Except that Evanthya knew this man-not as well as she knew Fetnalla, to be sure, but well enough. As dour and hostile toward most Qirsi as he was, he was also honorable and fair minded. And while the duke might have died from other causes, how was she to explain the dead soldiers found with him?
More to the point, she no longer felt so confident that she had ever really known her love at all. Perhaps she had early on, when their love was young and bright, shining like a newly forged blade. But more recently, as the world beyond their bedrooms and the castle gardens began to intrude upon their love, bringing word of the conspiracy and rumblings of war and with them the deepening suspicions of their dukes, all that they shared began to tarnish. They fought more, confided in one another less. The last time they were together Fetnalla had been distant, withdrawn, despite the passion of their lovemaking. Evanthya wanted desperately to believe that Fetnalla could never turn away from the life they had shared in the courts, but the more she considered what the men of Orvinti had said of Brall’s murder, the more she realized that this life, which still held so much for her, had long since become a prison for her beloved. Brall’s mistrust and that of his other advisors had likely left her with few or no friends in Castle Orvinti. In all probability, their love had been the only thing keeping her from joining the conspiracy. It wasn’t surprising that it had ceased to be enough.
Walking the ruined ramparts with Gabrys DinTavo, Evanthya brushed a tear from her cheek, hoping that Tebeo’s new master of arms wouldn’t notice. How many times had she been through all of this? How much longer would the mere thought of Fetnalla reduce her to tears?
“First Minister?”
She looked away, gazing out toward the Great Forest as she dabbed at her tears with the sleeve of her robe. Then she faced the master of arms again and forced a smile.
“Forgive me,” she said. “My attention wandered briefly. You were saying?”
He frowned. “Perhaps we should do this another time. As I’ve told you already, we’re making good progress with the gates and lower walls. The ramparts are less important right now, with the danger of a siege removed. The gates are what matter, and they should be fully repaired within half a turn.”
Actually, she hadn’t heard him say this, either. She needed to clear her mind, to banish Fetnalla from her thoughts, at least for the time being.
“I understand, armsmaster, and I agree with you about the gates. But the duke wanted to hear about all the repairs. So let’s continue and get this done, so that we can both see to more important matters.”
Gabrys nodded, though his frown lingered. “Well, as you can see, the damage to the ramparts is extensive. I imagine that it will be several turns before they’ll even begin to look right again. Repairing the battlements shouldn’t be too difficult, but the walkways themselves have been ruined, so. .”
Walking in silence as the master of arms droned on, Evanthya could imagine what Fetnalla would say. “How can you stand to listen to him? How can you stand to surround yourself with these Eandi men, all of them so avid for war and power? “ She could see her love’s face, her head tipped to the side, an ironic smile on her soft lips, a mischievous gleam in her pale yellow eyes. “You ‘d really choose them over me?”
I didn’t choose. You did.
“. . the stonemasons are going to have their hands full for some time to come. If we can prevail upon one of the other dukes to send some of their laborers to Dantrielle, we may be able to complete the repairs sooner, but failing that. .”
I thought we had decided to oppose the conspiracy. That was why we risked our lives and gave our gold to hire the assassin who killed Shurik. What happened?
“What happened?” A breathless laugh. “What do you think happened? At the same time that we were hiring that assassin, Brall was already treating me like a traitor. While the Eandi should have been fighting the renegades, they were instead trying to murder one another. Grigor’s poison nearly killed me. Don’t you remember that? Your precious courts are no place for a Qirsi. The nobles fear us, they mistrust us, they’re more than willing to kill a few of us if it means attaining the power they covet so, but they don’t care a damn about what happens to us.”
That’s not true. You can’t judge all of them because of men like Grigor and Brall.
“Can’t I?”
“. . You will tell him that, won’t you, First Minister?”
Evanthya blinked, searching the man’s face. “Yes, of course. We need laborers and stonemasons from the other houses.”
“Yes. And it’s also imperative that we see to the walkways first. He’ll want to repair the battlements-nobles always think the battlements are the most important part of the walls. They’re not. As long as my archers have somewhere to stand, they can protect the castle. The battlements are secondary.”
She stopped walking, hoping that she might extricate herself from the conversation. “I’ll be sure to say as much to the duke, armsmaster. You have my word.”
He nodded again, looking doubtful. “I’d be most grateful.” He indicated the rest of the wall with an open hand. “Do you wish to see more?”
“I don’t think that’s necessary. You seem to have matters well in hand.”
Gabrys inclined his head, acknowledging the compliment. “Thank you, First Minister.”
“Of course. I’m certain that we’ll have occasion to speak again soon. The duke will want me to keep him informed of your progress.”
“Until next time, then.”
She did her best to smile, then hurried away, descending the nearest of the tower stairways and following the shadowed corridors back toward her chamber.
“They don’t deserve your loyalty, Evanthya. Surely you see that. They’re weak-minded and selfish, and the only thing they can manage to agree on is their hatred of our kind.”
That’s not true of Tebeo.
“Of course it is. He may have managed to hide it from you up until now. But eventually the mask will slip, and you’ll realize that I’m right. And then you’ll come after me.”
Evanthya halted in midstride, reaching out a hand to steady herself against the stone wall of the passageway.
Go after her.
Thinking of it now, she could hardly believe that she hadn’t considered this sooner. True, there had been much to occupy her since the breaking of the siege, and naturally her duke would object. He might even forbid her from going. But that wasn’t the reason she hadn’t thought of this before. Even knowing that Fetnalla was alive, Evanthya had mourned as if her love had died. Her loss was that complete, that final. Fetnalla had murdered her duke and betrayed the realm. She might as well be dead.
“But I’m not.”
No, you’re not. And I’m going to find you.
“To what end?”
Her duke would ask the same question. What could she hope to accomplish by going after Fetnalla? Fetnalla would never turn her back on the conspiracy. She had killed for it, and if the renegades were truly led by a Weaver, her punishment for betraying them in turn would be swift and absolute. And even if Evanthya did manage to turn her against the conspiracy, Fetnalla faced certain execution here in Aneira. There was nothing to be gained by pursuing her.
“Yet you will.”
Yes.
“Why?”
I don’t know. But I have to try.