“Yes,” she said, nodding as if Rosie had spoken her doubts aloud.
“I know what you’re thinkin and I tell you it’s all right. She mad, no doubt in the world “bout that, but her madness don’t extend to the child. She knows that although she bore it, this child ain’t hers to keep, no more than it’s yours to keep.” Rosie glanced toward the hill, where she could just see the woman in the chiton, standing by the pony and waiting for the outcome.
“What’s her name?” she asked.
“The baby’s mother? Is it-”
“Ne'mine,” the brown woman in the red dress replied, cutting in quickly, as if to keep Rosie from speaking some word better left unsaid.
“Her name don’t matter. Her state o” mind does. She a mighty impatient lady these days, along with all her other woes. We best be goin up with no more jabber.” Rosie said, “I’d made up my mind to call my baby Caroline. Norman said I could. He didn’t really care one way or the other.” She began to cry. “seems like a nice enough name to me. A fine name. Don’t you cry, now. Don’t you carry on.” She slipped an arm around Rosie’s shoulders and they began walking up the hill. The grass whispered gently against Rosie’s bare legs and tickled her knees.
“Will you listen to a piece o” my advice, woman?” Rosie looked at her curiously.
“I know advice is hard to take in matters o” sorrow, but think about my qualifications to give it: I was born in slavery, raised in chains, and ransomed to freedom by a woman who’s not quite a goddess. Her.” She pointed to the woman who stood silently watching and waiting for them. ’she’s drunk the waters of youth, and she made me drink, too. Now we go on together, and I don’t know “bout her, but sometimes when I look in the mirror I wish for wrinkles. I’ve buried my children, and their children, and their children’s children into the fifth generation. I’ve seen wars come n go like waves on a beach that roll in n rub out the footprints and wash away the castles in the sand. I’ve seen bodies on fire and heads by the hundreds poked onto poles along the streets of the City of Lud, I’ve seen wise leaders assassinated and fools put up in their places, and still I live.” She sighed deeply. “still I live, and if there’s anything that qualifies me to give advice, it’s that. Will you hear it? Answer quick. It’s not advice I’d have her overhear, and we’re drawin close.”
“Yes, tell me,” Rosie said.
“It’s best to be ruthless with the past. It ain’t the blows we’re dealt that matter, but the ones we survive. Now remember, for your sanity’s sake if not your life’s, don’t look at her!” The woman in red spoke these last words in an emphatic little mutter. Less than a minute later, Rosie was once more standing in front of the blonde woman. She fixed her eyes firmly on the hem of Rose Madder’s chiton, and she didn’t realize she was clutching the baby too tightly again until
“Caroline” wriggled in her arms and waved an indignant arm. The child had awakened and was looking up at Rosie with bright interest. Her eyes were the same hazy blue as the summer sky overhead.
“You’ve done well, so you have,” that low and sweetly husky voice told her.
“I thank you. Now give her to me.” Rose Madder held out her hands. They swarmed with shadows. And now Rosie saw something she liked even less: a thick, gray-green sludge was growing between the woman’s fingers like moss. Or scales. Without thinking about what she was doing, Rosie held the baby against her. This time she wriggled more strongly, and voiced a short cry. A brown hand reached out and squeezed Rosie’s shoulder.
“It’s all right, I tell you. She’d never hurt it, and I’ll have most the care of it until our journey’s done. That won’t be long, and then she’ll turn the child over to… well, that part don’t matter. For a little while longer, the baby’s hers. Give it over, now.” Feeling it was the hardest thing she’d ever had to do in a life full of hard things, Rosie held out the baby. There was a soft little grunt of satisfaction as the shadowy hands took her. The baby gazed up into the face which Rosie was forbidden to look at… and laughed.
“Yes, yes,” the sweet, husky voice crooned, and there was something in it like Norman’s smile, something that made Rosie feel like screaming.
“Yes, sweet one, it was dark, wasn’t it? Dark and nasty and bad, oh yes, Mamma knows.” The mottled hands lifted the baby against the rose madder gown. The child looked up, smiled, then laid her head on her mother’s breast and closed her eyes again.
“Rosie,” the woman in the chiton said. Her voice was musing, thoughtful, insane. The voice of a despot who will soon seize personal control of imaginary armies.
“Yes,” Rosie nearly whispered. “really Rosie. Rosie Real.”
“Y-Yes. I guess.” “do you remember what I told you before you went down?”
“Yes,” Rosie said.
“I remember very well.” She wished she didn’t.
“What was it?” Rose Madder asked greedily.
“What did I tell you, Rosie Real?”
“"I repay.'”
“Yes. I repay. Was it bad for you, down in the dark? Was it bad for you, Rosie Real?” She thought this over carefully.
“Bad, but not the worst. I think the worst was the stream. I wanted to drink.”
“There are many things in your life that you would forget?”
“Yes. I guess there are.”
“Your husband?” She nodded. The woman with the sleeping baby against her breast spoke with a queer, flat assurance that chilled Rosie’s heart.
“You shall be divorced of him.” Rosie opened her mouth, found herself quite incapable of speech, and closed it again.
“Men are beasts,” Rose Madder said conversationally. “some can be gentled and then trained. Some cannot. When we come upon one who cannot be gentled and trained-a rogue-should we feel that we have been cursed or cheated? Should we sit by the side of the road-or in a rocking chair by the bed, for that matter-bewailing our fate? Should we rage against ka? No, for ka is the wheel that moves the world, and the man or woman who rages against it will be crushed under its rim. But rogue beasts must be dealt with. And we must go about that task with hopeful hearts, for the next beast may always be different.” Bill isn’t a beast, Rosie thought, and knew she would never dare say that aloud to this woman. It was too easy to imagine this woman seizing her and tearing her throat out with her teeth.
“In any case, beasts will fight,” Rose Madder said.
“That is their way, to lower their heads and rush at each other so they may try their horns. Do you understand?” Rosie suddenly thought she did understand what the woman was saying, and it terrified her. She raised her fingers to her mouth and touched her lips. They felt dry, feverish.
“There isn’t going to be any fight,” she said.
“There isn’t going to be any fight, because they don’t know about each other. They-”
“Beasts will fight,” Rose Madder repeated, and then held something out to Rosie. It took her a moment to realize what it was: the gold armlet she’d been wearing above her right elbow.
“I… I can’t.”
“Take it,” the woman in the chiton said with sudden harsh impatience.
“Take it, take it! And don’t whine anymore! For the sake of every god that ever was, stop your stupid sheep’s whining!” Rosie reached out with a trembling hand and took the armlet. Although it had been against the blonde woman’s flesh, it felt cold. If she asks me to put it on, I don’t know what I’ll do, Rosie thought, but Rose Madder did not ask her to put it on. Instead she reached out with her mottled hand and pointed toward the olive tree. The easel was gone, and the picture-like the one in her room-had grown to an enormous size. It had changed, as well. It still showed the room on Trenton Street, but now there was no woman facing the door. The room was in darkness. Just a fluff of blonde hair and a single bare shoulder showed above the blanket on the bed. That’s me, Rosie thought in wonder. That’s me sleeping and having this dream.
“Go on,” Rose Madder said, and touched the back of her head. Rosie took a step toward the picture, mostly to get away from even the lightest touch of that cold and awful hand. As she did, she realized she could hear-very faintly-the sound of traffic. Crickets jumped around her feet and ankles in the high grass.