This ocher gives life to the unloving, said the old, bearded man. And it pro¬tects the living from the dead in the place you go to now, who would otherwise cover you like flies on honey. Go.
What waits for us? Vansen called back to the ancient as he and his father walked forward.
What has always waited for you. What always will wait for you and for me, and for everything. The end of all.
And then the bearded man was gone, lost in the dust which had begun to swirl around them once more, billowing, choking. Vansen held in his breath, then a time came when he could not hold it any longer. He breathed and the river of dust entered him. He became the dust. He passed through.
And now they entered the true city, the metropolis beside which the City of Sleepers was no more than a village.
The oracles say that this greatest and most awful of habitations fills the
earth from pole to pole, so that everywhere living men walk, beneath then feet lie the streets of the City of the Red Sun. Nobody laughs in that city, the oracles also claim, and nobody cries except in thin, almost silent sobs, or sings above a whisper.
As Ferras Vansen and his father entered, a hush lay upon the place like dust lay in the streets. The sleepers all had open eyes, and every face stared hopelessly into eternity. Each step forward felt as though he lifted a hun¬dredweight of stone. Each street seemed as bleak and empty and comfort¬less as the one before.
Always, though, he and his father's shade moved toward the great, dark lodestone at the heart of the city, the palace of the Earthlord himself. Thou¬sands of other phantoms moved with them toward the mighty black gate, shadow-people of every kind and every shape. Few wore more than rags, and many were naked, but even in their nakedness some were clothed in feathers or dully gleaming scales, so that they did not look quite like peo¬ple. Vansen and his father were swept along in this silent crowd like bits of bark on a slow-moving river, the gate and the wall and the palace growing always larger before them.
Ferras Vansen looked at his father, who of all the dead throng still had closed eyes, and saw that although the old man's features were still indis¬tinct as smoke, his father had retained something of the glow of the ocher, a red gleam like fire reflected on silver. Then he saw that the other spirits had it too, and that the glow did not come from the dead themselves but from the great palace, whose every window spilled sunset-red light.
The House of the Ultimate West, his father whispered, but as though he re¬cited a prayer instead of explaining something. Raven's Nest. The Castle of Every thing-Falls-Apart. The Great Pine Tree…
But first, someone whispered, we must pass the Gate of the Pig. These words traveled through the crowd like a fire through dry grass, the whisper becoming a hissing murmur. The Gate. The Gate. They 'were groaning the words, some of them, although one laughed uproariously as he said it over and over, as though it were the first jest ever to be told in the grim, blood-colored city. After a while his laugh turned to a choked sob. The Pig's snout will sniff out every lie, every cheat, and then we will he swallowed down…
As the voices rose around him the darkness rose too, like a pall of smoke, until Ferras Vansen could see nothing. Even his father's shade was gone. He was lost in black emptiness, and the voices of the crowding dead had be¬come animal noises, braying, snorting, barking, as if the ghosts of men had
become the ghosts of beasts. It was a terrible din, harsh, desperate, and lull of terror. He could not help thinking of the farm creatures he had driven to the slaughterer. The darkness seemed infinite, empty but for himself and a choir of horrifying echoes.
But that is truly me, he thought suddenly. Herding the animals with a switch. Walking down the road to Little Stell. That is a memory of me, of my life.
I am Ferras Vansen, he told the void. I have a name. I am a living man.
Something came nearer to him then-he could feel its approach, slow and ominous as a thundercloud. It seemed bigger than the darkness itself, and it stank. It also seemed… amused?
Living man.
They were not words, not even thoughts, really, but something larger, like shifts in the weather, but somehow he could understand them. He was in the grip of something so much larger than himself that he could scarcely think. He was beyond fear-he was not significant enough to be fearful.
At last it spoke, or the weather changed, or the stars revolved in their black firmanent around Ferras Vansen.
Pass. I will speak for you and He will decide. You will die, or you will live… at least for a little longer.
And then he was in the midst of the strangest place yet-a festive hall that was also a monstrous pit, a solemnly beautiful throne room whose ceil¬ing was the vault of black and endless night. It was the crumbling root-raddled ground, a silver fantasy of towers, the slow-beating heart of all sad music, it was all those things and none of those things. He was alone, his fa¬ther's phantom gone, but a million shadows swirled around the great throne at the center, on which sat the greatest shadow of all.
The voice he had heard before spoke to him.
The master of this place says you do not belong in his dream.
I am Ferras Vansen, he said humbly. Of course he did not belong, here at the end of all things. I am a living man. I only wanted to help my father.
The voice of the Gatekeeper spoke again, slow as the slide of glaciers and just as deadeningly chill.
You cannot. It is impertinence to try. His fate is between him and the gods- which is to say, between him and his own heart. And that is why you must go. You are a hindrance, however small, to What Should Be.
Vansen quailed at the anger in that titan voice. I meant no harm! But he felt ashamed of himself for his fear. Even if it meant he must live here for¬ever, eating clay and drinking dust with these sad shadows, he still did not need to crawl. / tried to help. Surely even the gods themselves cannot condemn that?
There was a pause before the Gatekeeper spoke again. He did not seem to have heard what Vansen had said.
Be grateful you did not hear the Earthfather's voice. Even the murmur of his sleeping thought would send you mad. Instead, he permits you to leave- if you can cross the rivers and come safe out of this land once more. If not, then you will become one of his subjects earlier than you might have otherwise- but it is only a short time to lose, after all, the butterfly-life of your kind.
But why can you speak to me? Why aren't you asleep, like the Earthfa-ther?
Make no mistake. I also sleep, said the Gatekeeper. In fact, it could be that you and all these dead, and even the Earthfather himself, are part of my dream.
The voice laughed then, and the world shook.
Go now-return to the land of the living, if you can. You will not receive such a gift a second time.
And then the great hall of madness, of sleep and earth and the deep song of the globe itself, was gone. The Gatekeeper was gone. Nothing remained in all the cosmos but Ferras Vansen, it seemed, standing in sudden alarm on an achingly narrow arc that stretched above a massive nothingness, a white stripe over an abyss. He could not see an end to the slender bridge in ei¬ther direction, and the span was scarcely as wide as his own shoulders. There was nowhere to go but forward into the unknown or backward into quiet, undemanding death. His father's shade was gone, left behind in the
sunset city to lace its own late, and the living could mean nothing to Pedar Vansen anymore. His son had not been able either to save the old man or forgive him, but something had changed and his heart was lighter than it had been.
"I am Ferras Vansen," he called as loudly as he could. There was no reply,
not even an echo, but that did not matter: he was not speaking to anyone
except himself. "I am a soldier. I love Briony Eddon, although she can never
love me. I'm tired of being lost and I'm tired of dying, so I'm going to try
something different this time."
He began to walk.