The hurt on his face made her stomach clench. He looked down at his food, the smile fading slowly from his face, laid his napkin beside the plate and stood up. He looked around the room, walked to the door where his coat was hanging on the knob, picked it up, looked at her and left, closing the door quietly behind him.
Alexa hadn’t realized she’d been holding her breath since her little speech and with the closing of the door she let all the air out of her lungs. She wanted to run after him and tell him to come back, that she was sorry to be so rude. The look on his face killed her, and she had the gnawing fear she would never see him again. What had she done? Was it the right thing?
“It was the right thing for me,” she said firmly to herself. She slowly picked up the plates of untouched food and carried them to the sink, scraping the uneaten food into the disposal. As she turned it on and watched it disappear down the drain, she said again, “it was the right thing for me.”
“You did WHAT?” Tahleah was clearly stunned.
“Listen, Tahleah,” she said with warning in her voice, “don’t ever do that again. Don’t EVER let a complete stranger into my house, or anyone for that matter without my permission. Do you hear me? That had better never happen again.”
“He may be gone for good now,” said Tahleah, ignoring her. She was clearly exasperated.
“I can only hope so,” Alexa looked down the counter to the spot where Cayman usually sat. It was breakfast, and his chair at the counter sat empty.
“Oh for crying out loud, Alexa! What were you thinking! How could you let a fish like that get away? I saw how you looked at him. I thought if I let him in there you might just acknowledge those feelings and give it a go. I can’t believe you chased him away.”
“Believe it. I feel great.”
“No you don’t. You can’t even decide if you did the right thing. It’s on your face plain as day.” Tahleah stomped off in a huff.
Alexa wondered how Tahleah could know her so well. Still, there was a clear void inside her and no amount of stomping, fussing or being hard to live with was going to change it.
Just then Keith came through the door and headed to his seat. He stopped when he saw her and said, “Why, Alexa, what’s wrong? You look like you lost your best friend.”
“Oh good grief! Have you been talking to Tahleah?”
She grabbed the coffee pot and a menu and followed Keith around to his booth.
“Well, no, did she quit?” he asked, obviously confused.
“No, she didn’t quit, but I told that Ham and Eggs guy to buzz off and leave me alone and now she thinks I missed out on the opportunity of a lifetime.”
“And you’re not so sure she isn’t right.” Keith smiled, turning his coffee cup over.
“No, I’m absolutely sure I was right and---“
“Don’t play those games with me, young lady,” said Keith, “I’ve been around too long, and don’t have that much time left that I would enjoy the game now. You liked him, and you know it.”
Alexa dropped dejectedly down in the seat across from Keith. “Did I really blow it? I can’t fall for anyone again, Keith. I really can’t.”
Keith chuckled and looked down at his empty coffee cup.
“How old are you? Twenty-six? Twenty-eight max? Don’t you think that’s kind of a long time to be alone? You may have to do that ‘kissing-the-frogs’ thing for a while, but you don’t have to sleep with every frog you kiss, and you don’t have to expect every one of them to turn into a prince. But you could at least enjoy yourself along the way. I need some coffee.”
Alexa sighed and reached across the table to pour the steaming coffee into his cup.
“I can’t, Keith. I mean it; and I don’t want to. I don’t want to deal with another human being in my life.”
“Yes, you do.” He said with determination.
“How do you--How could you even remotely know that?”
Keith looked at her across the table. He picked up his coffee cup and took a slow sip, then put the cup back down on the table and stared into the dark liquid.
“I know that because there isn’t a human being on the face of this earth that doesn’t need to be loved.” He looked into her eyes. “You’re not betraying the memory of your father, nor are you giving in to a life you swore you’d never want. Be human Alexa; live again. Square your shoulders, take a deep breath and give it a go. It’s a ride you can stop at any time.”
She set the menu down in front of him and squeezed his hand.
“Thanks.”
“For what? Free advice from an old codger? What’s that worth?”
Alexa laughed and headed back to the front of the diner. She walked around the end of the counter and put the coffee pot back on the warmer.
She was standing with her back to the front door when the bells sent out the warning that someone had come in. It was him, she knew it was him and she couldn’t bring herself to look.
She felt the warmth of his body move in behind her, leaning into her.
“Go out with me, just once,” he whispered in her ear. “If you’re miserable I won’t ask you again. Promise.”
Alexa softly put down the coffee cup and paused briefly. She turned to him, placing her hands on his magnificent chest.
“I’m sorry I’ve been so rude. You made that incredible breakfast for me and I didn’t even so much as thank you. I’m…I’m truly sorry.” Her eyes reached deeply into his, searching...questioning.
“Yes, I’ll go out with you. Just don’t be expecting anything more than a date.”
“Ha!” laughed Cayman, “Are you questioning my most noble intentions?”
His laughter was music and it made her smile just to hear it.
“Yes. Yes I am. Now move it and let me get to work.” She pushed him gently to the side and turned to pick up a menu. Cayman walked around the end of the bar and sat down in his usual place.
“I’ll have the #3 with coffee.”
That evening Cayman picked her up and they drove to the ‘famous’ ponds to throw a few rocks. Alexa laughed when she heard where they were going and what they would be doing.
“I have to warn you,” she said playfully, “that was always my favorite date with my dad and I have a pretty good record at rock skipping.”
“Not as good as mine, I’ll wager,” he grinned back. “I’ve got the record for my high school of eight.”
“Eight kids? That’s not a very big high school. Where’d you grow up, anyway?” she teased, knowing full well what he’d meant.
“Very funny. Eight skips. That’s good and you know it.”
She smiled slyly at him, “Eight? Really? Well, that’s small stuff for me. My record is ten.”
He pulled into the gravel parking lot and parked the car.
“No way! You couldn’t have gotten ten. That is impossible. No way.”
He got out and came around to her door and opened it. As she stood up his hand went to the back of her neck and he pulled her into a kiss. He slid his hand down her back, to her waist, pulling her whole body into his.
Alexa wanted to run, she wanted to run so far no one would find her, but that kiss… She couldn’t deny the warmth it sent rushing through her body.
“You’ve got to stop doing that,” she said, “or I won’t be responsible for my actions.”
“I’ll take full responsibility for any actions you want to blame on me.”
With her last ounce of emotional strength, she moved away, her hand lingering in his.