It was after five and his mother wasn’t yet home. When there was a knock on the door, he figured Lydia had arms loaded with groceries, so he opened the back door to a stranger. He knew her-sort of. The skinny girl in a baggy sweater and loose-fitting jeans who stood there on the other side of the screen door, scowling, with her fists clenched, was in his school, had been in classes with him. Her eyes were on fire, and they burned into him. Angela, or Amelia or something, he thought. She was biracial, and, at first look, she wasn’t a beautiful girl, because she worked as hard to camouflage her physical attractiveness as other girls her age labored to enhance theirs. This girl wore outdated clothes to hide her shape. She kept her hair as short as possible and she avoided makeup like it was poison. If that weren’t enough to discourage approaches, she was aggressively unpleasant, sullen, and acid tongued.
“You read it?” she demanded.
“What?” Winter had said.
“What the hell you think?” she replied, her bottom lip quivering. He suddenly realized that she was not as furious as frightened. “Mine is what. Give it back.”
“No,” he was surprised to hear himself say.
“It’s mine,” she insisted, tears starting to stream down her dusky cheeks. “Please, it’s personal. You have no right.”
He stepped back and opened the door wide. “Come in,” he said. “Please?”
She opened the screen door and entered, her eyes casting about the kitchen as though she expected that she was entering a trap.
He went into his room and got the journal. He held it out, and she snatched it out of his hands and clutched it to her chest. “You. . you. . you stole. .”
“No,” Winter protested. “I didn’t. I found it in the hall. There was no name on it.”
“You. . you read it.”
“Yes, I read it.”
“I can’t believe you’d read a diary! Don’t you know that’s a sin against privacy?”
“I couldn’t help it. It’s unbelievable.”
“You crazy?” She looked up into his eyes. “Isn’t any of it true. I made it all up. It’s fiction.”
“If it’s fiction, it’s better than anything I’ve ever read.”
“You tell anybody?” she asked. “Let anybody else read it?”
“Of course not.”
“Good. You better not. I got brothers. They’ll kick your ass.”
“No you don’t,” Winter said. “And you don’t have any friends either.”
“How do you know?” she shot back.
“Look, cross my heart, I won’t ever tell a soul one word that is in your journal.”
“You’d better not,” she threatened, and turned on her heel to leave.
“Angela?”
“Alexa. It’s Alexa Keen.”
“I’d like. . I mean. . I want to be your friend.”
“I don’t need anybody feeling sorry for me, Massey. And I don’t need any sneaky-ass diary-reading friends.”
“A diary is true,” he said. “It can’t be fictional if it’s true. Even if it’s based on-”
“Screw you,” she snarled, stomping out. She slammed the screen door.
“I do,” he called. “I need a friend like you, Alexa Keen.”
She stopped in her tracks and turned to look at him, her eyes narrowed. “What? Why?”
“Because you’re special. Because you can write what you feel. I feel some of what you feel, but I could never write it like you do. When you write, I can feel it, see it, and taste it. I want to learn to express myself the way you do.”
“You don’t know me.”
“My father was an alcoholic. One day a couple of years ago he ran off. He never told us where he went or why. But he was gone a long time before he left. He made me feel empty and worthless and helpless. He didn’t hit me, but what he did was worse than any beating.”
Her eyes reflected deep suspicion. “What’s in it for you?”
“I don’t have anybody I can talk to, tell my thoughts and feelings to. I need someone I can trust. I know you feel the same way. If I could trust you, you could trust me. I give you my word of honor.”
She smirked and shook her head slowly. “Sex. You think because I’ve done some things, that I’ll-”
“Never,” he blurted. “Alexa, that’s not why at all.”
“Never, ever try it! You do, we’re all done. You do that and I’ll hate you.”
“I swear that I will never betray you.”
“Cross your heart? Swear to God?”
“I swear it.”
He had honored his word. But it hadn’t been easy. She grew more attractive as they grew closer, able to tell each other their deepest thoughts, their insecurities and secrets. Some things he couldn’t tell her, like how sorry he was that he couldn’t explore the deeply sexual feelings he had for her, that he often suspected she had for him. Naturally he had always wondered how things might have been if he hadn’t stuck to his pledge-a pledge that was the very foundation of their friendship.
Winter had mixed feelings about working with Alexa. He also had no choice.
12
Buck Smoot showed his brothers, twins Burt and Curt, where he wanted them to dig, watched them get started on it, and then rode his four-wheeler off to the far end of the property, where he let himself out through a seldom-used gate. The trees beside the gate bristled with yellow No Trespassing signs, a formality that was wholly unnecessary. Buck didn’t snap the padlock back in place, but closed the gate and looped the heavy chain around the aging posts so it would be easy to get back in after he took care of his business three miles down the road.
He stopped a quarter mile short of the house so the sound of his four-wheeler wouldn’t announce him. He took the three-foot-long section of lead pipe out of the rear utility cage. Tapping the piece of pipe against his leg as he went, Buck strode through the woods toward the Grissoms’ isolated wood-frame house, smiling to himself as he saw the man of the house leaning over the lawn mower with his narrow back to the trees.
What kind of fool doesn’t get himself some kind of a dog to warn him if trouble’s coming? Buck wondered. He had killed the man’s dogs last time he dropped by, but a man living in the country is a fool not to get replacements right away.
The man working on his mower straightened abruptly when he heard footsteps behind him, but the sudden movement threw Buck’s aim off only a little. The pipe came crashing down on the man’s shoulder instead of the back of his head, sending him to the ground in a fetal heap, howling in pain.
Buck waited until Grissom looked up from the ground to speak. “Had to go to the sheriff, did you? What good did you think that’d do you, Grissom? You imagine my buddy was going to do something to me about your lie?”
“Buck, I. .”
Buck tapped his big open palm with the end of the pipe, delighted that this bastard was trembling from fear and pain.
“Shut up and listen,” Buck said. “Soon’s I finish with you, I’m going to go in your house and see how Miss Molly Grissom is doing. I intend to find out why she lied on me. I bet it was your idea.”
“You. . you. .”
“I what?” Buck snarled, raising the pipe over his head and shaking it menacingly.
“Why’d you want to go and rape my Molly? She never harmed you. You hurt her bad, Buck. Wasn’t no call to do that to her.”
“Rape? Is that what she said? How can you rape one that’s been sprawled out under every man in the whole damn county?” Buck said, bringing the pipe down on the man’s left knee with a sickening crack of bone and tissue.
“She said she wanted me to pour it to her. We all know that’s on account you can’t keep her itches scratched. I didn’t hurt her. She likes it rough-and-tumble. She squealed with pleasure the whole time I was putting it to her.”
“Please. .” Grissom held up both of his hands to prevent a blow to his head. “I won’t say anything. I was mad is all. I’ll forget all about it. Ever bit of it was my fault.”
“I’ll give you something to be mad at, Grissom.” Buck duplicated his blow to the first knee on the other one. Aiming his next few blows, he shattered both of Grissom’s outstretched hands, then broke both of his arms below the shoulders for good measure. “Who you gone run tell now?” he said. “Go call the sheriff now if you think you can dial a telephone.”