"Lieutenant Daniels!"
– fat guy from the diner, who approached me at a quick pace, coming out from behind one of the rigs. I stopped, my hand slipping inside my purse and seeking my revolver. Something about this man rubbed me the wrong way, and at over two hundred and fifty pounds he was too big to play around with.
He slowed down when I reached into my handbag-a bad sign. People with good intentions don't expect you to have a gun. I felt my heart rate kick up and my legs tense.
"Don't come any closer," I commanded, using my cop voice.
He stopped about ten feet in front of me. His hands were empty. "I wanted to ask you for your autograph."
My fingers wrapped around the butt of my.38. Confrontation, even with over twenty years of experience, was always a scary thing. Ninety-nine percent of the time, de-escalation was the key to avoiding violence. Take control of the situation, be polite but firm, apologize if needed. It wouldn't have worked on the pimp, who was showing off for the crowd, but it might work here.
"I'm sorry, I don't give autographs. I'm not a celebrity."
"It would mean a lot to me." He held up his palms and took another step forward.
I was taught that you never pull out your weapon unless you intend to use it.
I pulled out my weapon.
"I told you not to come any closer."
"You're kidding, right?" Another step. He was six feet away from me.
I pointed my gun at his chest. "Does it look like I'm kidding?"
He put on a crooked grin. "Is this how you treat your fans, Lieutenant? I don't mean any harm. You want to shoot an innocent civilian?"
"I don't want to. But I will, if I feel threatened. And right now I feel threatened. Where's your buddy?"
"My buddy?"
He was lying, I could see it on his face, and I swirled around, sensing something behind me. I caught a flash of movement, someone ducking between two parked cars. I spun again, storming up to the fat guy, grabbing two of his outstretched fingers and twisting. My action was fast, forceful, and I gained enough leverage to bend his arm to the side and drive him onto his knees, my gun trained on his head.
"Get on the pavement, face down!"
He pitched forward, and I had to let him go or fall with him. Rather than face-first, he dropped onto his side and swung his leg at me.
I should have fired, but a small part of me knew I could be killing a guy whose only crime was wanting my autograph, and I had enough of an ego to think I could still handle the situation. I side-stepped his leg and rammed my heel into his kidney, hard enough to show him this wasn't a joke.
That's when his partner dove at me.
He hit me sideways, knocking me off my feet in a flying tackle that drove me to the asphalt, shoulder-first. His weight squeezed the air out of me, his hand pawing at my face, a cold, wet hand covering my mouth and nose, flooding my airway with harsh chemicals. I held my breath, bringing my weapon up, squeezing the trigger-
The trigger wouldn't squeeze. The gun didn't fire.
Now the paper towels were in my eyes, the sting a hundred times worse than chlorine, making me squeeze my eyelids shut in pain. I felt my gun being wrestled away, and the small part of my brain that wasn't panicking knew the perp had grabbed my.38 by the hammer, his grip preventing me from shooting.
I still refused to breathe, knowing that whatever was on my face would knock me out, knowing when that happened I was dead. That made me panic even more, thrashing and pushing against my unseen assailant. I tried to kick my feet, get them under me to gain some leverage, but then they were weighed down the same as my upper body-the fat guy had joined the party.
So I went for the fake-out, letting my body go limp.
The seconds ticked by, each one a slice of eternity since I was oxygen-deprived. I could hold my breath for over a minute under ideal conditions. But terrified and with two psychos on top of me, I wouldn't be able to last a fraction of that…
One second at a time, Jack. Just don't breathe.
I felt that vertigo sensation in my head, my mind seeming to stretch out and twist around.
"Is anyone coming?"
"It's clear."
Stay still. Don't breathe.
My eyes were stinging like crazy, and I wanted to put my hands to my face, rub the pain away.
Don't. Move. Don't. Breathe.
My chest began to spasm, my diaphragm convulsing and begging for air. In moments it wouldn't be under my control anymore. I would breathe in those toxic fumes whether I wanted to or not.
Hold it in don't breathe don't breathe DON'T BREATHE-
"Too much and you'll kill her." The fat guy talking.
The hand over my face eased up, the noxious rag being pulled away. I wanted to gasp, to suck in air like a marathon runner, but I managed to take a slow, silent breath through my nose.
The fumes still clinging to my face smelled like gasoline, and by sheer will I didn't sneeze or cough. I kept my breathing slow, like I was sleeping, even though my heart pounded so loud and fast I could hear it.
"She's out. Grab an arm."
I felt myself lifted into an upright position, my arms over their shoulders. Then I was dragged, my feet scraping against the asphalt, which tore at my bare toes like sandpaper. I bit my inner cheek. If I made a peep, they'd use the rag again.
"Her feet! Watch her feet! I don't want them messed up!"
"Shh! Lift higher."
Then I was completely off the ground. I tried to peek, to see where we were, but everything was blurry and opening my eyes made the pain worse. I could feel the weight of my purse still hanging at my side, and I had a dull throb in my shoulder where I'd hit the pavement, but it didn't seem dislocated or broken.
"It's this one."
My body was shifted, and I heard the jingle of keys and a vehicle door opening.
"I'll get in first, pull her up."
"Check around for witnesses."
"We're alone out here, brother."
Another shift, and then strong hands under my armpits, pulling me up, hands on my ankle, my right shoe coming off, and then…
Something warm and wet on my big toe.
Jesus… he's got my toe in his mouth.
His tongue circled it, once, twice, and then I felt the suction. Heard the slurping. Heard him moan.
This freak is sucking my toe.
Wet and sloppy, like a popsicle. I wanted to flinch. I wanted to scream.
Stay still, Jack. Don't kick him. Don't move.
His teeth locked on, scraping along the top and bottom, not enough to break the skin but enough to hurt, the pressure increasing…
I felt a surge of revulsion unlike any I've ever experienced, and my muscles involuntarily locked and my stomach churned, threatening to upload the burger and curds. I was half-hanging out of a truck, and I couldn't see, but I was going to take my chances and kick this bastard in the face, hopefully burying my shoe heel into his eye socket. It was two on one, and they had my gun, but I wasn't going to let him chew my toe off without a fight.
" Taylor, let's hold off until we get her inside."
My toe was abruptly released, and then I was violently shoved upward onto the fat guy's lap. I assumed he was sitting in the driver's seat of a semi. I felt his hot breath on my ear, and then the clammy touch of his lips. One hand pawed at my chest, tugging at my bra through my shirt. The other slid up my leg.
"Such a pretty lady," he said, nuzzling my neck. "I'm going to love feeding you your face."
Breathe slowly, Jack. Don't tense up and let him know you're awake.
When his lips touched my cheek it was like a taser shock, and my bile began to rise again.
"Take her in the back," Taylor said. "We'll bring her up to the sleeper."
The fat man gave my knee a final squeeze, then grunted as he hefted me up in his arms and shifted his bulk. Once again I was lifted, tugged, and pushed. I chanced a peek, everything dark and blurry, wanting so badly to rub my eyes, and all I could make out was a ladder of some sort.