Blood pounded through him harder than had any right. Joel stared over the herd as well and once again considered the day a bit of a turning point.
Whatever else the next months brought, life wasn’t going to be boring.
He was holding her hand.
Vicki didn’t move. Scarcely breathed.
She would have liked to blame the not breathing part on the fact he’d suggested she drop in at the barns the next day, but oh. My. God.
How was it possible that holding hands could cause more violent reactions than her most recent self-induced orgasm?
“There are a couple of mares I’m keeping a special eye on.” Joel sat straighter as he lifted his left hand and pointed. “I’ve got favourites, I guess. Buttercup over there is a first-time mom, and Sable is the daughter of my first horse.”
“Makes—makes sense.” God. She’d had to stop and clear her throat to get past the block in her way.
She tugged their linked hands experimentally, and Joel eased off enough to adjust his grip. Now his fingers were completely enveloping hers.
Giant knuckles, thick fingers. The rougher skin of his finger pads caressing her softly. It felt too damn amazing to want him to stop. Add in the naughty images of him stroking her entire body, and she didn’t want to stop that train of thought either.
But…shit. “We really gonna do this, Joel?”
Another rub, this time with his thumb over the back of her hand. His fingers moving oh-so-slowly, but still more than enough of an impact considering the pounding in her throat. She honestly felt her heartbeat there. Another first, it seemed.
“Are we gonna hold hands? Hell, yeah. Seems like a good place to start.”
She dropped the idea of crawling into his lap and rubbing all over him like a lovesick cat. “It’s nice.”
Joel chuckled. Such a dark, rich sound for something that should show his amusement, but when she glanced at his eyes, there was far more there than merely fun. Full dark pupils pinned her in place. “It’s a start, Vicki. You sure you want me to teach you everything? Because, goddamn, I’m eager. But every bit of it is worth doing right.”
“I’m sure.” Holy hell, she was sure. If a little thumb rubbing got her aching between her legs and longing for more, she’d done this perfectly in terms of asking for help. “Only don’t go too slow, okay? I’m not gonna break.”
She didn’t see him move. Somehow, though, she hit the ground and he was over her. His elbows were braced on either side of her head, and his knees must have been on the ground, because otherwise she would have been crushed beneath him.
Instead, she was caught between the solid ground and his rock-solid body. Just the lightest of contact between them, mostly heat.
Oh God, though, the heat, especially at her core where a thick ridge pressed…
His cock, Vicki. Think the damn word. You’re going to get a close-up view at some point, so use the big-girl words.
She forced herself to acknowledge the truth. Where his cock made contact, need and excitement roared though her. Her mouth went dry as she stared into his face, wondering what he would do next. All thoughts of stopping him had vanished.
If he stripped her right then and there, she’d willingly get grass stains on her ass.
He wasn’t breathing too smoothly himself. The hot stroke of his jagged gasps rushed past her cheek, and she braced herself for the next first. He was going to kiss her. She was sure of it. Crushing her lips beneath his, taking her by storm. That had to come next.
She debated closing her eyes, but he held her trapped with his gaze.
A long, low rumble issued out, his chest moving slightly as he spoke. “You might not be breakable, but I already said it. This is worthwhile doing right.”
He lowered his head, his cheek brushing past her hair. She swore he took a deep breath before he rose. All the muscular length of him towering over her.
Vicki lay in the grass, the cool blue of the October sky framing the big cowboy. She took her time looking him over as the rush of whatever he’d triggered buzzed through her system. “How long is it gonna take before my heart rate goes back to normal?”
“Hell if I know. That’s good, though. Tells me I’m not the only one turned on like crazy right now.”
She tried not to stare at his hard-on. “You aren’t the only one. Fuck, no.”
He grinned and held out his hand. “Tomorrow, come to the small barn around ten and we’ll get started.”
The sexual tension between them deflated, at least on her part. The first thing she thought of was the terror of the horses, but she hid it under the other fear. “Jesse?”
Joel pulled her to vertical. “He won’t be home until late afternoon. We’ll be done morning chores, so Blake and Matt won’t be around. Trust me.”
She wanted to, but saying and doing were two different things. She’d already opened up a can of worms starting this entire thing. “That’s gonna take more time.”
He snorted. And didn’t let go of her fingers. “Come on. Walk with me for a minute.”
It was a good thing he led her to the level section at the top of the hill, because hanging on to his hand was more distracting than she’d thought possible. He didn’t let her loose, as if there were a delicate iron band around her wrist, holding her to his side.
She didn’t want to let go.
“You still looking for a job?” he asked, deep voice smoothing over her like butter.
Vicki shook her head to clear the cobwebs. “What’s that? Oh, no, I got on at the shop. I start full-time on Monday, thanks to you.”
“None of my doing. You going to miss the café?”
She sighed. “Yeah, I love cooking. But the shop is a safer place to work. Less chance of breaking people’s heads, that kind of thing.”
Joel paced steadily, guiding her along. He was probably itching to ask her about Eric, or was her guilty conscience making everything all about her? No matter. Some secrets were not coming out today. Not ever, if she had her choice.
So she tried to return the distraction. “You enjoy ranching?”
Joel pulled her to a stop and looked over the land. She liked that he took a moment to think her question through before answering. Made it seem less some practiced comment, more from the heart.
“I can’t imagine living anywhere else. Even being the couple hours away for school while Jesse and I went to college was brutal. I wanted to wake up in the spring and hear frogs. Let the roosters be my alarm instead of some tinny music pounding through the walls of the dorm from my neighbour’s room.”
“I bet there’s an app for that.”
Joel chuckled. “I bet there is.”
She wasn’t sure why it was suddenly so important to have him…well, like her. Oh, she was sure he wanted her, but like her? As in actually like the Hansol bad girl?
He’d said he admired her spirit, but most of that was impulsive. Spur of the moment. She’d rarely set out and done things to get them done. And now? Having Joel Coleman actually like her became an important part of the plan.
Although with every new thing she added to it, the damn to-do list was getting as full as she’d ever had it in her entire life.
“Tell me about…?” She scrambled back through the sexual cloud for the details he’d shared. “Sable. What was her mom’s name? And how do you say that properly, because talking about a horse’s great granddaughters probably follows some secret rancher’s code, like breeding and mares and other stuff.”
Joel glanced down, adjusting his grip on her fingers to curl his entire hand around hers. “You want to know all the terms?”
“All about horses. Tell me everything.”