The movie was truly violent, and he kept glancing at Maggie and turning down the volume when they emerged to claim new victims and turning it up when the good guy, a smalltown doctor, was begging people to believe him, that he had the answers.
“Oh God, not them, they’re ones too?” Henry spoke softly.
Near the end there was the butchery he expected in a movie where the violence is done to aliens that only look like people. When the credits came on, Henry remembered where he was and slowly turned his head to look at Maggie. But she wasn’t asleep, though she hadn’t made a sound in over an hour. She was staring at him, her face half in shadow, the eye in the lighted half bright and moist.
“What is it? Maggie, what’s wrong?”
He switched off the TV but still sat on the edge of his bed.
“I have a funny feeling.”
“Is it your stomach? Do you need to potty?”
She shook her head, but her eye didn’t leave his face.
“What is it?”
“I think something really bad is going to happen to us.”
Henry didn’t move. He knew exactly what he should do and say but he didn’t move or speak. Then he knelt, his hands on her hands. “What do you think it is? Is it about the trip? Or later… in Texas? Is it my job? Or Mommie or David? What is it, Maggie?” He clenched her hands and shook them. He thought maybe she knew because she was a child. He had never been superstitious before but now he was filled with it. He squeezed her hands harder and they stared at one another.
“I don’t know,” she whispered. “It’s just this feeling I’ve had. Something terrible is going to happen to all of us.”
She began to cry and pulled out of his weakened grasp. “I want my mother!” she shouted and flung herself to the other side of the bed.
Henry went to the bathroom and wet a hand towel. He wiped his face, but the cold water was lukewarm. He looked at himself without turning on the mirror light. He had never felt more exhausted.
He calmed Maggie by wiping her face and neck and chest. The crying and hours of travel caused her to drop off to sleep once he held her in his lap, his aching back against the flimsy headboard.
It was after one in the morning when he switched off the light and lay in his own bed. But he slept erratically. Though he turned the thermostat up, the fan continued to blow frigid air. Frequently he got up and made sure Maggie was covered.
Minutes before the six o’clock wake-up call, he sat up in bed. In the dream just now he had felt his large hands on the child’s. But somehow that wasn’t what he’d pictured. Or this part had come earlier. He had been coming up some stairs and, as he stepped onto the landing, he saw an old woman on a wooden bench waiting outside a frosted glass door. She was dressed in dark colors, long out of fashion, a flat hat on her head, her face turned away from him. Her bluish hair spilled from around her hat; she tapped anxiously on the back of the bench.
He was sure it was Maggie, and he knew, if it were true, he had been dead for a very long time. That if he were remembered at all it was there somewhere behind her graceful finger’s rhythmic tapping.
Maggie sang under her breath as she took a bath and then dressed and carefully folded her clothes back into her suitcase. Henry raked his stuff into his overnight bag and left her in order to pay the bill. Outside, the sun lay like a huge deformed yolk on the tree line across the interstate. The humidity was almost unbearable; his earlier shower seemed useless.
By seven they had repacked the pickup and Henry had inspected the wilting plants. He checked the oil and dripped some from the dipstick onto his fresh khakis. “Dammit to hell.”
“Shame on you, naughty boy.” Maggie spoke to him for the first time since waking, but he didn’t look over the motor at her. She turned away and sat in the opened door and began singing to Mr. Pete, the ragged, lanky monkey that had once been David’s.
Chuck’s Best Steak House was busy, filled with city employees and state road crews jostling one another, smoking early cigarettes that choked Henry as they sat.
“Wow! Look at that buffet.” Maggie turned on her knees in the booth and waved her hands.
Henry reached out and took her left arm and pulled her across the table, almost tipping the glasses of ice water. “What’s this?” The tan back of her arm was mottled; the bruise almost encircled her wrist, more vivid on the pale underside. Look what I’ve done, he thought. Look at this. Immediately he lightened his grip, his hand barely touching her forearm.
“Oh, I fell off Brother’s bicycle. Remember? It was the last day of school, I think.” She shrugged and smiled at him. “Let’s eat.”
“But not so much. Not like yesterday, okay?”
Maggie turned and sat down hard on the vinyl. “It was fun.”
Henry opened his menu. The photographs were too bright and sharp. Brilliant yellow eggs. Crimson rashers of bacon. “I think that’s what made you unhappy last night… all that food… candy, hamburgers, chips, Cokes… your mother wouldn’t like it.” He closed the menu. “We’ll have some cereal, okay?”
Maggie rubbed her arm. “Food didn’t cause it. It wasn’t my stomach.”
“Listen, nothing’s going to happen to us. It was all that food and riding in the pickup all day and the heat.” He reached for her hands, but they darted under the table.
He took up his iced water. The outside of it was slippery from condensation. “You don’t know what it is, now do you?” He bent his head and looked into her dark blue eyes that held his own. “No, of course you don’t. Because it was just the travel and the upcoming move.” Henry nodded. “Nothing’ll happen. I’m your daddy and I solemnly declare that.” He heard his own voice and he lowered it, made it gruff like a cartoon character, a cartoon bear, and her eyes shifted to his lips and then she laughed and squirmed in her seat.
They ordered and ate their cereal and halved a sausage patty. He drank the rest of her milk and wiped his mouth.
“I’m sorry…” Henry said as he dipped the edge of his napkin in the cold water and removed flecks of cereal from her chin. “I’m sorry about last night.” But Maggie was twisting with energy and fussing with the monkey. “Let’s get going, Mr. Pete. Grandmommie is waiting with open arms. She’s got a candle burning in the window, Mr. Pete.”
They settled themselves in the pickup. Henry drove over the overpass and turned onto the access ramp. He tried keeping his thoughts on the traffic as he accelerated to seventy. The sun was behind them, and he hoped they’d reach Dallas before it arched overhead and turned the road to pewter and addled his brain. Right now he pictured his father in a meticulous dress uniform, as lanky as Mr. Pete. He would have some trouble coming down the front steps, but he had once walked at Stilwell’s side right out of Burma.
EMOLLIENTS
Her chapped hands, dipped in the lavatory, turned the water pink. “Jesus,” she said, and held them there as she looked at herself in the unlighted mirror. Pushing her nose close to the cool glass, she turned her head. Where has the wind harmed me? she asked, and looked at lips, temples, cheeks. I am beautiful, she said with her eyes at their reflection.
And she is telling the truth.
But just in case, she applied a half-dozen oils and lotions. The consistency of Todd’s semen, she thought. Warming it on her fingertips, she glistened eyelids and chin. She perused her olive face. I’m half Indian, she told them all at work and before in college and on down to when she had found out. On your mother’s side, her mother had said. Because her father was pale, always twenty-eight, and in uniform in the photograph on the chest of drawers in the pink light of her girl’s room. And now here, on the other side of this very wall.