On my way into town, I was thinking hard. Now more than ever, it seemed to me-and I thought that it seemed to Clifton Emanuel, too-there was something phony about the crime scene in the woods. Though Deputy Emanuel had run out of confidence in me before we’d run out of conversation, he too had seemed dubious about the scenario implied by the trappings left at the scene.
At my next job, Camille Emerson’s place, I was lucky enough to find the house empty. I was able to keep thinking while I worked.
That implied scenario: though I’d gone over it with Emanuel, I ran it again in my head. Deedra and a flame go out to the woods in Deedra’s car. The flame gets Deedra to strip, which she does with abandon, flinging her clothes and jewelry everywhere.
Then a quarrel occurs. Perhaps the man can’t perform sexually, and Deedra taunts him (though Emanuel had testimony and I agreed that such taunting was unlike Deedra). Maybe Deedra threatens to tell the flame’s wife, mother, or girlfriend that Deedra and the flame are having sex, period. Or possibly the flame is just into rough sex, killing Deedra in a fit of passion. But would that tie in with the catastrophic blow that stopped her heart?
I was so tired of thinking about Deedra by that time that the last explanation tempted me. I didn’t want to think Deedra’s death was anything more than passion of one kind or another, passion that had gotten fatally out of hand.
But as I finished dusting the “collectibles” on Camille Emerson’s living-room shelves. I caught sight of myself in the mantel mirror. I was shaking my head in a sober way, all to myself.
The only injury Deedra had sustained, according to every source, was the killing blow itself. I knew all too well what rough sex was like. It’s not one blow or act or bit of brutality, but a whole series of them. The object of this attention doesn’t emerge from the sex act with one injury, but a series of injuries. The bottle insertion had happened after Deedra was dead. Therefore, I realized, as I carried a load of dirty towels to the laundry area, that little nasty, contemptuous act was no more than window dressing. Maybe the equivalent of having the last word in a conversation.
That said something about the person who’d performed the insertion, didn’t it? I covered my hand with a paper towel and pulled a wad of bubble gum off the baseboard behind the trashcan in the younger Emerson boy’s room.
So, we had someone strong, strong enough to kill with one blow. The blow was probably purposeful. Evidently, the person had meant to kill Deedra.
We had someone who despised women. Maybe not all women, but women in some way like Deedra. Promiscuous? Attractive? Young? All of the above?
We had someone who had no regard for human life.
And we had someone clever. When I turned it over in my mind yet again, I could see that the staging was successful if you didn’t really know Deedra. Deedra wouldn’t throw things around like that, even if she were stripping for someone, which I could very well imagine her doing. Even then, she might sling a blouse, but it would land on something that wouldn’t tear or dirty it. She wouldn’t toss her pearls around. And the woods… no, she wouldn’t do that in the woods! Where was the lap robe or blanket for the lovers to lie on? Why ask Deedra to strip if the goal was a quick screw in the backseat of the car?
I concluded that whoever’d killed Deedra hadn’t thought anything at all about her character, had only known facts: that she was promiscuous and biddable. He hadn’t thought of her fastidiousness about her surroundings, hadn’t thought about her care for her possessions, the care that had never extended to cover her own body.
As I closed the Emersons’ door behind me, I realized that now I knew much more than I had this morning. What to do with it, how to make it work for me, was still mysterious. These pieces of knowledge were not evidence to which anyone else would give credence, but at least Clifton Emanuel had listened. I was relieved to know he had been wondering, as I had been, if the whole scene in the woods was a setup.
A setup to serve what purpose?
Okay, the purpose had to be, as the deputy and I had hinted to each other in our conversation, to misdirect. The scene had been staged to make it appear that Deedra had been killed for a sexual reason; therefore, if the scene was false, Deedra had not been killed because she was sexually active.
She had been killed because… she worked at the county clerk’s office? She was Lacey Dean Knopp’s daughter? She was the granddaughter of Joe C Prader? She was easily led and promiscuous, so she was an easy target? I’d hit a mental wall.
It was time to dismiss Deedra from my thoughts for a while. When I was sitting in my kitchen at noon, that was easy.
My house felt empty and bleak without Jack in it. I didn’t like that at all. I ate lunch as quickly as I could, imagining him riding back to Little Rock, arriving at his own apartment. He’d return his phone messages, make notes on the case he’d just finished, answer his E-mail.
I missed him. I seemed to need him more than I ought to. Maybe it was because for so long I had done without? Maybe I valued him more deeply because of what I’d gone through all those years ago? I saw Jack’s faults; I didn’t think he was perfect. And that didn’t make a bit of difference. What would I do if something happened to Jack?
This seemed to be a day for questions I couldn’t answer.
Chapter Twelve
At karate class that night, I wasn’t concentrating, which called down a scolding from Marshall. I was glad we didn’t spar, because I would’ve lost, and I don’t like to lose. Janet teased me as I tied my shoes, accusing me of being abstracted because I was pining for Jack. I managed to half-smile at her, though my impulse was to lash out. Allowing thoughts of a man to disrupt something so important to me was… I subsided suddenly.
It would be quite natural. It would be normal.
But picturing Jack in the shower wasn’t what had distracted me. I’d been thinking of Deedra-her face in death, her positioning at the wheel of her red car. I didn’t know what I could do to help her. I had done all I could. I finished tying my shoes and sat up, staring across the empty room at Becca, who was laughingly instructing her brother in the correct position of his hands for the sanchin dachi posture. She motioned me to come over and help, but I shook my head and gathered the handles of my gym bag in my fist. I was ready to be by myself.
After I got home I resumed the task of scanning Deedra’s tapes, since I had promised Marlon that if I found the one that featured him I would give it to him. I found myself feeling a little sick at the idea of him keeping a video of him having sex with a woman now dead, but it was none of my business what he did with it. I disliked Marlon Schuster, though that was maybe stating my feeling for him too strongly. It was more accurate to say I had no respect for him, which was quite usual for me. I had found nothing in him to like except his tenderness for Deedra. But that was something, and I had made him a promise.
I almost dozed off as I looked at the videos. I found myself looking at things I’d never seen before: talk shows, soap operas, and “reality” shows about ambulance drivers, policemen, wanted criminals, and missing children. After viewing a few tapes I could predict what was coming next, her pattern. It was like an up-ended time capsule for the past couple of weeks in television land. When I’d transferred the videotapes into a box, the most recent ones had ended up on the bottom.