Her grandparents.
She still felt partly numbed at the unfamiliar thought.
Today she was going to meet three people who were closely connected to her by blood after believing for eleven years that she was all alone in the world.
But they were strangers.
Would they even like her?
Would they hold it against her that she was the product of a marriage that ought never to have been?
But they were coming here, were they not?
Would she like them?
How would she even greet them?
“It looks,” Peter said, “as if the visitors have arrived.”
And sure enough, there was a large old carriage standing outside the stable block. Her heart sank.
“Afraid?” he asked, turning his head to look down at her.
“Very.” She drew her cloak more tightly about her.
“Is it not strange,” he said, “how life can plod along placidly for years and then, for no clear reason, can be suddenly filled with one turmoil after another? And it has happened for us both in differing ways-and began for both of us at the same moment, when we arrived together at the fork in a narrow lane in the quiet Somerset countryside one summer afternoon. Such a seemingly innocent encounter! And here we are as a result of it all, and you are facing an ordeal that has nothing really to do with me. May I come in with you?”
“Please do,” she said as he drew the curricle to a halt before the doors into the house and jumped down to assist her.
She thought as she entered the house a few moments later that perhaps she ought to have said no. Perhaps her grandparents would recognize the name Whitleaf as she had during the summer. But it was too late now. Besides, she could not bear to say good-bye to him and then have to go upstairs to the drawing room alone.
The newly arrived visitors were there and expecting her, the butler informed her as he took her cloak and bonnet from her and she fluffed up her curls and brushed her hands over her dress. He turned to lead the way.
She did not take Peter’s arm. If she did, she might cling. This was something she must do herself, even if she had chosen to have him accompany her for moral support.
Lady Markham, Edith, Mr. Morley, Theodore-they were all in the drawing room, Susanna saw as soon as she had crossed the threshold. So were three strangers, all of whom got to their feet at sight of her. Theodore came striding toward her.
“Susanna,” he said, taking her hand in both of his and squeezing it before letting it go, “you must come and meet Colonel and Mrs. Osbourne and the Reverend Clapton, your grandparents.”
The lady was slender almost to the point of thinness, with white, carefully coiffed hair, a lined face, and a sweet mouth. The colonel was broad-chested and tall and very upright in bearing. He was bald and had a thick white mustache, which drooped past the corners of his mouth almost to his chin. He looked very distinguished. He looked like an older version of Susanna’s father. The clergyman was shorter and thinner. He had fine gray hair and eyeglasses and supported himself with a cane.
Her grandparents, Susanna thought, gazing one at a time at the three strangers.
She dipped into a curtsy.
And then the lady came hurrying toward her, both hands outstretched, and Susanna set her own in them.
“Susanna,” the lady said. “Oh, my dear, I believe I would have known you anywhere. You look just like your mother, though surely you have something of the look of my son too. Oh, my dearest, dearest girl. I knew you were not dead. All these years I have said it, and now I know that I was right.”
Her chin wobbled and her eyes filled with tears.
“Please do not cry, ma’am,” Susanna said, hearing a gurgle in her own throat. “Please do not.”
“Grandmama,” the lady said. “Call me Grandmama. Please do.”
“Grandmama,” Susanna said.
And then of course, there was no way of stopping the tears of either of them from flowing-and somehow they had their arms about each other, Susanna and this stranger who was not a stranger at all but Papa’s mother.
Peter was clearing his throat, though not in an attention-seeking way. So was the Reverend Clapton, who was leaning on his cane with both hands. Lady Markham and Edith were smiling with happiness. Mr. Morley looked as if he were in raptures. Theodore was beaming genially.
The colonel withdrew a large white handkerchief from a pocket of his coat, blessing his soul rather fiercely as he did so, held the handkerchief to his nose, and blew into it loudly enough to wake the dead.
24
“This is very pleasant, Peter,” his mother said, sinking into the best chair, which he had drawn near the fire in the library. “Just the two of us together for a cozy chat. It does not happen often enough.”
He seated himself across from her. He had asked her to join him in the library after almost everyone else had retired for the night and only a few of the younger people were still amusing themselves in the music room.
“You are warm enough, Mama?” he asked her.
“I am,” she said. “My love, it was very naughty of you to leave the house this morning to deliver one of your invitations and not return until late in the afternoon. However, you were very attentive to Miss Flynn-Posy this evening. She is a sweet girl, is she not?”
“Very,” he agreed. “And doubtless she will make some man a wonderful wife someday soon. But she will not be mine.”
She looked a little surprised at such a categorical statement. But she smiled as she relaxed back against the cushions.
“You may well change your mind during the coming days,” she said.
“I will not change my mind,” he told her. “I have already chosen the woman I wish to marry.”
He watched her eyes light up with interest.
“Peter?” She clasped her hands to her bosom and sat up straighter.
“I am just not sure she will have me,” he said.
“Oh, but of course she will have you, whoever she is,” she cried. “You know you are one of the greatest matrimonial prizes-”
He held up a hand.
“Mama,” he said, “she is Susanna Osbourne.”
“Who?” She sat back again, all the animation draining from her face.
“William Osbourne’s daughter,” he said. “I love her, and I mean to have her if she will have me. I met her during the summer-she was staying with the Countess of Edgecombe not far from Hareford House. I saw her again in Bath when I went there with Lauren and Kit to attend Sydnam Butler’s wedding breakfast. And I have been with her today. She is at Fincham Manor for Christmas. Her grandparents have come there to meet her. I have invited them all to the ball here on Christmas night.”
She licked her lips. Her hands, he noticed, were gripping the arms of the chair.
“I suppose she set her cap at you,” she said. “If she has you believing she will not have you, Peter, that is just her cunning, believe me. You cannot seriously-”
“She wanted to have nothing to do with me during the summer,” he said, “after she had heard my name.”
Her lips moved, but she did not speak.
“Mama,” he asked, and it was an enormously difficult question to ask, “what was your relationship with Mr. Osbourne?”
“My?-” She bristled suddenly. “You are surely being impertinent, Peter. I am your mother, I would have you remember, even if you are now grown up.”
“You were lovers,” he said.
“How dare you!” Her eyes widened.
“Just as you and Grantham were,” he said. “Except that then you told me it was the only time it had happened since my father died and that it had happened because you were lonely and could not help yourself. And yet it had been going on for a long time, and on the occasion when I saw the two of you together, you were here, in my home, with both Bertha and her mother as my guests under the same roof.”