Just when Blacktooth had given up all hope of seeing New Rome, just when he least expected it, the road topped a small rise, and there it was—just as it had always been in his dream.
“Whoa.” Blacktooth needn’t have bothered; the white mule only moved when he got on and only stopped when he got off. He slid down and the mule stopped to nose at skunk cabbages beside the road. They were at a turn: the road went at an angle down the last hill before the valley of the Great River, or Misspee as it was called locally.
Blacktooth couldn’t see the river but he could see the distant towers of what once had been a bridge; and he could see a low line of tree-covered bluffs on the other side, like a mirror image of the hill he was on. And in between, a few miles away, were steep brush-covered stumps of towers, like low steep mountains, just as he had seen them in his dream. New Rome.
But it was already afternoon, and there was no time to enjoy the view—even if it was the first horizon Blacktooth had seen in almost a month. He got back on the sharf’s shaman’s white mule and it started down the hill, and soon they were in the trees again.
There was more concrete and asphalt here, mixed with the grass. It would have made for treacherous passage on a horse, but the mule seemed unbothered. There were fewer farmsteads and more houses, even though the houses were just sheds attached to the sides of the ruins. Blacktooth even saw smoke coming from one or two, and shadowy shapes that could have been children playing or their parents hiding.
“Gee up,” he said to the mule, just to hear his own voice and to let whoever might be watching know that he was in control and on a mission. He wished now he had bothered to learn the mule’s name.
It was late afternoon before he passed the gates of the city, a low barricade now abandoned. A couple of corpses in the sentry box showed how the Nomads had avenged their murdered shaman, and how little the grass-eaters cared about their dead.
Of course, the corpses might have been Texark soldiers. Two pigs were rooting at the door, seemingly eager to find out.
“Gee up!” The white mule stepped over the rubble and Blacktooth rode on through, holding up Amen II’s papal seal. It was made of parchment stretched over sticks like a kite, and held aloft on a spear decorated with feathers and the cryptic symbols of the Three Hordes. An amalgam of the sacred and the profane, the civilized and the barbaric. Like Brownpony’s papacy itself.
There were more pigs on the street here, though there were no bodies. New Rome seemed deserted. The streets were straight and wide. The “great houses” Blacktooth had seen from the horizon were less impressive up close, but more oppressive somehow, dark ruins shot full of holes. There was no movement. Blacktooth knew he was being watched, though. He could feel it; he could feel more and more eyes on him as it got darker and darker.
“Whoa,” he said, but the mule didn’t stop.
Ahead Blacktooth saw a single figure in the center of the street. It was a man carrying a rifle.
“Gee up!” Blacktooth kicked his mule but the mule walked at the same slow pace, whether kicked or not.
“Wait,” Blacktooth shouted at the man, but the man backed slowly into the shadows.
“I have a message…” Blacktooth shouted, just as the man knelt and fired.
Blacktooth slid off the mule, which was the only way to stop it.
He waited behind the mule for another shot. The silence was excruciating.
The man was gone.
The dialogue was too one-sided. His only chance, Blacktooth saw, was to push on toward the center of the city and hope that he came across someone with either some sense or some authority, and preferably both, before he got shot.
He got back on the mule.
“Gee up.”
It was dark when they shot the mule out from under him. Blacktooth was almost in the center of the city, under the biggest of the “great houses.” It must have been a long shot, because the animal went down before Blacktooth heard the shot; the crack came rolling through just as he was falling on his side, under the mule, which fell as heavily as an abbot having a stroke.
Blacktooth scrambled to his feet, looking for the papal seal-on-a-stick, which had snapped and was lying half under the mule. He was tensed through his shoulders, waiting for the next shot, which he knew he wouldn’t hear and might not even feel. It never came.
With the papal seal, he ran back into the rubble of the “great house,” where he hid under a stone slab. From here, he could see down the street both ways. It was almost dark; the sky was a salmon pink turning to rose in the west, and a darker blue ahead, in the east.
The mule was on its side, braying violently. It wasn’t bleeding much, but clearly it was done for. Its front legs were kicking but the rear legs were still; maybe spine shot. Blacktooth felt his fever growing and then a fit of diarrhea hit him, and he squatted behind the stone slab. Should he hold the papal seal aloft, or did it just make him a better target? “Not now,” he prayed aloud. “Not like this.”
Finished, and still not shot, he decided to continue on with his mission. He had to find someone, and soon, before it got dark. Otherwise, he would be sleeping alone in the dark in one of these great piles of stone. Holding the papal seal aloft, he started walking. He knew he was still feverish, because he could sense Amen I beside him, his cougar face composed and quiet; free of concern as well as anxiety. Amen had nothing to say; lately he had had little to say.
The problem was, the mule wouldn’t shut up. It kept braying louder and louder, the farther Blacktooth walked away from it.
“I have to go back,” he said to Amen. He knew the old man couldn’t, wouldn’t, answer, but he wanted to hear the sound of a human voice, even if it was just his own.
“I’ll do for him what I did for the glep soldier,” he said aloud. “It’ll be a sin, too, just the same.” A sin but he had to do it. Wasn’t that what a sin was? Something you had to do?
No, that’s duty, replied Specklebird, with his unquiet, ambiguous smile. You have often confused them.
It was a long way back to the white mule, and Blacktooth’s legs were getting wobbly. He walked backward, holding the seal high, his shoulders tensed against the shot he expected. The mule was almost quiet by the time he got to it; the brays had turned to hoarse, honking moans. The front legs were still kicking rhythmically. The big eyes looked at Blacktooth with neither curiosity nor fear. Blacktooth knelt and said a prayer, a made-up one, as he put his knife to the creature’s throat, and said a second prayer as he pulled it across.
It was like pulling a string and watching the grain flow out of a bag. The mule sank into a sudden quiet restfulness.
Blacktooth wiped his knife on the mule’s coat. He was about to stand when he felt the knife on his own throat. “Stand,” said a voice, and he did what he had been about to do anyway. He started to drop his knife when a hand took it from his.