What wasn’t reasonable was that she couldn’t find him. Not at the carriage house, Miss Caroline’s, or his father’s. Not at Missy’s. He and Luke had been fraternity brothers at Vandy, so she drove to the farm. Not there either. It was less likely he’d be with Tolly and Nathan, but she tried there too.
She didn’t go in at any of the places. She would only do that if his car were there. But it was nowhere. Then she tried less likely places—the gym, the fish restaurant out by the lake, the country club because he could be in the bar drinking.
Then she started all over again. Finally, she faced that he was not in town. He had run. That wasn’t new and it wasn’t a surprise. And maybe he had good cause this time. She could lead him home; she was sure of it, if she could just find him.
It was going to have to be the phone after all. She pulled into her driveway, went in, and sat beside the Christmas tree they had decorated together. For good luck, she pulled one of the antique doorknobs he’d given her from the crystal bowl on the coffee table where she had arranged them.
Then she dialed the number.
It rang twice before she heard it click on. She took a deep breath and got ready.
But the voice was not warm caramel. She didn’t know what it was, but not that.
“Hello, this is Brantley Kincaid’s phone. Rita May Sanderson speaking.”
Lucy did what anyone in her situation would have done. She hung up and drank half a bottle of red wine straight from the bottle. Then, knowing she could not bear to crawl into the bed that she had so recently shared with Brantley, she went to sleep on the sofa.
Chapter Thirty
Lucy woke with a pounding head and a mouth like the desert. She looked at her watch. Almost six. Not only was she still wearing her watch, she had not removed her jeans and sweater. Though she didn’t remember taking them off, her shoes were laying helter-skelter next to the half empty wine bottle. Brantley always set his shoes neatly side by side, with the laces tucked inside.
His shoes would be sitting by Rita May’s this morning—probably tall black boots with studs—or she might still be wearing those boots, right in bed.
Sometimes a person who’d suffered a traumatic event didn’t remember it until they’d been awake a minute or so. Not her. She’d gone to sleep with it on her mind and woke with it on her mind. She’d probably dreamed about it. When she sat up, her stomach rolled, not with nausea but hunger. No wonder. She never had gotten around to taking a single bite of the pizza from last night, so she’d had nothing since a salad yesterday at lunch—unless you counted the wine. And how much nutritional value could half a bottle of wine provide?
After showering, she put on a set of ratty old sweats because what she wore did not matter. No clients, no meetings, no Brantley. No Brantley ever again.
But McDonald’s was open, even this early.
She picked up her keys, headed out the door, and drove there. What she really wanted was a quarter pounder with cheese and French fries, but it was too early to get that. And an apple turnover would be just the thing. She hadn’t had one of those in years. Oh, look! She could get that—it was right there on the drive-through breakfast menu. She might get two. Could you get a milkshake this early?
What was wrong with her? She never ate fast food and certainly not for breakfast. She was a good girl, kept right to the good nutrition rules. In the face of all this, why couldn’t she be lying on the sofa nauseated at the very thought of food? That’s how it always was in books. But she was not that person.
Oh, no. She was the once and future fat girl.
Evidently, she was going to eat her grief away, become plump, then fat, then morbidly obese. So what? She was good at her work. She’d throw herself into it—that and eating. Everyone would be clamoring for her to come evaluate their houses, vacation homes, and guest houses—if she could get through the door.
She wouldn’t do historic restoration anymore—only modern and futuristic. That would be her eccentricity. Eccentricities were tolerated from the brilliantly talented. Everyone would whisper about it.
“Why won’t Lucy—” because by then she would be just Lucy, no last name “—do restoration? That used to be her specialty.”
“I heard the White House begged her to restore the Lincoln bedroom but she refused.”
“What? You can’t turn down the White House!”
“Tell that to the First Lady.”
“And there’s that other thing. She always insists on incorporating at least one antique doorknob into her designs. Some critics say the juxtaposition between those knobs and her sparse designs is brilliant; others think it’s just peculiar.”
“I heard she was disappointed in love while working on a restoration project. Some say her lover fell, hit his head on a glass doorknob, and died.”
“That’s why she eats.”
“Take your order, ma’am?” Oh, good God. Could she be any more melodramatic?
She returned home with an Egg McMuffin, hash browns, two apple turnovers, and a large coffee. She sat down at the kitchen table but not before she noticed there were now two messages on her phone. Too bad. She was going to eat first, eat every bite. Well, she might save one of those turnovers until later. It had been defiance that made her get two.
After eating, she felt a little less giddy, if not better. Lucy hit the button for the first voice mail and reached for her coffee. This might take a while.
“Lucy, darling.” It was Annelle. “Just wanted you to know I am safe and sound here at Lawrence and Anna’s. Miss you, but you have a wonderful holiday with Brantley. We’ll talk on Christmas Day. Love you.”
No one had told Annelle of the recent misadventure. That was something.
She played the second message.
“Lucy! Listen!” Missy said, obviously thinking the message was Lucy live. Pause. “All right. Maybe you’re still asleep. So listen to me. I had a little powwow with Tolly, Lanie, and Miss Caroline last night.” Oh, hell. Miss Caroline. Dear God. “There was a lot of hand wringing and talk about respecting your wishes and not pestering you. None of it from me, of course. I have no intention of respecting your wishes if that includes not talking to you. Because, Lucy Mead, you are going to talk to me.” Don’t call me Lucy Mead. He calls me Lucy Mead. Or he did.
She’d done pretty well until now but a tear escaped and landed on her McDonald’s napkin. Why was she so upset? Why was she even surprised? She had known this was coming—except for those few seconds last night right after he announced he was staying in town, but before he’d dropped the proposal bomb. Two seconds of hoping made for a lead heart—and a veracious appetite. She should write that down. Maybe she’d get a DayRunner.
“Now,” Missy went on, “I am going to assume that you are still asleep but you’ve never slept past eight o’clock in your life.”
Wrong. She’d slept until after nine last Saturday. But it had been easy to sleep while Brantley had his arms around her and everything had seemed all right. There were more tears now, and if she was going to be honest, a certain amount of snot. She did not cry prettily. McDonald’s napkins made pretty good handkerchiefs. Miss Caroline wouldn’t approve but there was probably a lot that Miss Caroline didn’t approve of right now, starting with her grandson being publicly humiliated and some family jewelry that just happened to have gone astray. Or she assumed Brantley had absconded with the ring. Who knew? Maybe he’d given it to Rita May by now.