Meerm so ver fraid. Not fraid needle. Fraid this place. And fraid hurt. Hurt so bad.
“Okay now, Meerm,” say mask lady. Nice lady. “I’m going to make the hurt go away.”
Meerm feel warm, feel hurt go. This ver nice lady.
“I’m going to put you to sleep now, Meerm,” lady say. “And when you wake up, you’ll have a baby. Won’t that be nice?”
Yes. Baby. Meerm baby. So nice. Meerm want hold, want kiss. Make baby safe. Hold-hold-hold and nev let go.
Sleepy now, but not stop think baby…Meerm baby…Meerm ver own baby…happy Meerm…
23
“Stop!” Luca shouted. “Pull over right now!”
Lowery slammed on the brakes. As the Jeep screeched to an unexpected halt, the two following vehicles skidded past and swerved to stops ahead.
“Where’s the blower?” Luca shouted. “Give me the fucking blower!”
“Here,” Lowery said, slapping the PCA into his palm. “What’s the matter?”
“I am so stupid,” Luca said, punching in 4-1-1. “So fucking stupid!”
“Are you going to tell me—?”
“Cannon’s answering service! They’ll know where she is!”
He got the number from information, punched it in, and asked for Dr. Cannon.
“Dr. Cannon’s not available,” a woman’s voice told him. “Dr. Moss is covering.”
Shit! “I really need to speak to Elizabeth personally. This is her brother and we’ve got a family emergency that needs her immediate attention.”
“Oh, I’m so sorry to hear that. I’ll try her house and—”
“I’ve already called and she doesn’t answer.”
“Maybe she’s at the hospital. I can page her if you wish.”
“Would you? That would be wonderful.”
Luca waited on hold, feeling the time drag by, and then the operator was back on.
“I just spoke to the hospital. Dr. Cannon is in surgery. I can leave a message for her as soon as she gets out.”
Surgery? Could it be…?
“Which hospital?”
“Nassau Community. Do you want me to—?”
He cut her off and turned to Lowery. “Nassau Community Hospital. You know where it is?”
“Not a clue. Give me the address and the GPU will—”
“Right.”
Luca punched 4-1-1 again. He’d call the switchboard and ask for the address.
“Why didn’t I see it?” he shouted. “The sim’s in labor! That’s why Cannon’s house was empty. Everyone’s at the hospital. She’s having her baby.”
Lowery grinned. “And we didn’t bring any cigars.”
“Yes, we did,” Luca said, patting his HK. “The exploding kind.”
24
Romy, capped, masked, and garbed in surgical green, stood between Betsy and Joanna at the stainless steel sink and learned how to scrub. Betsy’s other scrub nurse had begged off, refusing to leave her five-year-old son to open his Christmas presents without her. That left Romy to fill in.
“Work the lather into the skin,” Betsy was saying, her voice slightly muffled by her surgical mask, “especially between the fingers and around the nails.”
“I don’t know if I can do this,” Romy said. She was shaking inside. “It’s not the blood or the cutting, it’s just that I’ve never even seen—”
“You’ll be fine,” said Joanna to her right. “I’ll handle the technical stuff. The most you’ll have to do is hang on to a retractor while—”
“She’s crashing!” cried an accented voice from the operating room. “Something’s happened!”
“Oh, God, her uterus!” Betsy said. “It’s ruptured!” She grabbed three packets of sterile gloves and handed them out. “Just put them on! Forget about gowns and sterile procedure. We’ll worry about sepsis later. Right now we’ve got to move or we’ll lose her!”
The next ten minutes were a crimson-tinged blur through which Romy watched Betsy and Joanna work like a single four-armed organism. Their communication seemed almost telepathic as Joanna would slap an instrument into Betsy’s palm as soon as she thrust out her hand. Romy repressed a cry of anguish as Betsy cut quickly through Meerm’s abdominal wall, releasing a torrent of blood that gushed down her flanks and soaked the table. Joanna said something about a uterine artery and Betsy was calling for suction but Romy’s eyes were locked on the glistening bloody dome of Meerm’s uterus floating in that sea of red. And the surreal aspect of being able to glance up at the TV monitor suspended in a corner and view the scene from a different angle. And then Betsy was cutting into that muscular sack, reaching through the slit and pulling out a limp, bloody, silent baby. She held it up by its feet, slapped it once, then again, and with that the little arms jerked outward and the baby emitted a piercing cry. And then Betsy was clamping and cutting the cord as she called for Zero or Patrick, she didn’t care who, to get down here and take charge of this baby because she needed everyone here to help her stop Meerm’s hemorrhaging before she died.
Seconds later, Patrick, looking even more frightened than he had after they’d been run off the Saw Mill, stumbled through the doors into the OR.
“What do Ido ?” Patrick said as Joanna deposited the squirming, squalling, scrawny, blood-slippery bundle of baby into his arms. It terrified him. God, what if he dropped it? “I don’t know a thing about babies! I’ve never—”
“No Butterfly McQueens allowed,” the nurse told him. “Madhuri will talk you through it.” Then she turned back to the furious activity on the operating table.
Patrick turned to the anesthetist. “Madhuri?”
“Take it to the table over there,” she replied in a voice that was at once lilting and rapid fire. “There’s a basin of warm water. Rinse it off, wipe it down, and then wrap it tightly in one of the blankets.”
“But—”
“Hurry! Get it wrapped up! You don’t want hypothermia! I’d help you but I can’t leave—” She glanced at a monitor and called out, “Heart rate up to one-sixty!”
Gingerly cradling the slippery baby in his arms, Patrick stepped to the cleaning table and placed it on a towel. And now, as it screamed and thrust out its skinny limbs, he could see that it was a girl. He dipped a towel in the basin of warm water and began wiping away the blood and clinging membranes. This caused an escalation in the wails. She was so small, so fragile looking. He hoped he didn’t rub too hard and break something, but he kept it up, working as quickly as he could. As soon as she was reasonably clean, he found a soft blanket at the rear of the table and wrapped it around her.
He looked over to Madhuri to ask, Now what? but she was busy hanging a new IV bag, a small, red one, on an IV pole so loaded with infusion bags it looked like a Christmas tree. The baby was still crying so he lifted her into his arms—he felt a little more confident now that she was dry and blanket wrapped—and held her tight against him.
Amazingly, her wails tapered off. And now that he had a chance to look at her, he marveled at how human she looked. He’d never seen a real live newborn. He’d seen photos, of course; whenever the associates at his old firm had entered fatherhood, they always brought in pictures taken right after birth showing these homely, scrunched-up elfin faces that everyone pronounced beautiful. But this babywas beautiful. Maybe because she hadn’t been extruded through a birth canal. A nice symmetrical face, a tiny nose, little bow lips, a light down of hair on her head but none on her body. Damn, she looked human. More so than some of those associates’ kids.
He turned to look at the operating table and met Romy’s dark eyes, the only part of her face visible between the cap and the mask.
“How’s Meerm doing?” he asked.
Betsy stood next to Romy, and answered without looking up. “I clamped the big bleeder but she’s not out of the woods yet. She damn near bled out. We’ve got packed red cells and volume expanders running full blast, and that should bring her pressure back.”