He raised the book to his face and inhaled the odour. It stank of cigarette smoke and old dust. His mother had been loved. It was some consolation to know that. Sometimes the words indicated that he had been too, but it was harder to believe, since he had already lived through the end of the story. The reality did not mesh well with what Torgny had imagined.
The injustice he had been subjected to could not be forgiven. Her illness was not sufficient excuse. Someone must have seen how things were, someone who could have chosen to intervene and prevented thirty-five wasted years of uncertainty. Four months had passed between the day they had left Torgny and the day she abandoned him. Many people must have encountered them during that time and realised how ill she was.
No one had come to their rescue.
He heard the letter-box rattle and the post dropping onto the hall floor, but he didn’t have the energy to get up. The sound of the postman’s footsteps faded away. He turned his head and looked at his computer. Not even his play seemed important any more. The people he most wanted to impress would never be sitting in the audience.
His eyes went to the cognac bottle.
With a heavy sigh he got up and tightened his dressing gown around him. He saw the post lying on the doormat but let it be. Instead he sat down at his desk. For a long moment he sat there with his hands in his lap, then he opened his laptop.
He heard the sound of an incoming e-mail.
Finally a sign of life from Jesper.
He opened it but found only a web link. He clicked on it and the page started to download. It took an unusually long time, and he drummed his fingers impatiently as he waited, then dialled Jesper’s number. This time the voicemail didn’t even pick up. All he got was an odd flat tone as if he’d dialled incorrectly.
On the screen the page was finally loaded. He went out into the hall and poked his foot at the pile of mail. A flyer from a takeaway restaurant, a bank statement and a handwritten letter. He picked up the letter and went back to his desk. Kristoffer clicked on play and the video started. An image of Jesper sitting in his flat. Kristoffer recognised the wallpaper in the background.
‘My name is Jesper Falk. Thank you for watching this video and confirming my hypothesis that most people have forgotten what obligations are involved when one is born as a human being.’
Kristoffer put down the letter and leaned back. It was good to see him – something reliable amid all that had changed.
On the screen Jesper waved some hundred-kronor bills.
‘This is five hundred kronor. I’m going to give it to this guy. Here you are!’
Jesper gestured to someone who was off to the side behind the camera. The next moment a head appeared, face hidden by a black ski mask. A pair of blue eyes looked out from the holes, but Kristoffer didn’t recognise them.
‘Wave a little and show everyone you’re happy.’
The anonymous man waved.
‘I bought him for five hundred kronor so that he would put this video up on the Internet. Everybody can be bought. Some are a bit more expensive, others cheaper. Have you thought about your own price? All right, you can go and sit down again.’
The man vanished, and judging by the direction Kristoffer guessed he’d gone to sit on Jesper’s bed.
‘Now to the topic at hand. I’ve written a novel entitled Nostalgia – A Strange Feeling of Manageable Sorrow. Remember that title. It took me seven years to write, and now an excellent publishing company has decided to publish it. Naturally I’m overjoyed. Because there are some important things in my book. I wrote it because I want it to change the world. Because things can’t go on like this any longer. Don’t you agree?’
Jesper looked for approval towards the masked man.
‘Even he agrees.’
Kristoffer couldn’t help smiling. Jesper had finally worked out a way to promote his novel.
‘Like all authors I believe my book is particularly important, and like all authors I hope you’ll choose to read what I’ve written. But here, a major problem arises. How can I get you to choose my book over all the others? You can see for yourself, I’m pretty ugly. I’m not going to be livening up any glitzy magazine spreads or TV talk shows. I don’t know any celebrities. I’m a damn good writer but terrible at talking, so that’s why I have a cue card here that I’m reading from.’
He looked down at something below the frame of the video.
‘So, the book will be released on the fourth of March. Don’t forget that, the fourth of March. Nostalgia – A Strange Feeling of Manageable Sorrow. Write it down. Okay? Now, back to the major problem.’
The cue card was now visible at the bottom of the frame.
‘About 4,500 books are published in Sweden each year. So how am I going to get you to notice mine? There’s only one way. By getting the media to write about it as much as possible. And how will I manage to do that?’
Jesper paused, as if somebody might answer his question. Then he continued.
‘Some people think that newspapers write about what’s important, because they have a duty to keep you informed, but that’s not true. Most newspapers write about what they know you want to read. That’s the only sure way to get you to buy their paper. So you’re the one who decides what you want to hear about, what sort of news should take priority. You’re the one who has the power. Each time you open your wallet and buy something, you’re saying “hello” and “okay” to what you’re buying and to the person who will be getting rich from your purchase. So I checked a few tabloid headlines to see what you like to read about. That’s when the next problem came up.’
Once again he glanced at the cue card.
‘I’m not a hit man or a paedophile, I’ve never raped an old woman, never tortured any children, I’ve never fucked on TV or been on a reality show. I don’t have silicon breasts, have never participated in a gangbang, have never run through the streets naked. I don’t even take dope. I’m a completely normal guy. Well, okay, I know I’m pretty ugly, but still. How the hell could I manage to become interesting enough in your eyes for the media to want to write about my book? I thought about it for a while, and then I came up with this. I already know that this web site is going to break records for the number of hits, and my novel will be mentioned on every news-stand all over Sweden, because you love stuff like this. All of you watching this right now are the reason why this is the best way for me to get my book out there. All of you who heard the rumour and who know what’s going to happen, and still you choose to visit this site and look at this shit.’
His eyes narrowed and he pointed into the camera.
‘It’s precisely for people like you that I wrote my book. And if you don’t read it after you’ve seen this video, go fuck yourself!’
Jesper paused and leaned back.
‘Don’t forget I’m doing you a favour. I’m doing this to remind you of what it is you’ve forgotten.’
He raised his hands to his throat.
‘The only thing that could go wrong now is if Paris Hilton buys another Chihuahua and my book gets knocked off the front page, but I have to hope for the best.’
He fiddled with something inside his collar, and when he took his hands away he had a thin plastic band around his neck. One of those used to seal packages. One end went into a little opening at the other end, and little ratchets along the plastic prevented the band from being loosened once it was pulled tight.
‘Remember now, Nostalgia – A Strange Feeling of Manageable Sorrow. On sale fourth of March. My name is Jesper Falk and thanks for watching.’