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Joanna fixed her with her curiously inexpressive eyes.

"Would it help, do you think, if you and I talked about her?"

Again Joanna didn't answer and to Sarah, who had rehearsed everything on the assumption that the other woman would be a willing party to their conversation, the silence was as effective as a brick wall. "I hoped," she said, "that we could try to establish some sort of common ground." She paused briefly but there was no response. "Because, frankly, I'm not happy about leaving everything in the hands of solicitors. If we do, we might just as well burn the money now and be done with it." She gave a tentative smile. "They'll pick the bones clean and leave us with a worthless carcase. Is that what you want?"

Joanna turned her face to the window and contemplated the garden. "Doesn't it make you angry that your husband's here with me, Dr. Blakeney?"

Relieved that the ice was broken, though not in a way she would have chosen herself, Sarah followed her gaze. "Whether it does or doesn't isn't terribly relevant. If we bring Jack into it, we'll get nowhere. He has a maddening habit of hi-jacking almost every conversation I'm involved in, and I really would prefer, if possible, to keep him out of this one."

"Do you think he slept with my mother?"

Sarah sighed inwardly. "Does it matter to you?"

"Yes."

"Then, no, I don't think he did. For all his sins, he never takes advantage of people."

"She might have asked him to."

"I doubt it. Mathilda had far too much dignity."

Joanna turned back to her with a frown. "I suppose you know she posed in the nude for him. I found one of his sketches in her desk. It left nothing to the imagination, I can assure you. Do you call that dignified? She was old enough to be his mother."

"It depends on your point of view. If you regard the female nude as intrinsically demeaning or deliberately provocative, then, yes, I suppose you could say it was undignified of Mathilda." She shrugged. "But that's a dangerous philosophy which belongs to the dark ages and the more intolerant religions. If, on the other hand, you see the nude figure, be it male or female, as one of nature's creations, and therefore as beautiful and as extraordinary as anything else on this planet, then I see no shame involved in allowing a painter to paint it."

"She did it because she knew it would excite him." She spoke the words with conviction and Sarah wondered about the wisdom of continuing-Joanna's prejudice against her mother was too ingrained for reasoned argument. But the offensiveness of the statement irritated her enough to defend Jack, if only because she had encountered the same sort of blinkered stupidity herself.

"Jack's seen far too many naked women to find nakedness itself a turn-on," she said dismissively. "Nudity is only erotic if you want it to be. You might just as well say that I get a thrill every time a male patient undresses for me."

"That's different. You're a doctor."

Sarah shook her head. "It's not, but I'm not going to argue the toss with you. It would be a waste of both our times." She ran her fingers through her hair. "In any case your mother was too incapacitated by her arthritis, and in too much pain from it, to want to have intercourse with a virile man thirty years her junior. It's important to keep a sense of proportion, Mrs. Lascelles. It might have been different if she had been sexually active all her life or even liked men very much, but neither was true of your mother. She once told me that the reason there were so many divorces these days was because relationships based on sex were doomed to fail. The pleasures of orgasm were too fleeting to make the remaining hours of boredom and disappointment worthwhile."

Joanna resumed her study of the garden. "Then why did she take her clothes off?" It was, it seemed, very important to her. Because she was jealous, Sarah wondered, or because she needed to go on despising Mathilda?

"I imagine it was no big deal, one way or the other, and she was interested enough in art for art's sake to help Jack explore the unconventional side of her nature. I can't see her doing it for any other reason."

There was a brief silence while Joanna considered this. "Do you still like her now that she's dead?"

Sarah clasped her hands between her knees and stared at the carpet. "I don't know," she said honestly. "I'm so angry about the will that I can't view her objectively at the moment."

"Then say you don't want the bequest. Let me and Ruth have it."

"I wish it was that easy, believe me, but if I turn it down then you'll have to fight the donkeys' charity for it, and I honestly can't see how that will improve your chances unless, presumably, you can show that Mathilda never intended that will to be her last." She looked up to find Joanna's pale eyes studying her intently.

"You're a very peculiar woman, Dr. Blakeney," she said slowly. "You must realize that the easiest way for me to do that is to prove that my mother was murdered and that you were the one who did it. It fits so neatly, after all. You knew the will was just a threat to make me and Ruth toe the line, so you killed Mother quickly before she could change it. Once you're convicted, no court on earth will rule in favour of the donkeys."

Sarah nodded. "And if you can cajole my husband into testifying that I knew about the will in advance, then you're home and dry." She raised an eyebrow in enquiry. "But, as I suspect you're beginning to discover, Jack is neither so amenable nor so dishonest. And it wouldn't make any difference, you know, if you did manage to persuade him into bed with you. I've known him for six years and the one thing I can say about him is that he cannot be bought. He values himself far too highly to tell lies for anyone, no matter how much of an obligation they may put him under."

Joanna gave a small laugh. "You're very confident that I haven't slept with him."

Sarah felt compassion for her. "My solicitor phoned last night to say that Jack's camped out in your summer-house, but I was sure anyway. You're very vulnerable at the moment, and I do know my husband well enough to know he wouldn't exploit that."

"You sound as though you admire him."

"I could never admire him as much as he admires himself," she said dryly. "I hope he's extremely cold out there. I've suffered for his art for years."

"I gave him a paraffin heater," said Joanna with a frown. The memory obviously annoyed her.

Sarah's eyes brimmed with sudden laughter. "Was he grateful?"

"No. He told me to leave it outside the door." She gazed through the window. "He's an uncomfortable person."

"I'm afraid he is," Sarah agreed. "It never occurs to him that other people have fragile egos which need stroking from time to time. It means you have to take his love on faith if you want a relationship with him." She gave a throaty chuckle. "And faith has a nasty habit of deserting you just when you most need it."

There was a long silence. "Did you talk to my mother like this?" Joanna asked at last.

"Like what?"

Joanna sought for the right words. "So-easily."

"Do you mean did I find her easy to talk to?"

"No." There was a haunted look in the grey eyes. "I meant, weren't you afraid of her?"

Sarah stared at her hands. "I didn't need to be, Mrs. Lascelles. She couldn't hurt me, you see, because she wasn't my mother. There were no emotional strings to be arbitrarily plucked when she felt like it; no shared family secrets that would lay me open to her vituperative tongue; no weaknesses from my childhood that she could exploit into adulthood whenever she felt like belittling me. If she'd tried, of course, I'd have walked away, because I've had all that from my own mother for years and there is no way I would put up with it from a stranger."

"I didn't kill her. Is that what you came to find out?"

"I came to find out if bridges could be built."

"For your benefit or mine?"

"Both, I hoped."

Joanna's smile was apologetic. "But I've got nothing to gain by being friendly with you, Dr. Blakeney. It would be tantamount to admitting Mother was right and I can't do that, not if I want to contest the will in court."