He just couldn’t bring himself to let a woman get him off. Not yet. He should probably move on with his life. Find someone to love. Sara would have wanted that for him. She’d told him as much the last time they’d made love. The last time he’d made love, period.
“You’re thinking about her again,” Owen said.
Kellen swallowed the lump in his throat and returned his attention to massaging Lindsey’s hand. She sighed in her sleep and his heart warmed. He wished he could love someone like her. He wished he could love anyone. Six years was long enough to grieve for Sara. It was much longer than the time he’d had with her.
“I think she’ll always be there,” Kellen said. “Sara.”
“I’m pretty sure that’s why you can’t bring yourself to, you know.” Owen’s eyes flicked towards Lindsey’s shaven mound. “Dam the beaver with your stick.”
Kellen’s brow crumpled. “That doesn’t even make sense, Owen. You don’t dam beavers.”
Owen chuckled. “I do.”
Kellen could still taste Lindsey’s sweet pussy and yeah, things were definitely stirring down below at the thought, but he didn’t want enter her shapely body. He didn’t want to be wrapped in her arms. He didn’t want to move inside her and stare down into her big blue eyes, because even though Lindsey resembled Sara, she wouldn’t be Sara. She could never be Sara. Sara was dead.
“I’m all sorts of fucked up in the head,” Kellen murmured.
“Hey, it’s alright. No one knows, but me,” Owen said.
Kellen chuckled. “I guess that’s some consolation.”
“Maybe if you tried again, you could do it this time. Instead of thinking of Sara while you bang the chick, you could think about my hand.” Owen lifted his eyebrows suggestively and wriggled his fingers at him. “I know how much it turns you on.”
Kellen might have taken offense if he hadn’t known Owen was fucking with him. He laughed harder. “What? Are you tired of having to get me off, Owen?”
“Not as long as you reciprocate.” Owen’s face split into a wide grin. “We are a couple of fucking perverts, aren’t we?”
“Hey, whatever feels good and God knows I need the release.”
“I’m really ready for some hot chocolate now. Do you want some?”
Kellen shook his head. “I’ll be out later. I need a few minutes to get my head on straight.”
Owen climbed from the bed and slipped into his jeans. “I’m going to hold you to that. No lying back here, holding some girl you don’t know, feeling all depressed and lonely.”
Kellen chuckled. The man knew him too well. He didn’t know what he would do with himself without Owen in his life, reminding him to keep living. Or try to.
Chapter Ten
Owen left Kelly with Lindsey and entered the main corridor of the bus. Tex was near the driver’s seat, cussing at his cell phone for having no service. With a candy cane dangling from his mouth, Gabe was back to reading his physics book, his attention drifting intermittently to Shade-and-company in the chair beside him. Adam was picking at his guitar strings with a distant look on his face. Shade was still seated in the recliner with the red rope still binding his forearms together. The main difference between now and when Owen had last saw him was that Shade’s fly was wide open and his stiff cock was down the throat of Lindsey’s friend.
When Owen closed the door behind himself, the girl looked up from her task and let Shade’s cock pop free from her lush lips. “Are you all done with the bed? I’m all sorts of horny right now. I don’t think this guy is ever gonna come.”
“Not if you stop sucking it, I won’t,” Shade said.
She glared up at him from her kneeling position on the floor. “If you don’t shut your mouth, I’m gonna knock your ass to the floor and sit on your face.”
Owen laughed. He loved this chick’s attitude. He found several cups of cold cocoa on the counter and popped one in the microwave.
“Is Lindsey okay?” the girl asked.
“She’s resting. Kellen’s giving her a massage.”
“She sure didn’t sound like she was getting no massage twenty minutes ago.”
“That must have been when I was fucking her,” Owen said. “I think she liked my cock piercing. She has a really sensitive G-spot.” He grinned. The microwave beeped and he removed his cup. He grabbed a spoon out of the drawer and stirred the contents of his mug before taking a cautious sip of the scalding liquid.
“Vanessa?” Shade murmured.
Vanessa tore her interested gaze from Owen’s crotch and looked up at Shade.
“Are you going to finish what you started or talk to Owen?”
She pouted. “My jaw is tired.”
“Then mount up and ride it.”
She eyed Shade’s huge erection with concern. “You don’t expect me to take off my pants and do you out here in front of everyone, do you?”
“You didn’t seem to have a problem with our presence when you were trying to suck him off,” Gabe said without looking up from his book.
“If you untie me, I’ll help you out of those pants,” Shade said.
“I like you tied,” Vanessa said. “That’s what got me so hot and bothered in the first place.”
“Yeah, well it’s keeping me from yanking your pants down around your knees, shoving your face into the sofa and fucking you doggie style,” Shade said, his voice tense, almost agonized.
Still sipping his hot chocolate, which was sweet and absolutely delicious, Owen sat on the sofa in question. “You can bury your face in my lap while he fucks you,” Owen said. “I won’t mind.” He patted his thigh with his free hand and took another sip of his cocoa. He was just trying to get a rise out of her. She didn’t disappoint him.
“You want my face in your lap after you just did my best friend? Don’t even go there.” Her eyes flicked to his lap. “Is your cock really pierced?”
Owen nodded and reached for the top button of his fly.
“Don’t take it out and show her,” Gabe complained. “One cock out in the main cabin is more than enough.”
“I’ll just put Shade’s away then,” Vanessa said. Owen saw the teasing grin on her face as she turned to try to force Shade’s rock hard cock back into his pants. Owen liked this girl. Anyone who messed with Shade was okay in his book. “Why won’t this thing go down?” she complained and licked it from base to tip. “Maybe if I suck your balls…” If her goal was to get Shade to groan and twitch and rock his hips in excitement, then sucking his balls had been the right solution.
Kellen came out of the bedroom. Owen offered him a wave, but he didn’t notice because he was gaping at Shade and the woman with Shade’s balls between her lush lips.
“Fuck, Shade. Don’t you have any shame?” Kellen said, raking a hand through his long, black hair, which now hung loose around his shoulders. He only tied it back when he was going down on a lady.
“No,” Shade gasped. “No shame. But the bedroom’s free now, Vanessa. Since you seem to have at least a little shame.”
“Just a little,” she said and laughed. She climbed to her feet and grabbed the rope between Shade’s wrists, hauling him to feet.
His loosened pants got caught on his thighs as he shuffled down the corridor to bedroom. Well, the bedroom was mostly free. Lindsey was still in there. She might sleep through the commotion however.
Kellen rolled his eyes as Shade passed him. “I thought Gabe was going to untie you.”
“I wouldn’t let him,” Vanessa said. “I like Shade helpless.”
“I’ll show you helpless in a minute,” Shade said in a low growl.
“Yeah, you,” she said, “helpless and flat on your back while I take that huge cock for a ride. And you aren’t allowed to come until I say you can.”