I did not share this conclusion with anyone. Few would understand. Many would think me unnatural for holding such an opinion. Even Will, who swore he needed only me, might wonder at my sudden change of heart about the state of motherhood.
Hard on the heels of my epiphany, a messenger delivered an official-looking document to Esher. It was addressed to Will, but I did not hesitate to open it. He had empowered me to deal with all matters concerning his estate while he was out of the country. The contents left me speechless. Lady Anne Bourchier, the wife Will had cast off for adultery, had brought suit against him, claiming that since the commission had found that she and Will had never been married, she was therefore her father’s legal heir and entitled to the lands that had come to Will when he was created Earl of Essex.
My melancholy mood lifted. I had a purpose again—to fight for my absent husband’s rights. I sent for a lawyer and began to muster arguments as to why this faithless woman, who had deceived and betrayed the man I loved, should never be allowed to regain a single acre of Essex land.
37
The clatter of hooves on the cobblestones in the courtyard at Esher had me rushing to the window. My first reaction on hearing so many horses arrive at speed was apprehension, but it took me only a moment to recognize Will. At once, my heart beat faster. He swung off his horse, throwing the reins to a groom, and abandoned the riders who’d accompanied him to race toward the nearest entrance. Tears of joy flowed down my cheeks as I hoisted up my skirts, ignored the restrictiveness of my whalebone corset, and ran for the stairs.
Will met me before I was halfway down, catching me by the waist and lifting me into a smoldering kiss. He smelled of sweat and leather and horses, but I did not mind in the least. He was real. He had come back to me, safe and sound.
“I died a hundred deaths fearing for your safety,” he whispered. “You are well? You have not been ill?”
“There was sickness everywhere, but I was spared.” I ran my hands over his arms, his chest. “And you, Will?” I could scarcely believe he was really with me again. I’d known he was to return sometime in August, but sailing ships must wait upon wind and weather. And sometimes, they sank.
Will had left for France on the twenty-second of May. It was now mid-August. We had been apart for three long months. We barely stopped kissing long enough for me to direct him to the bedchamber I had chosen for us and furnished in his absence, but he needed no guidance to find the bed.
Hours later, we still could not stop touching. It was as if we both needed proof the other was really there.
“I had not thought the separation would be so difficult,” Will said as he tenderly stroked one finger down the side of my face. “We endured time apart before.”
I smiled, content just to look at him, now that our lustful longings had temporarily been satisfied. But one question nagged at me. “Have you already been to court?”
He chuckled. “Only because Hampton Court was on the way here. I left the rest of the embassy behind in Dover, all but a few outriders, and rode ahead. I made my report to Warwick in the briefest manner possible. It is as well he is an old friend. He knew how anxious I was to be reunited with you.”
Yes, I thought. Beneath the title, Warwick was still the man, John Dudley, who had married Jane Guildford, his childhood sweetheart. Will and I were fortunate in having their friendship.
“We must both return to court soon,” Will murmured, his lips close to my ear. His hands were busy elsewhere, making me shiver with longing even though a moment earlier I’d been sated.
“Must we?”
He laughed. “Never tell me you did not miss being at the center of things!”
“A little, perhaps. But I missed being with you more.”
We had exchanged frequent letters during our separation, but the written word was no substitute for speaking face-to-face. Our reunion was both tender and passionate, and for the best part of the next two days, when we were never apart, we shared our separate experiences. I found the courage to tell him of my new insight into myself and found him accepting. He swore once again that I was all he needed to be complete. I believed him. I believed him, too, when he promised to put a stop to Anne Bourchier’s scheme to take her father’s estate away from Will. In spite of my best efforts, her lawsuit had not been dismissed.
Once Will and I returned to court, life went on much as it had before—full of entertaining amusements, secret intrigues, alarming rumors, sudden betrayals, and new rewards. John Dudley, Earl of Warwick, was elevated in the peerage to Duke of Northumberland. Henry Grey, Marquess of Dorset, was created Duke of Suffolk, claiming that title in the right of his wife, Frances Brandon, since the deaths of both her half brothers of the sweat had left the title in abeyance. When the Earl of Warwick became Duke of Northumberland, his oldest son—Jack Dudley, Lord Lisle—was created Earl of Warwick in his own right. Will’s brother-in-law, Lord Herbert, became Earl of Pembroke. Other honors were granted, too, both titles and knighthoods. Will received no greater title, but he was granted a bishop’s palace, formerly the property of Stephen Gardiner, bishop of Winchester, the same prelate who had once tried to have Queen Kathryn arrested for heresy.
Winchester House was located in Southwark, just across London Bridge from the city, and it boasted its own wharf, called the Bishop of Winchester’s Stairs. I stepped off our barge, the small one with the striped awning, and stared up at the house in delight.
“It is magnificent,” I breathed, impressed by its fine stone walls.
The interior was even more spectacular, containing as it did so many large, well-proportioned rooms, all of them luxuriously furnished. The bishop had been fond of Flemish tapestries, Turkey carpets, and well-cushioned chairs.
We moved from the great hall along a narrow passage and entered the enormous kitchen, where gawking servants did not seem to know what to make of us. Will made a short speech, informing them of the property’s change in ownership. Most looked relieved. Having a master in prison had to be unsettling.
We continued our exploration of the house, inspecting bedchambers—also well furnished—and stopping now and again to admire the view from the windows, especially those that looked out over the Thames. Downriver, I could see the houses crowded in cheek by jowl on London Bridge itself. Rising behind were the high, pale walls of the Tower.
“I wonder if Gardiner can see his former residence from his cell?” I mused.
Will laughed. “I hope he can, and drowns in his own bile for thinking about us in possession.”
“We’ve space enough for all manner of improvements,” I remarked.
A courtyard graced the land side of the house, together with a privy garden. To the west were a small orchard and a kitchen garden. It was difficult to believe we were in the center of an area as populous as any in London proper. Sounds from beyond the wall that surrounded the entire property were so muffled they were almost nonexistent.
“I am of a mind to add a gallery,” Will said, “and we could put a tennis court there.” He gestured toward an open space on the eastern side of the property. “And perhaps a bowling green. We can begin renovations at once.”
“What of the furnishings?” I felt a strong aversion to sleeping in the bishop of Winchester’s bed. “And I would like new wainscoting in the great hall.”
Will agreed to everything I suggested and I looked forward to weeks of absorption in the project, but I was soon distracted from such domestic pursuits by the news that Edward Seymour, Duke of Somerset, so recently freed from the Tower and restored to most of his former status—although not to the post of lord protector—had been caught plotting to the kill both John Dudley, Duke of Northumberland, and my own dear Will. It did not seem to matter to Somerset, or his wife, that their daughter was now married to Northumberland’s son Jack. They gambled on the chance of regaining control of King Edward’s government . . . and lost. The Duke of Somerset was arrested again, along with his duchess. So was his distant kinsman, Davy Seymour. I appealed to Northumberland on behalf of Davy’s wife, my old friend Mary Woodhull, and secured Davy’s release, but I had no sympathy for Somerset himself. He deserved a traitor’s death.