‘Sebastian?’
‘Sebastian is my son,’ Emilie continues. ‘Johanne is – or she was – one of Sebastian’s godparents. We gave her a picture of him last Christmas.’
She switches the phone to her other hand and wipes her face with the duvet.
‘My next question might sound very strange, Emilie, but I have to ask it. Do you know if anyone might have a reason to be angry with your son?’
Emilie looks up.
‘With Sebastian? Why do you want to know that?’
‘Please just answer the question.’
‘What does my son have to do with this?’
The officer doesn’t explain. A sudden rage takes over her voice.
‘No,’ Emilie snaps. ‘Sebastian is two and a half years old. He hasn’t lived long enough to upset anyone yet, apart from me and his father.’
‘I understand,’ the police officer says.
Her head feels as if it’s going to explode and she realises that she hasn’t eaten for a long time. But the very thought of putting something in her mouth makes her stomach churn.
‘Johanne and you are both from Jessheim, I understand. If I mention the name Erna Pedersen to you – what would you say?’
Emilie rubs her cheeks with her knuckle.
‘Erna Pedersen?’ she repeats, but gets no reply. ‘We had a teacher called that, I remember, but it’s quite a common name, isn’t it?’
‘Yes, you’re right,’ the police officer says quickly. ‘But I believe you’re thinking of the right Erna Pedersen. What do you remember about your old teacher?’
‘Far too much,’ Emilie says and laughs before she feels guilty for laughing in a situation like this. ‘No, she was… strict, I suppose you’d say. What about her?’
But the officer gives her no answer.
‘You were at school together, you and Johanne?’
‘Yes.’
‘When was this?’
‘The whole time, we grew up together.’
‘So when did Erna Pedersen teach you? Do you remember?’
Emilie thinks about it.
‘Towards the end of primary school, I think it was. The last two or three years, possibly.’
‘Did you have any school photos taken?’
Emilie tries to remember.
‘I’m not sure. I think we might have had one taken in Year Six.’
There is a moment of silence.
‘Do you still happen to have that photo, Emilie?’
She thinks about it.
‘Yes, I think so. Somewhere.’
‘Do you think you could find it?’
Emilie hesitates for a second.
‘I can try looking for it, of course, but—’
Then she realises why the officer wants to know.
‘Was it… was it Erna Pedersen, who was—’
Emilie clasps her hand over her mouth.
‘I read something in the newspaper about an Erna Pedersen who had been—’
She is unable to complete the sentence.
‘Yes, that was her,’ the policeman says. ‘And we wouldn’t be doing our job if we didn’t investigate the possibility that there might be a connection between the two deaths. That doesn’t necessarily mean that there is. But can you think of anyone you went to school with who had unfinished business with Johanne and Erna Pedersen?’
Emilie doesn’t reply at once. She is thinking, or trying to think, but too many questions are hurling themselves at her at the same time.
‘Teachers are never very popular,’ she says. ‘But I can’t imagine that—’
She stops again.
‘No,’ she says quietly. ‘I don’t know of any.’
‘If you do think of any, please call. You have my number?’
Emilie checks the display on her mobile.
‘Yes.’
‘Good. I think that’s it for now. Please try to find that school photo. It might be important.’
‘I’ll see what I can do.’
‘Good. Thank you. And once again, I’m sorry for your loss.’
Emilie smiles a feeble smile.
‘Thank you,’ she replies.
Chapter 55
Henning hasn’t driven far before he pulls over in a lay-by. He is thinking about the map he saw on Trine’s laptop. The date in the top right-hand corner.
It did say ‘9 October’, didn’t it? The day when she, according to every newspaper in Norway, allegedly made the biggest blunder of her life. What kind of map was it? And why had she looked it up on her laptop?
Henning starts the car again and drives on. He stops at a Statoil petrol station in the centre of Stavern and helps himself to a handful of paper towels without buying anything. He finds a pen in the car’s glove compartment and clicks it ready while he tries to remember what he saw.
When he was at school, his friends used to tease him about his photographic memory. To some extent they were right, even though he always corrected them and said that it wasn’t about memory. He took a screen dump with his eyes and later he would note down what he had seen – a skill he has often found useful as a reporter.
Henning makes himself comfortable in the car, closes his eyes and summons up the image from the laptop, concentrating on its major features. First the parks and the lakes. Then he starts to draw. When he was little, he loved drawing city maps. It gave him a satisfying sense of order. Seeing the big picture. He sketches in any other streets that he remembers and the thick line that represented a kind of running profile – it looked like a malign virus under a microscope. When the sketch is done, he starts the car and drives on, pleased with the likeness he has managed to re-create.
When he gets home, he takes a long shower. While soap and shampoo settle in a foaming circle around the drain, he ponders his unfortunate tendency to irritate every woman he meets. In the past he could usually charm his way out of awkward situations, but there is very little left of that side of him. These days he is surrounded by women with problems, women who create problems, women who are the problem. Nora, Trine, Pia, Heidi.
Is that all his fault?
Now that he thinks about it, it’s not only the women. He has managed to fall out with everyone he knows; he couldn’t honestly say that he has a single friend left. Not a real one. No one came to visit him while he was in Sunnaas Rehabilitation Centre, though there might be a perfectly good reason for that. Before Jonas died, he might have gone for a drink or two with colleagues, but he never let anyone get close. He never felt the need to tell anyone about himself. Sometimes they would ask how things were with him and Nora, and every time he would say that they were fine, even though they weren’t.
Friendships and acquaintances are fleeting. You get close to people you see every day, and when your studies are over, when you move or get a new job, you say goodbye with every intention of keeping in touch. But new people take their place, time passes and it becomes harder to remain a central part of each other’s lives. It’s not because you don’t care any more. It’s just the way it goes.
The closest Henning has to a friend right now – and he is struggling to name even one – is Iver Gundersen. Even though Henning is loath to admit it.
Half naked, he walks into the living room. He stands there staring at all the photographs that are spread out on the floor. The thought of tidying up fills him with dismay and as he intends to work on the map he sketched in the car, he decides that clearing up will just have to wait. But then he spots a picture of Jonas, a big picture where his son is smiling. Henning bends down and picks it up.
It’s a lovely picture.
And though he tries as hard as he can, he can’t stop the pain from welling up inside him. Usually he can suppress it by trying to think of something else, looking at something else or forcing another image to appear in its place. But it’s not working now. Jonas is inside him, inside all of him, his eyes bore into him like a laser sight. His knees start to wobble.