15
He did not want to see Lily that morning, did not want to face her reddened eyes, her exhausted voice. You want to know who it was. She had placed the burden on him; all that had happened was in some way his responsibility. When China Mary came to the house he asked her to take Lily a tray, no orange juice, and to see that she stayed in bed awhile. “She’s tired,” he said. “The heat gets her. Try to keep Knight and Julie out.”
He left the house then for the south fields to watch the last hops come down. Although he normally came to the house for lunch, at noon he instead drove one of the trucks down to a bar on the highway and had two bottles of Lucky Lager and a bologna sandwich wrapped in cellophane. While he drank the second bottle of beer he listened on the bartender’s radio to the Yankees beating the Red Sox in the seventh at Fenway Park and did not think about Lily. By seven o’clock, when he started back to the house, the entire ranch was stripped bare of the vines. They had been picking all week, and this was the day he had liked least all of his life: the day the last hops came down, the day summer ended. All he could see as he walked back to the house were the bare poles, the broken strings hanging motionless in the heat, the dust stirred up by the picking machines. Tomorrow they would start the kiln, and during the next four or five days while the hops dried the whole year could go to waste. The kiln and the crop with it could go up in a flash of dry flame, and beyond taking the most elementary precautions there was nothing he could do about it. During the next week the agents from the insurance companies would be dropping by the ranches where the hops were drying, watching their risks; almost every August a kiln burned somewhere in the Valley. Last year it had been on the Messner place, up the Cosumnes River, the night they were to have finished.
Everett walked up to the house alone. Although it had been a custom of his father’s to invite the foreman and his wife to the house the night they finished picking, the new foreman (Henry Sears was his name, he had come from down the San Joaquin, near Bakersfield, had arrived on the ranch a few days after Everett came home from Bliss) had driven a truck full of Mexicans into town, leaving before Everett could have spoken to him, even if Everett had intended speaking to him. At any rate Henry Sears would not know the custom since he had not known Everett’s father, and anyway he had no wife. Everett did not know what he could have said to him if he had invited him. Everyone had always responded to his father: had liked him, disliked him, talked to him, talked about him; had become in one way or another involved with him. Five hundred and forty-seven people had sent flowers when he died, and every one of them had thought himself involved with John McClellan. He would have known, as Everett did not know, how to talk to Henry Sears. Even Martha would probably know, but Everett did not.
Everett did not even know how to talk to Lily. Although he had no idea now what he could say to her when he got to the house, he would have to make it all right, at least for this week. At some point during the afternoon he had worked out an inarticulate pact, and had invested in it all his unthinkable prayers: should the hops come through the drying, the child she was carrying was his. It differed from the game Lily had taught Knight to play with the evening star only that in Everett’s game the odds were pretty much with him. Make sure it’s the first star you see at night, baby, and don’t stop looking until you’ve finished the wish. (“That’s Venus,” he had explained to Knight. “That’s a planet, not a star at all. A planet named Venus.” “I don’t think so,” Knight said politely, not looking away from the window; one twilight he waited at his bedroom window fifteen minutes so as not to risk seeing another star first.)
Even before Everett reached the steps to the verandah he heard Martha’s laughter through the screened door and windows, and he heard in the particular pitch of that laughter the fact that Ryder Channing was with her. It was not that he disliked Channing. Channing in fact reminded him of Clark McCormack, his roommate at Stanford, and he admired their apparent easiness in the world even as he was vaguely troubled by it. Clark McCormack had seemed to Everett the center of a vast social network, the pivot for dozens of acquaintances, all of whom were constantly calling or dropping by the Deke house: one to bring Clark the stolen stencil for a mimeographed midterm; another to drop off a box of Glenn Miller records in anticipation of a party; others, usually extraordinarily pretty girls, to leave their convertibles for Clark to use. Like Clark McCormack, Channing conveyed the distinct impression that he could live by his wits alone. They were both free agents, adventurers who turned whatever came their way to some advantage; both pleasant, knowledgeable, and in some final way incomprehensible to Everett. Channing had once told Everett that wherever he was he made a point of getting a guest card to the best country club. It was that kind of thing, something Everett could not put his finger on. Channing had no business around Marth. He might even be married: you never knew about people like Channing. He would have to talk to Martha; he had meant to talk to her ever since he came home in February.
“Everett?” Martha called now from the living room.
He had wanted to see Lily before facing Marth and Channing, and he hesitated, playing for time by looking through the mail on the hall table. There were two pediatricians’ bills, a notice of a sale on Germaine Monteil Superglow Solid Powder at the Bon Marché in Sacramento, and a report from the Pi Beta Phi Arrow Shop in Gatlinburg, Tennessee: all addressed to Lily.
“Everett,” Martha called again. “Come here.”
He walked into the living room, oddly conscious of the muscles moving in his legs. He was struck by the thought, although it did not sound scientific, that if he forgot where the muscles were he would be unable to walk.
“Ryder brought us some good gin for a change and I’m making martinis.”
Everett did not look at Channing. “Where’s Lily?” he asked with an effort.
Martha was sitting with her back to him, her rather too long hair hanging forward over her bare shoulders. She had on some kind of sun dress which made her look pale and thin, and the hair did not help. Although he had always liked it long she looked healthier when she kept it cut.
“She’s in San Francisco,” Martha said finally, measuring gin into a pitcher. “I drove her in this morning to get the train. The City of San Francisco was two hours late coming in over the mountains and that’s why I wasn’t here for lunch. I told China Mary to slice the ham,” she added. “Was it all right?”
“I wasn’t up for lunch.” He paused. “You say Lily’s gone to the City?”
“She just decided to go as long as it was so hot — you wouldn’t believe how hot it was in town today, we saw Francie cashing a check in the Wells Fargo and she looked like wrath—and you’re so busy. Anyway she had to shop. She claimed she didn’t have anything to wear to the Horse Show in case you took her to the Fair.”
“The Fair,” Everett repeated.
Martha looked up. “The Fair starts Thursday. Anyway. She said to tell you she was going to spend all your money at Magnin’s.”
Sweet Christ. He could hear her saying it. Tell your brother I’m going to spend all his money at Magnin’s.
“She staying at the St. Francis?”
“I wouldn’t think so.” Martha handed Channing a glass. “I don’t know that she’s ever stayed at the St. Francis in her life. I mean has she?”