We lit the candles in the dance wheel and set up the mirror-ball at the hub. The drummer drummed, the harpist played, the masks inhabited us (except for MolanDif). ToPu took his pictures, earnestly trying to keep the others safe…I have his memory of that. I do not have his memories of Lilijel if he saw her that night. Sometimes I wonder if she pranced the same as ever, or if Chiala’s feelings about my rejection infected her. Was she struck quiet, or moved to fiercer abandonment? The only picture recording that dance is this picture of fog.
I woke but did not waken; and the fog was inside me. I was BarlDan and ToPu, both—brothers who shared the same eyes. The eyes looked out on fog, bright fog lying before me like the softest of beds, glowing golden. It beckoned with a force stronger than any I had felt in the most sacred rites. “Dance,” a voice said, and the voice was a billion voices. “Join. Dance.”
The fog swirled in serene billows before my eyes. In the distance I heard drums and harps. The voices sang softly, their song achingly sweet. “Dance. Join. Sing together.” I felt tranquillity in the fog, and peace. Love, uncomplicated love, never fading. “Dance. Now. You can see us. Now. Join. Sing.” It would be so easy to surrender. Simply falling into bliss.
ToPu shook his head. I could feel his sad, lonely longing, but he knew his duty didn’t let him join the dance, ever. I felt the same wild yearning to accept, but I too drew back from the fog. I’d resisted my love for Chiala—by comparison, this resistance was nothing.
I took a step away from the fog, from the choir that sang within it. Screeching with sudden outrage, the placid wisps of fog twisted in anger and locked into a hard churning wall the color and height of a thunderhead. Tentacles erupted from that wall, meaty pseudopods caged within quill-like bones, glistening wet and yellow, smelling of rotten fruit. They grabbed at me, trying to wrap around my arms and legs, and I pulled away with all my strength, feeling them slide suckingly off my flesh, slimy as eels.
I had almost dragged myself clear when a human hand burst out of the blackening fog-wall and clamped around my wrist. The fingers were long and muscular, clenched like claws. It did not try to pull me into the cloud, but its grip was iron; I couldn’t wrench it loose. Desperately, I grabbed my trapped wrist with my free hand, and using the strength of both arms heaved backwards. My captor held on; and as I tugged, the rest of my captor’s arm emerged from black fog, then his head—a head with DiDeel’s face but blanched of color, the eyes sewn shut like a corpse’s, the mouth screaming wide. Sweat-slick hair plastered the sides of his face, hair of all shades, the hair of the Priestess. Mask-spirit and man had been crushed into one, like two colors of putty squeezed into a formless lump by a clenching fist. For a moment I stared at the ghastly face; then pseudopods wrapped around the head and smothered it back into the fog. The hand around my wrist went limp, fell away…and I found myself lying on damp earth, night fog clotting powerlessly around me. My mask lay faceup by my side.
In all directions, I heard the same choking crooning DiDeel made before he died. I recognized the tune—the song the fog had sung in my brain. Harmony Team was being absorbed, just as DiDeel had been…just as the Mutans must have been, all those quilled pseudopods in the cloud. Some horror was unleashed here long ago, perhaps a grand experiment to unify the spirits of the people; and soul by soul, the horror had devoured the planet. The entire fog bank was a single ghost…or rather a billion ghosts trapped in a hellish union that had consumed them all.
Out in the fog, one voice lifted above the rest: tone-deaf Chiala, not yet in tune with the crooning mass. I staggered to my feet and followed the sound, hearing her voice twist angrily as it tried to find the right notes to join the song. She was still off-key, but as I searched I heard her growing closer and closer to the tune the others sang.
When I reached her, MolanDif was already there, cradling her body in his arms. “What’s wrong with her?” he cried when he saw me. Without answering, I pulled off her mask and threw it aside. Her face was slack, still deep in trance. I shook her shoulders and slapped her cheek, rousing her enough that she opened her eyes…but the eyes were still vacant and the humming in her throat went on.
“Get her to the mirror,” I ordered MolanDif, and he was so grateful to be told what to do, he asked no questions. Together we dragged her body to the ball at the hub of the dance wheel and propped her up so she could see her face. “Your name is Chiala,” I shouted in her ear. “Chiala. Chiala. Chiala.”
Her eyes focused and saw. She gasped and threw her arms outward to steady herself against the sphere. The fog condensed where her hands touched the mirror, making misty silhouettes like ghosts. She blinked and looked wonderingly at her beautiful face.
Her humming stopped. “Chiala,” she said.
Picture 10—A bend in the Chastened River:
It’s the afternoon of the next day. There is no fog here. The land is a sunny meadow, buttery with summer wildflowers. The river’s edge is stockaded by rushes. Chiala, MolanDif, and I have paddled the dinghy many hours downstream. We emerged from the fog bank around midday, but kept going until we were well clear.
The rest of Harmony Team is dead. I tried to save them, but failed. Before they died, a few possessed team members smashed our communication equipment. We are now truly on our own.
We carry maps and aerial photographs that indicate it’s a four-day trip to the sea. A few rapids might force portages along the way, but the journey doesn’t look difficult. From the mouth of the river, another two days up the coast leads to one of the planned sites of colonization, and there we should find a cache that contains working communicators.
In the picture, MolanDif and Chiala cook supper over a campfire. They believe I’m still gathering firewood, but I’ve already collected what we’ll need for the night. I have concealed myself in a thicket to take this picture and watch the two of them hover over the pots.
In this shot, their knees are definitely touching.
Picture 11—Chiala by the fire:
She holds her mask in both hands, frozen in the moment of raising it to her face. Her head is twisted slightly toward the camera; she must have heard something as I focused the lens, and turned to look at me. Behind her, the sky is a sheet of deepening indigo spreading over the dark meadows. A clump of trees stands silhouetted on the horizon.
I took this picture to distract Chiala, to interrupt that motion of donning the mask. The click, the flash.
“Why did you do that?” she asked.
“You shouldn’t tonight,” I told her. “The trance opens us too wide. To the fog. Opening yourself to the mask—it’s too risky. The fog wasn’t strong enough to take us when we were ourselves, not even when we were asleep. Only in trance. Please, Chiala, leave the mask.”
She looked at me steadily for several seconds. Half her face was lit with the sun-yellow blaze of the fire, the other half cloaked with shadow. “You have nothing to say to me about taking risks,” she said. Very deliberately, she pulled the mask over her face.
“It should be safe,” MolanDif said from across the fire. “The fog is a long way behind us.” Self-consciously, glancing sideways at Chiala for her approval, he put on his own mask.
Chiala began drumming on her knees. I watched her strong hands rise and fall.
Picture 12—A night view looking upstream over the Chastened River:
Track the image from foreground to background: the dark water flowing over outjuts of black rock; reflections of two of Muta’s moons farther upriver, rippled smears of red and silver; the dark fields rising to rolling hills; the night sky gaudy with stars.