"Plan B, then."
"What Plan B?"
"I'll tell you when I've worked it out."
"What was Plan A?"
"Dress you up nice, send you in to play a hand or two, and wheedle something out of Fraig."
"Thanks."
"It'd never have worked anyway. You're not the wheedling type."
It might have been an insult or a compliment, but she had no way of knowing with Fett.
I want to like him. He's not likable, but he's not what you told me he was, either, Mama. How could you even know?
Mirta found herself arguing with a dead woman, hating herself for it, and finding that nothing she thought she knew was solid any longer.
She took one hand off the speeder's grab bar and eased the heart-of-fire from under her chest plate to grasp it. Maybe it would tell her something sooner or later.
"Great painkillers," said Fett. She could see the dried blood on the knuckles of his left glove as he flexed his fist. The stain was bothering him. "Thanks."
There was the faintest tinge of warmth in his voice. It was a start.
JACEN SOLO'S OFFICE, GAG HQ, CORUSCANT
There was a voice in Jacen's head, and he never knew whose it was.
At times it was clearly Vergere, clearly a memory, but at others he wasn't sure if it was his own thoughts, or Lumiya's suggestions surfacing from his subconscious, or something else altogether. There were times when he even thought it was his conscience.
It was his conscience now, he was sure of it. All he could see was his daughter, Allana.
So you're not thinking about Tenel Ka, then . . .
Whatever act he had to perform to become a full Sith Lord, it would be extreme. It had to be harder than killing a fellow Jedi; harder even than herding Corellians into camps, or turning on his own parents and sister, or subverting democracy.
It had to be the most painful decision he'd ever taken.
I just can't kill my little girl.
Who says I have to? What would that prove?
That you'd do anything to acquire the powers to bring peace and order to the galaxy.
It was Allana's future that had made him start down this path. Now it would be a secure future for everyone's kid except his own.
That's what it's about, Jacen. Service, painful service. Embrace that pain.
No, it wasn't service. It was insane. He wouldn't do it. But was it any different from sending your own children to war, making the same sacrifice as millions of other parents? Wasn't it always harder to give a loved one's life than your own?
No. The only sacrifice worth making is your own life.
But Lumiya said he'd know. She said he'd know what he had to do when the time came, and she couldn't tell him. He'd been with Tenel Ka and
Allana since then. He'd felt nothing, no hint from the Force that this was the final step, that these were the people he had to kill.
Maybe this is denial. Delusion.
It's not Allana. It's not even Tenel Ka.
"It's not them," he said. "It has to be Ben."
And then he was back in his office, horribly aware, looking up at a bewildered Corporal Lekauf. There was a cup of caf on the desk in front of him and he hadn't seen anyone put it there.
He'd never been that distracted before. It scared him. He couldn't afford another lapse like that.
"Lieutenant Skywalker hasn't reported for duty yet, sir." Lekauf—grandson of the officer who had faithfully served Lord Vader—had a scrubbed freckled cheerfulness that prevented him from looking menacing even in black GAG armor with a BT25 blaster. "Can I help?"
Jacen felt his face burn. "Apologies, Corporal. I was thinking aloud."
"That's okay, sir. I thought you were doing some of that Jedi stuff. Communing."
Jacen had to think for a moment. "Melding?"
"That's the stuff."
"I think I need more caf before I try that today. Thank you."
"Did you get Admiral Niathal's message about kit, sir?"
"What's that?" Jacen checked his datapad and assorted comlinks.
Bureaucracy didn't come easily to him. He'd make sure he had the best administrators when he—
When I what?
When I rule as a Sith Lord.
The idea was 90 percent sobering, 9 percent inappropriately exciting, and 1 percent repellent. If he could have identified the source of the revulsion—a distaste for power, an old Jedi taboo, plain ignorance—he would have listened to it. But the voice wasn't loud enough.
It was his small fears, his reluctance to accept responsibility, and that was something he had to ignore.
"She says some of the front-line units are having problems getting the kit they need," Lekauf said. "Annoying stuff. Specialist ordnance, comm parts, but some seriously non-negotiable items like medical supplies, too. They're also complaining that the cannon maintenance packs aren't up to standard and they've had some malfunctions." Lekauf raised his eyebrows. "We're starting to find problems acquiring what we need, too, sir."
That got Jacen's attention. "This is the richest and most technically advanced planet in the galaxy, and we can't keep our forces adequately supplied in a war?"
Lekauf gave Jacen a significant nod that directed him to his holoscreen. "I think the admiral put it a little more emphatically, but that's her general reaction as well."
"Is there a reason for this?"
"Procurement and Supply seem to be dragging their feet, sir."
"Time I undragged them," Jacen said. He hit the comm key and opened the line to Procurement. "I'm sure it's fixable."
"If you'd like me to talk to them, sir . . ."
"I think they need a full colonel to motivate them, Lekauf, but I'm grateful for your offer." Jacen suddenly felt it was the most pressing task on his list.
"He's out on surveillance, sir. Intercepted some nasty ordnance, so he's out with Sergeant Wirut watching a drop-off point."
Shevu was hands-on. He didn't seem to be as enthusiastic about the GAG's role as he had been a few weeks earlier, but he did his job and led from the front. There was nothing more Jacen could ask of an officer.
"Okay, I'll catch up with him when he's relieved."
Procurement frustrated Jacen from the start. When he got an answer from the comm, his status as commander of the GAG didn't seem to open as many doors as it did in the rest of the Alliance. By the time he was put through to a senior civil servant in Fleet Supply—a woman called Gellus —he wasn't impressed, and his caf was cold.
"We can't bypass the supply system, sir," said Gellus. "All requests are dealt with in sequence."
"Shouldn't they be dealt with by urgency, as in front line?"
"I don't have the power to do that under the procurement regulations, sir."
"Who do I talk to about quality of supplies?"
"Which supplies? You see, we have four item departments—"
"Cannon maintenance packs. We're getting complaints about poor-quality replacement parts."
"That would be Engineering Support. They have their own system.
You'll have to—"
Jacen had learned patience and a dozen ways to calm his mind in crisis
from as many esoteric Force-using schools. He didn't want to use any of them. He wanted to lose his temper. He wanted action.
"There's a war on," he said quietly. "All I want is for the right kit to get to the people fighting. What's the fastest way to do that?"
"You're not Fleet, are you, sir? GAG is domestic."
"Meaning?"
"This isn't your chain of command. We'd need authorization from a senior officer from Fleet to pursue this request. It's the regulations, sir."