And then a scream.
And then silence.
CHAPTER FOUR
THE PROBLEM WITH being in a battle is that if you get killed you never know whether your side wins or not. Sacrificing your life in a blaze of heroic glory is fine, but only if you’re willing to accept that it might not have achieved anything.
Movie battles have a good solid story structure — beginning, middle, end — and the audience gets to see how it all works out, how the actions of certain characters shape events, how their deaths either do or don’t have any meaning. But as I lay there in the cool grass, shot, bleeding, going into shock, I realised that the characters in those films, the ones who save the day by charging the machine guns or providing diversions so their mates can escape, the ones who say ‘leave me, I’ll only slow you down’ or ‘I can delay them, give you time to escape,’ die alone, clinging to the hope that maybe they’ve made a difference but not really sure if they’ve just thrown their lives away for no good reason.
I had no idea if Green had shot the sniper or vice-versa. Even if Green had shot him, our ‘side’ might still not get the weapons. And if we did get the weapons we still might not survive the coming year. In which case what possible point did my slow, silent, blood-soaked death on a patch of scrubland between two prefabs actually have? How had I helped? Would I be remembered as a hero who sacrificed himself for the greater good, or would I just end up a leg attached to a piece of string underneath a car somewhere, luring other poor bastards into an ambush?
Luckily, the thing about shock is that pretty quickly you stop giving a toss about much of anything, so I soon stopped philosophising. I then briefly, dispassionately, considered giving up or going on, and then began crawling towards cover.
The sniper must have been aiming for my upper body. I wasn’t sure whether I was lucky that he’d only hit my left thigh, or unlucky that he’d hit me at all. A thigh wound might sound painful but non-threatening — all that muscle to absorb the slug, no major organs to hit — but you’ve got arteries running through your legs, and if the bullet had hit one of those I wasn’t going to be around for much longer, no matter how much cover I found.
I made it into the shade of the next outbuilding without being shot again. I propped myself up against the wall and examined my leg. It was bleeding freely but not spurting. Lucky. I pulled my belt out of my trousers, looped it around my leg just above the wound, and pulled it tight. Up to now there’d been hardly any pain, but as the belt dug in I had to work hard to stifle a scream.
I fastened the belt and tried to stand, using my rifle as a crutch. As soon as I was upright I had a massive headrush and tumbled back onto the ground.
I may have blacked out, I don’t know.
Deep breaths. Focus. Get back up.
I hobbled away towards the main building. Dear God my leg hurt. Jonah had taken a chunk out of it and it hadn’t hurt half as badly as this. Matron would be pleased, assuming I ever made it back to the sanatorium.
As I approached the gap between the next prefab and the one beyond I heard the unmistakeable snap of a twig. There was someone coming. If I tried to shoulder my rifle I’d topple over, so I propped myself up against the wall and raised the weapon, waiting for my stalker to break cover.
My vision was starting to blur.
Green hobbled from between the two buildings. He had one hand above his head but the other arm hung limp at his side, dripping fresh blood. Score two to the sniper. But the sniper obviously thought I was dead, because he strolled out in front of me, bold as brass, keeping his rifle aimed square at Green’s back.
Two things occurred to me. Firstly, they must have marched right across the road in full view of the pillbox, so the sniper didn’t think there was any threat to him from that direction, which might mean Mac was dead; secondly, I was once again being offered an opportunity to become a killer.
“Hold it.”
The sniper froze, staring straight ahead. Green, on the other hand, jumped out of his skin.
“I could shoot you right here and now,” I said. “You’d be dead before you hit the ground.” I was lightheaded, all right, please forgive the clichés. “I really don’t want to do that, but please believe me when I say that I won’t hesitate for an instant if you do anything at all to make me nervous. I’ve lost a lot of blood and I’m not sure I’m thinking clearly, so you’d better not make me jump.”
The sniper was well camouflaged. His face and hands were daubed in black and green paint, and he had webbing hanging off him like a cloak, with pieces of greenery, twigs, leaves and ferns sticking out of it. He was carrying an L96 sniper rifle and had various other pieces of kit in pouches and holsters. He was about 40 and middle aged spread had taken hold. Hardly Hereford material, probably some weekend warrior TA guy who worked in accounts during the week.
“All right,” he said, still not moving an inch. “Now calm down, son. I had no idea I was shooting at kids. I’d never have opened fire if I’d realised. There’s no need for any more shooting, okay?”
“Not if you drop your gun, there isn’t.”
“Can’t do that, laddie. Orders is orders, y’know.”
I raised the rifle, pointed it straight at his head, and shuffled forward until the muzzle gently kissed his temple.
“Last chance. Drop it, or I drop you.”
The cocky bastard actually thought about it for a minute, but then he lowered his gun and let it fall to the ground.
Thank you. Still not a killer.
Green staggered sideways and slumped against the wall of the opposite prefab. He was hyperventilating and glassy-eyed.
“On the floor, face down, hands behind your head.”
“Now listen, can we not…”
“On the floor!”
The sniper complied.
“Green. Green!”
“Um, yeah? Yeah? Lee? Lee, I’m shot, Lee. He shot me, Lee.”
“I know, but you’re fine, doesn’t look too serious. You’re going to be fine.”
“But he shot me, Lee. In my arm. He shot my arm. I’ve been shot. In the arm.”
“He’s going into shock. Let me help,” said the sniper.
“Shut the fuck up,” I barked. “Green, I need you to focus on me. Green. Green. Focus on me.” His eyes swam around in his head but eventually they locked onto mine. “I want you to go into the main building, head to the top floor and find the Colonel. He’s got a med kit. Tell him what’s happened. But Green, keep behind these prefabs and enter the main building from the rear, don’t expose yourself to the pillbox, understand? Understand?”
He nodded listlessly.
“Okay, off you go. Quickly now.”
He lurched away like a zombie in a bad horror film.
Once I was sure he’d gone the right way, I turned my attention back to my captive.
“TA, right?”
“Is this an interrogation?” He sounded amused. I kicked him. Bad idea. My wounded leg buckled underneath me. He was moving before I even realised I was falling. But he was fat and slow, and I was lucky. I fell in such a way that the rifle remained pointing at him, and as my back hit the wall I was left slumped but upright, with my gun pointing square at his chest. He was on his knees, one hand reaching for a holster on his hip, but he knew he’d never make it. He widened his arms, smiled, and shuffled backwards until he was leaning against the opposite wall. I rested my rifle on my good knee, finger still firm on the trigger.
“Mind if I smoke?”