seventeen
KATE PEEKED IN her office. “You okay?”
She forced a smile. “Hanging in there.”
“Ladies’ night. Mugs. Friday. Gen’s coming.”
Ken raised her brow. “You believe her?”
“David’s out of town at a conference so I think she’ll sneak out. Jane and Arilyn are in.”
“Okay.” She tried to keep her voice from sounding lackluster, but her energy was low these days. The knowledge that she’d lost Nate for good would take her a long recovery time. But she was making some changes. She’d gone back to her therapist, and the sessions were helpful. All that time she’d gotten her body back to being healthy, she’d forgotten the other important half. To love all of herself, good and bad, fat and skinny, smart and not so smart. They were delving deep, and though the work was painful, a weight began to lift from her soul.
Three weeks had passed since she officially lost Nate. Both Mary and he had withdrawn from Kinnections, and she hoped he was happy with her.
Kate spoke quietly. “You’re going to be okay, sweetie. We’ll get you through it.”
“Can I ask you a question?”
“Anything.”
“What happens if you let your soul-mate go? You sensed we were meant for each other. But what if it doesn’t work? Is one doomed to spend the rest of her life searching for something she’ll never find?”
Kate shook her head hard. “No. You cannot think like that. My mother explained about the gift. It doesn’t guarantee a happy-ever-after. Two people may not be meant for this time around. You can have many people you love in this lifetime, Ken, I swear to you. And we don’t know the future. The most important part is you didn’t turn away from it. You tried to tell Nate the truth. You took the risk. That’s the key. Understand?”
Silly tears threatened. She was so frickin’ emotional lately. “Yes. Thanks.”
“No problem. I came in to tell you there’s a client waiting. I tried to help him, but he only wants to talk to you. Heard you were the best.”
Ken swiped at her eyes and laughed. “Well, he’s right about that. You can send him in.”
“You got it.”
She straightened her desk, adjusted her cocoa brown jacket, and put her game face on. The pen dropped from her fingers when she came face-to-face with Nate’s brother.
Fear cut her apart piece by piece. “Is Nate okay?”
“Yes, he’s fine. Just wanted to talk.”
The breath left her body. Thank God. She’d take the emotional hit of being close to his brother as long as Nate was safe. “Sit down.”
He unfurled his long, bulky length into the seat. He tried to hook one ankle over his leg but bashed himself into the desk, so he settled for shaking his foot back and forth as if he were about to face the principal in elementary school. “Got something to ask.”
“Go ahead.”
“Do you still love Nate?”
Her body froze but she forced herself to speak. “Yes. I will probably always love him.”
“I lied.”
She cocked her head and studied him. His hand began to pound out a rhythm against his knee. “What do you mean?”
“He wasn’t sleeping with Mary. He never did. They were dating, and I didn’t trust you. I lied to make sure you didn’t bother him again.”
A small smile broke over her lips. “I don’t blame you. You’re his brother, and you wanted to protect him. I would’ve lied, too.”
He stopped rocking and tapping and met her gaze. The hazel eyes that were once filled with accusation now seemed softer. More forgiving. “I made a mistake. I never told Nate about you coming to see him.”
She shrugged. “No reason. He’s with Mary now, he’s happy. That’s all I wanted for him. They both withdrew from Kinnections, so things must be working out well.”
“He’s not with Mary anymore.”
The breath whooshed out of her lungs. A terrible hope sprang from deep within, but she held it back. “What are you saying?”
He muttered something under his breath. “Nate loves you. He never had a relationship with Mary—they didn’t connect. Mary found someone else, and Nate decided to take some time off from dating. He’s trying to get over you, but it’s like he’s haunted all the time. Unhappy. He goes through the motions. Meets me and the guys for drinks, but he’s like a shadow of himself. I think I was wrong.”
Her heart pounded so hard and so loudly she swore his brother heard it. “About what?”
“About you. I think you got scared, like you said, and freaked out. I think I judged you because you remind me of all these women who have hurt me, starting with my mom. But I don’t want to do that anymore. Who am I to judge you? We all make mistakes. I’m a walking mess, but Nate’s putting me through school now, and I want more. Don’t you?”
“Yes,” she whispered.
“Good. You need to go see him. Get him back.”
Her hands trembled as she pushed her hair back from her face. “I’ll need to prove he can trust me. You think he’ll forgive me?”
“Yeah. But you gotta come up with something good. Something epic.”
The hope let loose and sprouted. She had another chance. “I have to think.”
“Maybe you go see him in a raincoat, and you take it off, and you’re naked underneath. Then you say I’ll do anything to get you back.”
She rolled her eyes. “Dude, are you serious? That’s so lame and overdone. Next idea.”
Connor glared. “Would’ve worked with me,” he muttered. “I know! We deliver a big cake to his lab, and you jump out of it in a sequined bikini while the song ‘I Apologize’ is on in the background and beg his forgiveness.”
“Never gonna happen. Can you come up with an option where I wear actual clothing? It needs to be an emotionally epic moment, not physical.”
“I think you’re going in the wrong direction here.”
“You’re gonna be a real pain in the ass as a brother-in-law.”
They looked at each other and shared their first real laugh.
And then, suddenly, she had it.
“I know what to do. But I’ll need to recruit help.”
“What’s the plan?”
She relayed the basic details. His eyes widened and he finally nodded. “That’s a good one. Even though you’re not naked.”
“Thanks. I’m making the call.”
She reached out to grab the phone to talk to Wolfe.
NATE CHECKED HIS WATCH and decided to wait another five minutes. Wolfe was rarely late. He hoped he showed. Since the fight with his brother, things had settled a bit, but loneliness and thoughts of Kennedy still ravaged his mind. He was looking forward to a good game to test his skills and some male conversation for distraction.
The phone buzzed and he slid it out of his pocket. “Standing me up?”
A low chuckle. “Sorry, man, I got caught up in a project and can’t make it out.”
“No problem. I’ll miss kicking your ass, though.”
“I’m closing in on you, buddy. Shaved off two strokes in my game and closed my big deal. It was a beautiful thing.”
Nate grinned. “Damn, huge congrats. I knew you could do it.”
“You made it possible. Also realized there’s an untapped market in the hotel industry on the golf course. I left something for you in the office. Show Ron some ID and he’ll give it to you.”
“ID, huh? The plot thickens.”
“Enjoy. And don’t call me back with any bullshit. I can’t return them.”
“Now I’m worried. I guess I’ll thank you in advance, then.”
“Welcome. I found you another partner, too. Should be in the office waiting for you.”
“You think of everything. Now go make some money, for God’s sake.”
“Check in with you later.”