Her face fell, and then she perked back up a few seconds later. "Hey, can you teach me to punch someone?"
"Wai— What? Why would you want to know that?"
"Well, I figure if I'm going to fight with magic someday, I should learn to fight the regular way too."
"I'm probably not the right person to ask," I told her. "Maybe you should, um, ask your P.E. teacher."
"I did!" Her face looked distraught. "And he said no."
I couldn't help but laugh. "I was joking about asking him."
"Come on, it could help me fight a Strigoi someday."
My laughter dried up. "No, it really wouldn't."
She bit her lip, still desperate to convince me. "Well, it would at least help against that psycho."
"What? What psycho?"
"People keep getting beat up around here. Last week it was Dane Zeklos, and just the other day it was Brett."
"Dane …" I ran through my knowledge of Moroi genealogy. There were a gazillion Zeklos students around. "That's Jesse's younger brother, yeah?"
Jill nodded. "Yup. One of our teachers was so mad, too, but Dane wouldn't say a word. Neither would Brett."
"Brett who?"
"Ozera."
I did a double take. "Ozera?"
I had the impression she was really excited to tell me things I didn't know. "He's my friend Aimee's boyfriend. He was all bruised up yesterday—had some weird things that looked like welts, too. Maybe burns? But he wasn't as bad as Dane. And when Mrs. Callahan asked him about it, Brett convinced her it was nothing, and she let it go, which was weird. He was also in a really good mood—which was also weird, since you'd kind of think getting beat up would bring you down."
Somewhere in the back of my mind, her words tickled a memory. There was some connection I should be making, but I couldn't quite grasp it. Between Victor, ghosts, and the field experiences, it was honestly a wonder I could string words together anymore.
"So can you teach me so that I won't get beat up?" Jill asked, clearly hoping she'd convinced me. She balled her fist up. "I just do this, right? Thumb across the fingers and swing?"
"Uh, well, it's a little more complicated than that. You need to stand a certain way, or you'll hurt yourself more than the other person. There are a lot of things you need to do with your elbows and hips."
"Show me, please?" she begged. "I bet you're really good."
I was really good, but corrupting minors was one offense I didn't yet have on my record, and I preferred to keep it that way. Fortunately, Dimitri came back just then with Ms. Davis.
"Hey," I told him. "I have someone who wants to meet you. Dimitri, this is Jill. Jill, Dimitri."
He looked surprised, but he smiled and shook her hand. She turned bright red and became speechless for a change. As soon as he released her hand, she stammered out a goodbye and ran off. We finished up with Ms. Davis and headed back toward the chapel for our second load.
"Jill knew who I was," I told Dimitri as we walked. "She had kind of a hero-worship thing going on."
"Does that surprise you?" he asked. "That younger students would look up to you?"
"I don't know. I just never thought about it. I don't think I'm that good of a role model."
"I disagree. You're outgoing, dedicated, and excel at everything you do. You've earned more respect than you think."
I gave him a sidelong glance. "And yet not enough to go to Victor's trial, apparently."
"Not this again."
"Yes, this again! Why don't you get how major this is? Victor's a huge threat."
"I know he is."
"And if he gets loose, he'll just start in on his crazy plans again."
"It's really unlikely he will get loose, you know. Most of those rumors about the queen letting him off are just that— rumors. You of all people should know not to believe everything you hear."
I stared stonily ahead, refusing to acknowledge his point. "You should still let us go. Or" — I took a deep breath—"you should at least let Lissa go."
It was harder for me to say those words than it should have been, but it was something I'd been thinking about. I didn't think I was a glory seeker like Stan had said, but there was a part of me that always wanted to be the one in the middle of a fight. I wanted to rush forward, doing what was right and helping others. Likewise, I wanted to be there at Victor's trial. I wanted to look him in the eye and make sure he was punished.
But as time went on, it seemed less likely that that would happen. They really weren't going to let us go. Maybe, though, maybe they'd let one of us go, and if it should be anyone, it should be Lissa. She'd been the target of Victor's plan, and though her going alone stirred up that nervous idea about how maybe she didn't need me to guard her, I'd still rather take the chance and see him put away.
Dimitri, understanding my need to rush in and take action, seemed surprised by my unusual behavior. "You're right— she should be there, but again, it's nothing I can do anything about. You keep thinking I can control this, but I can't."
"But did you do everything you could?" I thought back to Adrian's words in the dream, about how Dimitri could have done more. "You have a lot of influence. There must be something. Anything."
"Not as much influence as you think. I've got a high position here at the Academy, but in the rest of the guardian world, I'm still pretty young. And yes, I did actually speak up for you."
"Maybe you should have spoken up louder."
I could sense him shutting down. He'd discuss most things reasonably but wouldn't encourage me when I was just being a bitch. So, I tried to be more reasonable.
"Victor knows about us," I said. "He could say something."
"Victor has bigger things to worry about with this trial than us."
"Yeah, but you know him. He doesn't exactly act like a normal person would. If he feels like he's lost all hope of getting off, he might decide to bust us just for the sake of revenge."
I'd never been able to confess my relationship with Dimitri to Lissa, yet our worst enemy knew about it. It was weirder even than Adrian knowing. Victor had figured it out by watching us and gathering data. I guess when you're a scheming villain, you get good at that stuff. He'd never made the knowledge public, though. Instead, he'd used it against us with the lust charm he'd made from earth magic. A charm like that wouldn't work if there wasn't already attraction in place. The charm just cranked things up. Dimitri and I had been all over each other and had been only a heartbeat away from having sex. It had been a pretty smart way for Victor to distract us without using violence. If anyone had tried to attack us, we could have put up a good fight. But turn us loose on each other? We had trouble fighting that.
Dimitri was silent for several moments. I knew he knew I had a point. "Then we'll have to deal with that as best we can," he said at last. "But if Victor's going to tell, he's going to do it whether or not you testify."
I refused to say anything else until we got to the church. When we did, Father Andrew told us that after going over some more things, he'd decided he really only needed one more box brought over to Ms. Davis.
"I'll do it," I told Dimitri crisply, once the priest was out of earshot. "You don't have to come."
"Rose, please don't make a big deal about this."
"It is a big deal!" I hissed. "And you don't seem to get it."
"I do get it. Do you really think I want to see Victor loose? Do you think I want us all at risk again?" It was the first time in a long time I'd seen his control on the verge of snapping. "But I told you, I've done all I can do. I'm not like you—I can't keep making a scene when things don't go my way."