'It's nice to get back to the country again after those two hectic days in London. What are you going to do this morning?'
It was incomprehensible.
Three days later he went to see his solicitor. Henry Blane was an old friend of George's as well as his lawyer. He had a place not far from Peregrine's and for years they had shot over one another's preserves. For two days a week he was a country gentleman and for the other five a busy lawyer in Sheffield. He was a tall, robust fellow, with a boisterous manner and a jovial laugh, which suggested that he liked to be looked upon essentially as a sportsman and a good fellow and only incidentally as a lawyer. But he was shrewd and wordly-wise.
'Well, George, what's brought you here today?' he boomed as the colonel was shown into his office. 'Have a good time in London? I'm taking my missus up for a few days next week. How's Evie?'
'It's about Evie I've come to see you,' said Peregrine, giving him a suspicious look. 'Have you read her book?'
His sensitivity had been sharpened during those last days of troubled thought and he was conscious of a faint change in the lawyer's expression. It was as though he were suddenly on his guard.
'Yes, I've read it. Great success, isn't it? Fancy Evie breaking out into poetry. Wonders will never cease.'
George Peregrine was inclined to lose his temper.
'It's made me look a perfect damned fool'
'Oh, what nonsense, George! There's no harm in Evie's writing a book. You ought to be jolly proud of her.'
'Don't talk such rot. It's her own story. You know it and everyone else knows it. I suppose I'm the only one who doesn't know who her lover was.'
'There is such a thing as imagination, old boy. There's no reason to suppose the whole thing isn't made up.'
'Look here, Henry, we've know one another all our lives. We've had all sorts of good times together. Be honest with me. Can you look me in the face and tell me you believe it's a made-up story?'
Harry Blane moved uneasily in his chair. He was disturbed by the distress in old George's voice.
'You've got no right to ask me a question like that. Ask Evie.'
'I daren't,' George answered after an anguished pause. 'I'm afraid she'd tell me the truth.'
There was an uncomfortable silence.
'Who was the chap?'
Harry Blane looked at him straight in the eye.
'I don't know, and if I did I wouldn't tell you.'
'You swine. Don't you see what a position I'm in? Do you think it's very pleasant to be made absolutely ridiculous?'
The lawyer lit a cigarette and for some moments silently puffed it.
'I don't see what I can do for you,' he said at last.
'You've got private detectives you employ, I suppose. I want you to put them on the job and let them find everything out'
'It's not very pretty to put detectives on one's wife, old boy; and besides, taking for granted for a moment that Evie had an affair, it was a good many years ago and I don't suppose it would be possible to find out a thing. They seem to have covered their tracks pretty carefully.'
'I don't care. You put the detectives on. I want to know the truth.'
'I won't, George. If you're determined to do that you'd better consult someone else. And look here, even if you got evidence that Evie had been unfaithful to you what would you do with it? You'd look rather silly divorcing your wife because she'd committed adultery ten years ago.'
'At all events I could have it out with her.'
'You can do that now, but you know just as well as I do that if you do she'll leave you. D'you want her to do that?'
George gave him an unhappy look.
'I don't know. I always thought she'd been a damned good wife to me. She runs the house perfectly, we never have any servant trouble; she's done wonders with the garden and she's splendid with all the village people. But damn it, I have my self-respect to think of. How can I go on living with her when I know that she was grossly unfaithful to me?'
'Have you always been faithful to her?'
'More or less, you know. After all, we've been married for nearly twenty-four years and Evie was never much for bed.'
The solicitor slightly raised his eyebrows, but George was too intent on what he was saying to notice.
'I don't deny that I've had a bit of fun now and then. A man wants it. Women are different.'
'We only have men's word for that,' said Harry Blane, with a faint smile.
'Evie's absolutely the last woman I'd have suspected of kicking over the traces. I mean, she's a very fastidious, reticent woman. What on earth made her write the damned book?'
'I suppose it was a very poignant experience and perhaps it was a relief to her to get it off her chest like that.'
'Well, if she had to write it why the devil didn't she write it under an assumed name?'
'She used her maiden name. I suppose she thought that was enough, and it would have been if the book hadn't had this amazing boom.'
George Peregrine and the lawyer were sitting opposite one another with a desk between them. George, his elbow on the desk, his cheek on his hand, frowned at his thought.
'It's rotten not to know what sort of a chap he was. One can't even tell if he was by way of being a gentleman. I mean, for all I know he may have been a farm-hand or a clerk in a lawyer's office.'
Harry Blane did not permit himself to smile and when he answered there was in his eyes a kindly, tolerant look.
'Knowing Evie so well I think the probabilities are that he was all right. Anyhow I'm sure he wasn't a clerk in my office.'
'It's been a shock to me,' the colonel sighed. 'I thought she was fond of me. She couldn't have written that book unless she hated me.'
'Oh, I don't believe that. I don't think she's capable of hatred.'
'You're not going to pretend that she loves me.'
'No.'
'Well, what does she feel for me?'
Harry Blane leaned back in his swivel chair and looked at George reflectively.
'Indifference, I should say.'
The colonel gave a little shudder and reddened.
'After all, you're not in love with her, are you?'
George Peregrine did not answer directly.
'It's been a great blow to me not to have any children, but I've never let her see that I think she's let me down. I've always been kind to her. Within reasonable limits I've tried to do my duty by her.'
The lawyer passed a large hand over his mouth to conceal the smile that trembled on his lips.
'It's been such an awful shock to me,' Peregrine went on. 'Damn it all, even ten years ago Evie was no chicken and God knows, she wasn't much to look at. It's so ugly.' He sighed deeply. 'What would you do in my place?'
'Nothing.'
George Peregrine drew himself bolt upright in his chair and he looked at Harry with the stern set face that he must have worn when he inspected his regiment.
'I can't overlook a thing like this. I've been made a laughing-stock. I can never hold up my head again'
'Nonsense,' said the lawyer sharply, and then in a pleasant, kindly manner. 'Listen, old boy: the man's dead; it all happened a long while back. Forget it. Talk to people about Evie's book, rave about it, tell'em how proud you are of her. Behave as though you had so much confidence in her, you knew she could never have been unfaithful to you. The world moves so quickly and people's memories are so short. They'll forget'
'I shan't forget'
'You're both middle-aged people. She probably does a great deal more for you than you think and you'd be awfully lonely without her. I don't think it matters if you don't forget. It'll be all to the good if you can get it into that thick head of yours that there's a lot more in Evie than you ever had the gumption to see.'
'Damn it all, you talk as if I was to blame.'
'No, I don't think you were to blame, but I'm not so sure that Evie was either. I don't suppose she wanted to fall in love with this boy. D'you remember those verses right at the end? The impression they gave me was that though she was shattered by his death, in a strange sort of way she welcomed it. All through she'd been aware of the fragility of the tie that bound them. He died in the full flush of his first love and had never known that love so seldom endures; he'd only known its bliss and beauty. In her own bitter grief she found solace in the thought that he'd been spared all sorrow.'