“Hypocrite! He did the same.” And Lady Hertford, his current spouse and the newly made Duchess of Somerset, had promised me her husband’s support.
“His first wife conveniently died before his second marriage.” Will sat on the edge of the bed and pulled me down beside him.
I sprang right back up again and glared down at him. “There are times when I wonder if you no longer want to be married to me.”
“How can you say such a thing?”
His dismay seemed genuine, but I hardened my heart. I was wont to give in too easily, seduced by Will’s easy charm and skillful kisses. Too many times to count, we had both forgotten to be careful and had gone beyond pleasuring each other to couple fully. So far I had not caught a child, but I did not think my luck would hold forever.
“You must insist. Remind Somerset of his promise.”
“His wife’s promise, you mean.”
“She rules him.”
“Then you must plead our case to her.”
I blanched.
Will sighed. “The real problem is that Somerset is an evangelical. He intends to continue reforming the church. To do so, he cannot be seen to support divorce. What if anyone could cast off a spouse? There would be chaos.”
“I am not learned enough for theological debate, but how can I accept this reasoning?”
“We will not have to wait forever. It is true that, for the moment, we cannot live as man and wife, but once the commission the king has sanctioned decides in our favor, no one will ever again be able to question our right to be together.” He reached for me. “In the meantime, let us not waste the afternoon.”
I swallowed bitter disappointment and schooled myself to be patient. But oh how I resented the necessity.
In the following week, my father returned to England, escorting a French envoy who had been sent to bring King Edward word of the death of King Francis of France. Father sought me out in my lodgings, regarding the furnishings with a jaundiced eye.
“I have a husband in mind for you, Bess,” he announced. “It is past time you were married.”
“I thank you for your kindness, Father, but I have made my own choice.”
He ignored that. “I am your father, Bess. You will marry where I say. You will find him agreeable, I think. Sir Edward Warner. You know him from Queen Kathryn’s household.”
“You cannot force me into marriage. I am above the age of sixteen, old enough to make my own decision in this matter.”
“That is questionable. You will not be of full age until you enter your twenty-first year.”
“A matter of a few months only,” I reminded him. “And you cannot coerce me into marriage no matter what my age.” I took a deep breath. “Not only have I the right to refuse, but Will and I have already exchanged wedding vows per verba de presenti.” Let him make what he would of that!
A vein in Father’s forehead bulged. “So that is what is behind this commission he’s asked for.”
“As soon as it is formed, the members will declare Will’s earlier marriage invalid, thus removing all barriers to ours.”
“I would not be so certain of success. The commissioners will no doubt be churchmen and conservative in their thinking, at least in matters such as this. If they forbid remarriage, what will you do then, eh?”
“I will live with Will as his mistress!”
The words burst out of me before I considered how Father would react. I quailed before his fulminating glare. I had never seen him so angry. For a moment I thought he might strike me. Or worse, take me forcibly back to Cowling Castle and lock me in the highest tower. Instead he took several deep breaths as he backed away from me.
“I have raised a fool,” he said when he reached the door. “I pray you will come to your senses soon, before a respectable marriage is no longer possible.”
“I have a good marriage already, Father,” I whispered when he had gone. I wished I dared shout that truth to the world, but Will was right. We needed to be cautious until the commission gave its ruling.
Caution. Patience. I came to hate both those words, especially when the eight men chosen to decide our fate were, as Father had predicted, conservative and mostly churchmen. One was Archbishop Cranmer. It was May before they even took up Will’s petition. There seemed little hope of a prompt decision.
“Is there no way to hurry things along?” I asked the Duchess of Somerset, who still claimed to be sympathetic to our plight.
“Patience, Bess,” Anne Somerset advised.
That was what everyone said, unless they were telling me how foolish I was to pine for a married man. It did not help that so many of my friends were gone from court.
Jack Dudley was one of the few who remained. With his father’s elevation in the peerage to Earl of Warwick, Jack had acquired the courtesy title of Lord Lisle. He had grown into his feet, as they say, and now bore a strong resemblance to both his father and his late brother, Harry Dudley. Jack had retained, however, his admiration for me.
“You could still change your mind and marry me,” he said as we stood together to watch the gentlemen pensioners muster in Hyde Park. Will’s standard, yellow and black with a maiden’s head, his sister’s emblem, flew above them.
“I scarce think that would please your father.” Jack made the same suggestion every time we met, even though there had been talk for some time of a match for him with the Duke of Somerset’s eldest daughter, a girl named Anne, after her mother.
Jack was silent for a time, watching the well-trained, beautifully caparisoned horses go through their paces. Their riders, dressed in yellow velvet, paraded with the levies of other nobles, each dressed in distinctive livery.
“Do you truly love Will Parr, Bess?”
“I do.”
“Why?”
“Love has no reason, Jack. Or perhaps it has too many to name. I cannot explain it. I only know what exists between us.”
Trumpets sounded. To entertain the crowd, Will’s fifty gentlemen pensioners began a carefully staged attack on one of the other bands. The “battle” raged for a quarter of an hour, raising a great cloud of dust and pleasing the spectators, especially the young king, who cheered the combatants on as lustily as any shopkeeper’s son.
“Toy soldiers,” Jack sneered. “They’ve never seen a real battle.”
“Nor have you.” I was quick to take offense at the insult to Will. “You were the lucky one. Instead of going to war like Harry, you entered the young prince’s household and remained with him throughout King Henry’s reign.”
Jack regarded me with mild curiosity. “Did you ever love Harry?”
I hesitated. “I liked him. In time it might have become more.”
“Father says love is not important in marriage. Most people marry without it.”
A shout went up as the gentlemen pensioners made another mock sally.
“Your parents love each other,” I said. “So do mine.”
“I wonder if that was always true.”
I considered before I answered. “I think so, at least in my parents’ case, or so my grandmother told me when I was young.” I repressed a sigh. I had not seen Grandmother Jane since her long-ago visit to Cowling Castle. If she hadn’t approved of Will as a suitor for her daughter, I doubted that opinion had altered now that it was her granddaughter who was in love with him.
Jack’s face was impossible to read. “I wish you well, Bess. Know that. Always.”
27
Will and I continued to bide our time through June and into July, waiting for the legal process to work in our favor. Others were not as prudent. A screech of rage from the Duchess of Somerset sent all her ladies scurrying for cover. She prevented my escape by shouting my name just as I reached the door.