This was our image of the beings who built the Mutan cities, though we did not know how accurately the statues depicted them. Perhaps Mutan art was not representational—perhaps we were seeing some abstract style that only marginally resembled the true Mutans, or it could be that all these statues were idols of some deity whose appearance was utterly unlike the people’s. Perhaps they weren’t statues at all; they might be signposts, or notice boards, or equipment for a game.
The Mutans had vanished centuries before the Unity discovered the planet. It had happened abruptly, without property damage—a plague perhaps, a radiation disaster, or maybe mass suicide. The archeologists had many theories, but no evidence…only ruins, and a fog bank like a cloud of smoke after a great burning.
In the picture, Chiala holds a measuring tape to the pedestal that supports the statue. She has rolled up her sleeves. Some of the mist has condensed on her forearms, giving them a dark sheen, highlighting a line of sleek muscle from elbow to wrist. If I look at this picture too long, I find myself leaning forward to touch the viewer screen, to trace that line of muscle with my finger.
Chiala’s eyes are on the work, not the camera. I approached her quietly through the fog; she didn’t see me watching.
Picture 3—MolanDif’s testing station on the Chastened River:
The picture is taken from the top of the bank looking down toward the water. Eight team members are in sight. Most are on shore, fussing with electronic instruments I cannot name. DiDeel wears hip-waders and stands in the water up to his thighs; he is far enough away to be nearly lost in the fog. He holds a metal pole that stretches out into the mist and disappears. My guess would be that he is scooping a water sample from the middle of the river, but for all I know, he could be fishing.
The group is attempting to locate evidence of volcanic hot springs in the riverbed. The senior planetologists, up in orbit with the colonists, hypothesized the fog bank was created by near-boiling water from springs mixing with near-freezing water running down from the Upward Potential mountains. No one found the hypothesis persuasive, but it offered a foundation for conducting tests until new data suggested something better.
MolanDif is on the far right of the picture, paddling an inflatable dinghy out of the upstream mists. The dinghy is filled with testing equipment. He holds the paddle awkwardly.
When he caught sight of me watching, he hailed me and pulled into shore. As I helped him out of the dinghy, he said, “Officer BarlDan, I’d like to consult with you.”
“In my official capacity?” I asked.
“Of course,” he said—seemingly surprised I might have an unofficial one. “When would be suitable?”
“I’m free now.”
“Oh,” he said. “Oh.” He looked at the ground as if there might be something there needing his attention. “All right, then.” He paused again. “This is a private matter.”
“We’ll walk along the river,” I said.
The Mutans had paved a wide promenade along the top of the bank, running completely across the city. Potholes had developed in the asphalt here and there, and tough fungal growth was working up from below, cracking the surface into patterns like the glass in a smashed mirror; but walking was easy if you watched your step, and it provided a route away from the others without getting lost in the fog. We walked for some time in a silence overlaid with the background mutter of the river. I waited for MolanDif to begin.
“I have reached the age of twenty-five,” he said at last.
I knew that; his birthday had passed while we were in stasis on the way to Muta, but Harmony Team had danced in his honor shortly after we woke up. MolanDif continued, “The social adjustment manual says twenty-five is the optimal age for marriage.”
“To be precise,” I said, “the manual says twenty-five is the median age at which a human being has reached a level of maturity consistent with the obligations of intimate social partnership. Not the same thing.”
“Still,” he said, “I believe I am ready for marriage. I…I’m not fulfilled being alone. I think it would be better to be married.”
“Are you unhappy?” I asked.
“Oh no,” he said quickly. “I’m quite well adjusted. To the situation. But I think…life could be fuller, you know? There’s something…” He reached out with his hand and clutched an empty fist. “Life could be fuller,” he repeated.
“Have you chosen a partner?”
“Chiala, of course,” he answered, in a tone of surprise that I could consider any other alternative. “She’s of equal rank. She’s twenty-five.”
“And she’s beautiful,” I said.
“Well, yes. But beauty…the manual says it’s too shallow a reason for seeking marriage. Isn’t it?”
“Yes,” I said. “Yes, it is.”
“Sexual attraction is an inadequate basis for dedicated partnership actualization. That’s right in the manual. The manual stresses that feelings—you know, love…” His voice fell to near inaudibility on the word and he went on quickly. “Whatever you think you feel, it’s only infatuation if you don’t have a deeper basis for…for what you want. I’m not just infatuated with her, BarlDan. I have good deep reasons.”
“She’s of equal rank and she’s twenty-five.”
“Yes. You see how it makes sense?”
“Does it make sense to Chiala?” I asked.
“I couldn’t possibly discuss it with her until you’ve cross-matched our personality profiles,” he said. “If we aren’t compatible in the eyes of the Unity…well, I couldn’t pursue it, could I? I’d just…I couldn’t pursue it. And if we are compatible, I’d have something to talk about with her. I could say the Unity officially thought we had a marriageability coefficient of ninety percent. Or whatever it turns out to be. You understand?”
“Yes,” I said. “I understand. I’ll do the calculations for you.”
He thanked me hastily and headed back to the investigation site almost at a run.
I should have told him I wanted her for myself, that she was a dancing flame which could never burn bright enough fueled by his soggy wood. But how was I any different?
Picture 4—The interior of my hut, evening, first day within the fog:
The picture is taken from the doorway. All the usual amenities are present: cot, sink, desk, two chairs, chemical toilet, mask shrine. On the desk, a lamp glows at minimum brightness; there are plenty of shadows here. The only other light comes from the candles on the shrine and their reflections in the shrine’s mirror.
The juniors who put up the hut for me have placed my shrine so the mask points toward the door. The face that was my second self looks almost directly into the camera. The eyes are not empty in this picture; they’re filled with shadow. It’s dusk and the mask is once again inhabited.
The mask belongs to the Hanged Prophet house. It is an adult male who calls himself ToPu. ToPu the Seer. ToPu the Abiding Observer. His umber papier-mâché face is runneled with crags that have been deepened using paint of blue and green. This shows age and therefore (so the theory goes) wisdom. But when the spirit of ToPu guided me to fashion his mask-home during my time of initiation, his hands were clumsy in affixing the garnet. The gem is centered properly on the forehead, but its setting is tipped to the left. Instead of facing outward, the capital facet looks ashamedly to one side.
For thirty-five years, this was what ToPu saw when he looked at himself in the mirror of my shrine: he saw he was flawed. His little gem, his humble soul, was forever set akilter. He felt this was the kind of seer he was—one who never looked in quite the right direction.