I reached out and squeezed her hand; she was to be married very soon and I suspected that was the seat of her curiosity. “I shall readily assist you when it’s your turn to bear a child if we have not yet returned to Sweden!”
She smiled, but I noted that she did not say she would be happy to have me do so. I sighed a little and wondered if we’d make any friends here at all before we returned home.
Some days later, as my lady was recovering from childbirth, Lord Northampton asked if he might take Bridget and myself to show us his estates in London. “You may,” the princess said, waving her small hand in the air. “But I have sworn to be their mother on this journey, and I’ll expect you to care for them thusly.”
“I shall,” Lord Northampton replied with an easy grace. “The Queen’s Majesty would have it no other way.” He brought around a fine litter with foot warmers and furs, and Bridget and I spent a glorious day at his large estate, waited upon by a dozen servants, eating pheasant and other delicacies as Lord Northampton spoke warmly of England. We passed the hours in charming, pleasant companionship and conversation, and I was sorry to leave his happy home.
That night, in our chamber, Bridget asked me, “Is Lord Northampton wooing you?”
“I do not know,” I said. And then after a minute, I said, “Perhaps. He says I favor his late wife. But he is kind and attentive to me for my own sake, too, I know that as well.”
“What about Philip?” she asked me.
“I do not know,” I said, not wishing to think upon it. For all I knew, he was cozily partnered with my sister. “If things progress, I shall ask our lady what I must do.”
“Do you care for him?” she asked.
“Philip or Lord Northampton?”
“Either . . . both,” she responded.
“Yes,” I said. “Yes, I do.” I rolled onto my side to forestall further questions, even from my dearest friend, so I could think, and pray, about what I must do.
• • •
Some weeks later, the margrave and Princess Cecelia held a large, lavish banquet to celebrate the birth of Edward Fortunatus. After the rich meal of nearly one hundred courses, a masked herald arrived in the hall, and as the room hushed, he trumpeted three times and then spoke up. “A messenger has late arrived with tidings from a strange country, with greetings and an invitation for Her Majesty Queen Elizabeth and the Honorable Princess Cecelia of Sweden.”
The crowd began to clap and all seemed delighted with perhaps the exception of the margrave, who had not, noticeably, been included in the greeting.
A second man strode into the room attired in heavy boots and spurs and knelt before the queen. “In honor of the marriage, next month, of the Earl of Warwick and the Lady Anne Russell, four foreign knights challenge any comers of Your Majesty’s kingdom. Shall this challenge be met?”
A great ripple of laughter, shouts, and cheers went up. Lord Robert Dudley, the Earl of Leicester, called out, “I shall meet these strange comers. Who rides with me?” Many men stood to meet the challenge. Lord Northampton cheered and clapped with the rest of them, but he did not offer to joust.
The queen raised a hand and instantly the room grew quiet. “We heartily thank you, Master Herald, Master Messenger, and we shall be most pleased to look upon these strange knights and the defenders of our realm,” she said. “And we are most pleased to attend the wedding of our dear friend Lord Ambrose and his betrothed, Lady Anne.” She turned to Princess Cecelia. “If that seems right to you, too, my good sister?”
Cecelia nodded and smiled, and then the room burst into cheers again and music echoed throughout the hall. I was instantly chosen to dance, as were Cecelia’s other maids of honor, which pleased us all and brought happy, high color. The night was joyous and festive, and I admit I enjoyed not only the playacting and playfulness of the queen’s court but the pleasant manner of the queen herself.
After some time I noticed Lord Northampton approach Princess Cecelia. I didn’t have to wait long to find out why. She called me into her chamber, alone, the next morning. “Elin,” she said, “sit with me.” She indicated a plush low stool near her feet. “Lord Northampton, the Marquess of Northampton, approached me last eve,” she said. “He said he had fallen in love with one of my ladies. I asked of whom he spoke, though I could but guess. He spoke of you and wished to know if he had any hope of winning your hand.”
“But . . . I am engaged, my lady,” I said, vexed. Even if Philip did not love or desire me, I understood that there had been some arrangement that I could not set aside without permission or a refutation on his part. “To Philip Bonde.”
She raised an eyebrow. “Are you, indeed?”
“Am I not?” I asked wonderingly. Did she know about the partial dowry, and had it canceled our engagement? Or had news reached her regarding Philip and my sister Karin? Would I want to stay here in England after the others returned home? Worse, perhaps, would be to return home with no dowry and my fiancé in love with my sister.
The margrave came in then, and the princess dismissed me. I would have to wait until she raised the matter again.
• • •
It has been said that every wedding puts a woman in mind of her own nuptials, whether or not they have yet to transpire; therefore we ladies were a happy gaggle. Bedford House was the Russell family home, and we Swedes were particularly fond of the bride. She was of an age with most of us and, in fact, shared my exact day of birth and had her apartments across the hall from Bridget and me. So I felt closer to her, perhaps, than to the other Englishwomen. And of course William’s request to Princess Cecelia for my hand was much on my mind.
One afternoon I helped Anne Russell stitch a rip in her train and asked, “Are you happy to be marrying Lord Ambrose?”
She nodded. “Yes, of course, he’s very kind.”
“Do you . . . do you mind very much that he has been married before?”
She didn’t rebuke me for my impertinence. I think she knew I was airing my concerns about my own potential situation with Lord Northampton.
“No. I believe he loves me, as he loved the others.”
I smiled at her and she smiled back, warmly. In spite of her odd and somewhat unresolved comments regarding the lady’s bedstraw and other herbs, she continued to kindly befriend me. In that, she was alone among the Englishwomen.
Later, we gathered at the Queen’s Great Closet for the wedding of Lady Anne, whom her new husband had nicknamed Amys, to Ambrose Dudley, Earl of Warwick, twenty years her senior. We ladies thought it romantic that her husband had a special name for her, and I hoped, for myself, that my own husband would lovingly do likewise. Lady Anne wore a kirtle of silver mixed with blue and a gown of purple embroidered with silver. Upon her fair hair she bore a golden caul, and her train was borne by little Catherine Knollys.
Lord Northampton invited me and my friend Christina Abrahamsdotter to be his guests at his banqueting table, and we gladly agreed. I noted that he was served more quickly, more attentively, and with better dishes than the other guests. His benches were also cushioned. There were some long looks toward me from the others at the table, but soon enough talk reverted to the events of the day, and the week ahead.
“Do you celebrate weddings in Sweden with banquets and jousting?” one woman asked politely.
“We do banquet often,” I replied. “Vadstena Castle has a beautiful and ornate galley called the Wedding Hall. But we hunt and hawk perhaps more than joust.”
“Which is a pity,” Christina said, “as your knights in their armor are compelling to look upon.”
The others at the table laughed and began to speak of other tournaments they had witnessed, arguing the valor of one man over another. I smiled at Christina’s sentiments, heartily agreeing; the jousters were strong and fine-looking, and cast an air of manliness, but I said nothing. Lord Northampton’s gout prevented him from jousting.