase while we finish packing.”
Filip refused to wear his second shirt. He wrapped it around his stamp albums, a notebook and pencils, and some photographs from home, jamming it all into the smallest suitcase they had. Ilya took only his workbox. “It may be bigger than a woman’s handbag, but I’m not leaving it behind, not even for a day. I need my tools and materials. Where will I find ivory now?”
“Papa, do they hurt the elephants to get the ivory? How do they survive without their tusks?” Galina looked up from an open box filled with family memorabilia.
“No, dochenka, they harvest the tusks after the elephants die, or if they break them fighting with other males.”
Galina nodded but thought, How can you be sure? “Can you fit these pictures into your box? There’s your wedding photo, and Maksim, and you and me and Mama. And this—I really love these views.” She handed him some photographs and a packet of souvenir postcards: Yalta, the Gem of the Black Sea.
They repacked their remaining things, making sure the identifying tags were clearly visible, then carried everything to the open area on the platform designated for luggage. The soldier on duty tossed their cases and baskets onto the growing pile, and shooed them away. “Your train leaves in an hour. Be ready,” he growled.
Ready? Ready for what? Filip wondered. He was tired of this nomadic existence, his movements dictated by people who had not the slightest knowledge or interest in who he was or what he wanted, what he was capable of. He was ready to begin his own life, but when?
About midafternoon, the train pulled in. There were dark clouds in a sky the color of ashes. It snowed a little. Soldiers and civilians spilled out of dented passenger cars; the civilians formed into a mute line, waiting to have their papers checked and stamped. More soldiers appeared to unload the cargo wagons. The refugees watched them load large wooden crates marked with stenciled numerical codes onto waiting trucks and military vehicles. It all happened quickly, the men moving with grace and precision in virtual silence, like a latter-day ballet in combat boots.
“What do you think is inside?” Galina leaned heavily against Filip, tucking her hand under his arm. “Could it be food?” Last night’s feast now seemed a distant memory. As if responding to her question, the baby tumbled inside her in a vigorous somersault. She bit her lip to keep from crying out.
“If so, it’s not for us,” he replied casually, not looking at her. “More likely ammunition or medical supplies or wine for the officers’ table.” He glanced at her then. “You look pale. Do you want to sit down?”
“I want a cup of tea, with sugar.” She sighed.
Filip grunted at the impossibility of satisfying her yearning; she may as well have asked for claret with strawberries. But Ilya heard. He moved off quietly and soon returned, his hand covering a thick porcelain mug to keep the contents warm. “Drink it quickly, dorogaya, my dear. I left a deposit for the cup.” There was no sugar, but the weak brew was colored with a little milk, which tempered its bitterness, and she gratefully swallowed it.
A junior officer appeared, spoke a few words to the now idle soldiers, then turned to the mass of refugees. “You will now board the train,” he commanded. “All of you.” People looked at one another in confusion: My ticket is for Frankfurt… Hamburg… Berlin—how can one train go in all directions at once? “There has been a change of plan. Forget your tickets. You will all go to Plattling. Now schnell, hurry. Everyone on board. One parcel per person.”
The soldiers moved to surround them, herding the throng past the passenger cars behind the steaming locomotive, toward the line of cargo wagons at the back of the train. “Not without Papa!” Galina shouted. She rose on her toes, craning her neck to find Ilya, who had gone to reclaim his deposit for the empty cup. “Mama, help me; we have to wait for him!” She clutched at Ksenia with one hand and held on to Filip with the other; together they formed a hard knot, struggling to hold their ground against the crowd surging and shoving all around.
“Not without Papa,” she repeated, speaking directly into the face of a young soldier with short blond hair and a smooth chin. Their eyes locked. He was almost a schoolboy, surely still in his teens; she saw innocence there, and met it with her obstinate passion. The boy moved on, pressing the side of his rifle against a group of people bunched to their left.
By the time Ilya returned, most of the wagons were filled. The remaining crowd pressed toward the last one, a real passenger car, third class, with windows, benches along the walls, and doors at either end that opened out to a narrow railed platform. “No one sits! Children can stand on the benches. Schnell, schnell, everyone inside.” The soldiers prodded at the backs of the heaving crowd, their shouts fueling the general panic.
Filip pushed forward using his suitcase as a wedge to maneuver through the crowd; the others followed closely in his wake. “You! That suitcase is too large. Give it to me.” But Filip was already at the train, shoving the bag through the open window, where cooperative hands received it and passed it into the interior. “Russische Idioten,” the guard mumbled. “I’ll be glad when you’re all gone.” Filip did not hear. He was working his way to the door, pulling Galina by the hand. Her scarf came loose, fluttered briefly above their heads, and fell to the ground, but he would not let her stoop to pick it up.
“It’s the last car,” he said urgently. “Stay with me, all of you.” And then they were inside.
People tried to arrange themselves as best they could, but there were too many. Children wailed. Windows were quickly closed against the evening cold, and just as quickly reopened to let in some air. Packed one against the other, clutching their belongings, everyone grew quiet.
Still the train did not move. On the platform, the last of the refugees stood in a loose crowd. There was no more room, all the cars were packed beyond capacity. What would happen to them?
Then shouts: “All you men over here. Put your luggage down.” The group of twenty or so men and boys disappeared around the side of the station. The women, left behind, stood in stunned silence, holding children by the hand. What now? What new indignity?