He didn’t know how long he stood at that window.
As word spread of Hayes’ death, the area outside the building gradually filled with the media and the curious.
Photographs were being taken of the body. The woman who found Hayes had been taken away by the police. Inside Hayes’ office, detectives were picking through the remains of a life. There was no sign of Carmen.
He was fearing the worst when he heard the jangling of a key and the door behind him swing open.
And there she was, her white silk blouse and black, loose-fitting jacket stained with the blood of a dead man. She moved to the center of the room and stood there, her eyes like a light turned to his face. She tossed the attache case onto the floor and it popped open, exposing the bloodied, pale blue towel, the white gloves and the surveillance tapes.
Spocatti was about to speak when something in her expression caused him to pause. For a moment, he forgot his anger and listened.
“The book,” she said. “Maggie Cain,” she said. “Everyone on our list is being interviewed by her. We need to call Wolfhagen now and let him know.”
But when they called his La Jolla estate, there was no answer.
CHAPTER SIX
Wolfhagen danced.
He arrived in New York just as the lights of Manhattan were beginning to shine, took a cab from LaGuardia, rented a room at The Plaza, snorted four lines of meth and had wine sent to his room.
He twirled.
No one knew he was here and that’s how he wanted it. He came to play and to cause a little trouble, and he wanted to do so as quietly as he could for as long as he could.
This was an important trip.
He poured himself another glass of wine-his third-sipped it and tripped into the bathroom. He was high, blissfully high, the drug threading like needles through his system. Earlier, he lit candles, several scented candles, and the bathroom now glowed with the rich smells of vanilla and jasmine.
He put the glass down on the marble vanity and began to undress. He reached for the phone next to the toilet, tapped out Carra’s personal number and slammed down the receiver when she answered. He looked at his reflection in the wide spotless mirror and marveled at the shadows stealing like thieves across his arms and chest.
He opened his leather shaving kit and exposed the glimmering gold blade. He wiggled out of his pants and swung his veiny rope of a penis from side to side-smack, smack, smack. He flexed his muscles and knew at this moment that his body was indeed beautiful.
He wouldn’t look at his face.
He drank more wine and did a jig in front of the mirror. He closed his eyes and breathed in deeply, his mind spinning out and grasping the memory of the little nothing shit who came to his home in La Jolla that morning to tell him in her stupid lilting star-struck voice: “Your wife has decided to sell, Mr. Wolfhagen. We’d like to show the estate at noon.”
He’d shut the door in her face and called Carra, who told him in that fucking controlled voice of hers that if he dropped this ridiculous alimony suit of his, he could have the damned house and everything in it. “But you’ll never get a cent of my father’s money, Max. Not a penny. I won’t let it happen. He made his fortune without your help, he willed it to me and it’s staying with me.”
And so Wolfhagen danced.
He picked up the phone and dialed again. This time the line rang longer, but it was Carra who answered, her voice quick, all business. “What is it, Max?”
“I’ll tell them everything,” he said. “I’ll go to all the papers and tell everyone. I don’t care. I’m in New York now. I have nothing to lose. Don’t you fucking dare sell my home. Don’t you fucking dare try it. I’ll ruin-”
“You’re in New York?”
“That’s right.”
“Why?”
“I’m going to smash that fucking face of yours.”
The line went dead. Wolfhagen hit the redial button but this time Carra didn’t answer. The line rang and rang and rang-and his rage grew.
He dropped the phone to the marble tile and tripped back into the bedroom. He grabbed the can of shaving cream from his open suitcase, tossed it high in the air, reached out blind hands to grasp it, and laughed, laughed, laughed when it struck his bare shoulder, hit the carpet and rolled toward the television, where CNN played without sound.
Wolfhagen turned up the sound.
He picked up the can of cream and tip-toed back into the bathroom. The high was evening out, but he was determined to maintain it, determined to make it last. He danced and he danced, moving his arms and swinging his head, rolling his eyes and baring his crowded teeth. The shadows on the walls moved with him in wild, jumbled rhythms.
But it was fruitless. He was losing it. He swung his hips harder and turned in complete circles, glimpsing his face once, twice, three times in the mirror. And that killed it. The illusion snapped. He stopped to stare at his face. That face. God, how he hated it. The hooked nose, the crooked teeth, the slanting eyes. This wasn’t him! It was wrong! He was better than that face!
Before he showered, he would shave.
The shaving cream went on easily. He smoothed it on his arms, chest and stomach, rubbed it over his buttocks, through the stubble at his groin and down the length of his legs. He was fastidious in his application. His hands moved slowly and carefully, covering the two-day’s growth with broad, foamy sweeps. Five days ago, he had his back waxed. It would be another week before he needed to go there again.
He rinsed his hands in the sink and left the water running. He took the gold straight razor and went to work, scraping away the hair he hated.
How could he have been born this way? Why had God done this to him? When he was thirteen, he had been taunted in the school showers by the other boys. He was made fun of because of the dense black hair that crawled up his back, covered his forearms and stomach, flourished with the stubborn determination of weeds in the peaks and valleys of his chest. His legs were sheathed with it.
At the time, Wolfhagen’s parents were poor and couldn’t afford a doctor to tell them that their son suffered from an acute imbalance of testosterone. They were uneducated and couldn’t know the psychological scars already carved into their child’s mind. But they were not insensitive. They weren’t blind to the faults of nature. And so in the summer of his fourteenth year, only days before he started a new school year, Wolfhagen’s mother began a ritual that lasted a lifetime-with soap and water, she shaved him.
“It hurts, Mama. Stop!”
“Stand still.”
“But I’m bleeding!”
“It’s either this, or you’ll catch it from those little bastards at school.”
As he matured, his skin toughened along with his soul. While the hair may have vanished, the jeers from his classmates didn’t. They knew he shaved. They could see the stubble on his arms and legs in gym class, could smell it on him as though it were an odor, reeking and awful. They called him a freak to his face. Some spit on him in the halls.
At lunchtime, anonymous arms swung out to strike, while anonymous hands reached out to slap. Through it all, Max learned more than any of them. He learned the darkness of the human heart and just how deeply a person could hate.
His escape became books and literature. He found sanity in the lives of fiction’s characters. He graduated second in his class, earning a four-year scholarship to Yale School of Management, where he redefined himself and became so much more.
He needed to call Carra again. He knew she was having a party tonight and he was going. All it would take was one threat. One potent little threat. Then he could revel in all the shocked faces that greeted him while he humiliated her.