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On the sidewalk in front of the restaurant Catherine opened the tiny cartons of cream and held them up to the kitten. Then she put the jelly on her bread and ate it. A few minutes later the woman from the restaurant came out and told Catherine she couldn’t sit there on the sidewalk, moving her hands at the girl as though she were bailing water. Catherine wrapped up the kitten and left.

She walked several more blocks west on Wilshire Boulevard until she came to a huge building with a map that turned in the sky and looked like this: Ambassador Hotel. A parking lot was in front and a long circular drive ran from the street to the lobby. People were arriving at and departing from the lobby in buses and cabs, bellhops carrying luggage back and forth through the glass doors. A line of newspaper racks barricaded the entryway. America, Catherine thought to herself with certainty; these people looked aItogether different from those she’d seen on the other side of Vermont Avenue. The truck driver had been right after all; Catherine hadn’t understood this was a place of invisible borders, so formidable that only those who belonged would even dare to cross them. She immediately feIt threatened: I’ve breached something so terrible that only fools risk breaching it, she thought.

But she’d come very far, over a long time, and she wanted to be sure. She told herself, I have to find my crazy courage once more.

A tall, well-dressed, middle-aged man was opening one of the paper racks. She walked up to him and touched him on the shoulder. He turned and looked down at her with curiosity. She pointed at the ground and said defiantly, “America. Yes?”

“America?” he said, laughing. “This isn’t America. This is Los Angeles.”

“America?” laughed Richard. “This isn’t America. This is Los Angeles.” The girl looked at him oddly, and he shut the rack. “Just a joke,” he said wearily. “Of course it’s America.” She still wasn’t sure she understood him. “Yes,” he said emphatically, “America, yes.” He pointed at the ground and nodded.

She sighed with relief. She nodded to him and stepped back, gazing around her at the bustle of visitors in front of the hotel. Richard regarded her with more curiosity and then went back to looking at the racks. He put the Times under his arm and asked a bellhop what had happened to the racks for Variety and the Hollywood Reporter. The bellhop told Richard he could get them at the newsstand inside. “I know that,” Richard said to him; he hated the newsstand inside because it was always mobbed with people. “But I’ve been in this hotel eight months now and until this morning there have always been racks for both papers.”

“Cleared them out, sir,” the bellhop told him. “Making more room around the lobby for the guests this June.”

Remind me, Richard said to himself, to vacate the premises by June. What was happening in June? A Japanese computer convention? A conclave of world-renowned entomologists investigating whatever exotic pestilence was tormenting the local agricuIture this year? Not the Academy Awards, that was next month; besides, he thought, nobody will be at this hotel for the Academy Awards, I’m the only actor so hopelessly behind the times as to be staying in this hotel. Momentarily Richard wondered if, as long as he was going to be moving anyway, he ought to do it in time for the Academy Awards. This line of thought reminded him of his general situation, which reminded him why he never followed this line of thought and why, as a consequence, his general situation never changed. And if I leave, he smiled grimly to himself, they’ll want me to pay my bill.

He started back into the lobby to tight the crowd at the newsstand. He saw Catherine still standing by the drive; she was looking around, wondering what to do next. In a way it was the contemplation of his general situation that led him to spontaneously devise Catherine’s future. She’s a perfect sight, he said to himself. Her eyes caught his, she looked as if she hadn’t eaten in a week. “Excuse me,” he said to her, “do you have the faintest idea what you’re doing?” She didn’t respond. “Well something’s occurred to me,” he said to her, “why don’t you come up to my room.” She still said nothing and he explained, “Just to give you something to eat and so I can make a phone call. Nothing that will tarnish your image or mine, believe me.” Leading her through the glass doors and into the lobby, he thought, My image should be so tarnished.

Still, he hadn’t seen the kitten. They got to his suite, which struck Richard for the first time in the eight months he’d been there as tidy in a way that indicated inactivity. It had always been so tidy but it had taken this experience, leading this strange young girl through the door, to make him realize that it looked like the room of a man with nothing to do but keep it tidy. He wanted to rush ahead and dishevel it. Instead he sat her down at the small round table by the window that looked out toward the Hollywood Hills. There was a bowl of fruit and a basket of pastries left over from the morning. “Sit,” he said, taking her by the shoulders and directing her to the chair. When he went to make the phone call in the bedroom she unwrapped the kitten. She took the coffee creamer and poured some cream into a clean glass ashtray and put it in front of the kitten.

In the other room Richard made his call. “Maddy?”

“Hello, Richard,” she said on the other end, and added, without a moment’s pause, “he’s not home now, he’s at the studio.” She was decidedly cool.

“Maddy, I have an astounding surprise,” said Richard, “I am not calling to talk to your husband. I am calling to talk to you.” She was surprised at that. “Still without a housekeeper since the last one quit?”

“No housekeeper,” answered Maddy, “the house is a shambles and Janey’s home from school sick. Care to work for a living, Richard?”

Richard laughed theatrically. “That’s extremely amusing, Maddy. In fact I have a solution to your troubles.”

“Such as.”

“Such as a housekeeper of course,” he said, peering around the door. Catherine was sitting at the table staring out the window. “A girl I just found in front of the hotel, with no shoes and, far as I can tell, not a syllable of English in her—”

“How can I resist.”

“And,” he added emphatically, “nowhere to be and probably here very illegally. Which means, as hired help goes, rather in your price range.” He had to twist the knife a little; there was silence on the other end. “Since you’ve had problems financing your housekeepers lately, I thought this might be just the ticket. How much sign language does it take to get a dish washed?”

“This is very thoughtful of you, Richard,” Maddy replied acidly.

“I freely admit self-interest in the matter. Domestic bliss in the Edgar household means Mr. Edgar gets down to business a little sooner, which means I get down to business a little sooner.”

Maddy said, “Do you ever think what happens if he doesn’t get down to business soon? If he doesn’t get down to business ever?” Said in a way that betrayed worry; said very quietly.

Richard answered, just as quietly, just as worried, “No, I don’t think of that.”

He heard her sigh deeply on the other end of the line. “I don’t either.”

“Bad news for me, Maddy, if he doesn’t get down to business soon, let alone ever. I’m counting on it.”