He had taken her hand to his lips but she had shaken her head, and had looked into his face, as if afraid to lose something. He could still feel it like a physical force.
“No, dear Adam. Just hold me.” She had lifted her chin. “Kiss me.”
He touched the bed, trying to keep the image at bay. Kiss me. Were they both so alone now that they needed reassurance? Was that the true reason for Catherine’s departure on this terrible day?
He closed the door behind them and walked down the stairs. Some of the candles had gone, or had burned so low as to be useless, but those by the hearth had been replaced. One of the servant girls must have done it. He smiled. No secrets in this old house.
He swallowed some brandy and ran his fingers along the carvings above the fireplace. The family motto, For My Country’s Freedom, worn smooth by many hands. Men leaving home. Men inspired by great deeds. Men in doubt, or afraid.
He sat down again.
The house, the reputation he must follow, the people who relied on him, it would all take time to accept or even understand.
And tomorrow he would be the captain again, all he had ever wanted.
He looked at the darkening stairs and imagined Bolitho coming down to face some new challenge, to accept a responsibility which might and did finally destroy him.
I would give everything I have just to hear your voice and take your hand again, Uncle.
But only the wind answered him.
The two riders had dismounted and stood partly sheltered by fallen rock, holding their horses’ heads, staring out at the whitecapped waters of Falmouth Bay.
“Reckon she’ll come, Tom?”
The senior coastguard tugged his hat more securely over his forehead. “Mister Ferguson seemed to think so. Wanted us to keep an eye open, just in case.”
The other man wanted to talk. “’Course, you knows her ladyship, Tom.”
“We’ve had a few words once or twice.” He would have smiled, but his heart was too heavy. His young companion meant well enough, and with a few years of service along these shores he might amount to something. Know Lady Catherine Somervell? How could he describe her? Even if he had wanted to?
He watched the great span of uneasy water, the serried ranks of short waves broken as if by some giant’s comb, while the wind tested its strength.
It was noon, or soon would be. When they had ridden up from town along the cliff path he had seen the small groups of people. It was uncanny, like some part of a Cornish myth, and there were plenty of those to choose from. A town, a port which lived off the sea, and had lost far too many of its sons to have no respect for the dangers.
Describe her? Like the time he had tried to prevent her from seeing the slight, battered corpse of the girl who had committed suicide from Trystan’s Leap. He had watched her hold the girl in her arms, unfasten her torn and soaking clothes to seek a scar, some identifying mark, when all features had been destroyed by the fall and the sea. On that little crescent of beach in the dropping tide after they had dragged her through the surf. It was something he would never forget, nor wanted to.
At length he said, “A beautiful lady.” He recalled what one of Ferguson ’s friends had said of her. “A sailor’s woman.”
He had been in the church with all the others, had seen her then, so upright, so proud. Describe her?
“Never too busy or too important to pass the time o’ day. Made you feel like you was somebody. Not like a few I could mention!”
His companion looked at him and thought he understood.
Then he said, “You was right, Tom. She’s comin’ now.”
Tom removed his hat and watched the solitary figure approaching.
“Say nothing. Not today.”
She was wearing the faded old boat-cloak she often used for these cliff top walks, and her hair was unfastened and blowing freely in the wind. She turned and faced the sea at the place where she often paused on her walks; the best view of all, the locals said.
The young coastguard said uneasily, “You don’t think she…”
Tom turned his head, his eye trained to every movement and mood of the sea and these approaches.
“No.” He saw the fine edge of the ship as she tacked around Pendennis Point and its brooding castle, close-hauled and hard over, clawing into the wind before standing towards St Anthony Head. She carried more canvas than might be expected, but he knew what the captain intended, to weather the headland and those frothing reefs before coming about to head into open waters for more sea room, with the wind as an ally.
A tight manoeuvre, well executed if Unrivalled was as shorthanded as was rumoured. Some might call it reckless. Tom recalled the dark, restless young captain in the church and all those other times. He had seen him grow from midshipman to this moment in his life, which must be the greatest challenge of all.
He saw the woman unfasten her shabby boat-cloak and stand unmoving in the blustery wind. Not in black, but in a dark green robe. Tom had seen her waiting on this same path for the first sign of another ship. So that he would see her, sense her welcome.
He watched the frigate heeling over and imagined the squeal of blocks and the bang of wild canvas as the yards were hauled round. He had seen it all so many times before. He was a simple man who did his duty, peace or war.
What ship did she see, he wondered. What moment was she sharing?
Catherine walked past the two horses but did not speak.
Don’t leave me!
2. No Longer a Stranger
ADAM BOLITHO rested one hand on the quarterdeck rail and watched the misty horizon tilt as if to dislodge the entire ship. For most of the forenoon they had been engaged in sail drill, an exercise made even more uncomfortable than usual by the blustery wind. It was directly from the north, and strong enough to force Unrivalled to lean until the sea spattered against the sealed gunports and drenched the men working aloft and on deck like a tropical storm.
Three days since the rugged Cornish coastline had vanished astern, and each one had been put to good use.
The hands were sliding down to the deck now, the landsmen and others less confident holding tightly to the ratlines when the ship heeled over to leeward, so that the sea appeared to be directly beneath them. There was a smell of rum even in the wind, and he had already noticed a thin trail of greasy smoke from the galley funnel.
He saw the first lieutenant waiting by the starboard ladder, his face giving nothing away.
“That was better, Mr Galbraith.” He thought he saw Galbraith’s eyes drop to the pocket where he carried the old timepiece and wondered what it must be like to take orders as a lieutenant again, instead of being in command. “Dismiss the watch below.” He heard the seamen running from their stations, glad to be spared further discomfort, and to curse their captain over a tot of rum.
He knew the sailing-master was watching him from his usual position, near his helmsmen whenever the ship was altering course or changing tack.
Adam walked to the weather side and wiped spray from his face, his body angled to the deck as the sails filled out like breastplates again. The sea was lively with cruising white horses, although it was calmer than when they had been in Biscay. There was too much spray to make out the lie of the land, but it was there, a long, purple hump, as if a bank of cloud had dropped from the sky. Cape St Vincent. And despite all the drills, the alterations of course to test the topmen and new hands alike, this was the exact landfall. He had seen the sailing-master’s calculations and his daily estimates of distance covered.
His name was Joshua Cristie, and he had a face so weathered and creased that he looked like the Old Man of the Sea, although Adam knew he was in his forties. He had served in almost every size and class of vessel from schooner to second-rate, and had been a sailing-master for some ten years. If the senior warrant officers were the backbone of any man-of-war, the sailing-master must surely be her rudder. Unrivalled was lucky to have him.