“How did they answer?”
“They answered ‘Okay’ to the first, but they didn’t seem to know what ‘happy’ meant.”
“Tough concept.”
Romy shot to her feet and walked around in a tight circle, grinding a fist against her palm.
“Maybe I should quit this.”
“Romy—”
“No, I’m serious. My life is one tangled mass of dissatisfaction. I should quit the organization, put in my time at OPRR, settle down, marry a fellow bureaucrat, buy a house, have kids, and forget all this crap! Life would be so much simpler and I’d be so much happier!”
“Would you?”
“At least I wouldn’t be so damn frustrated!” You’re losing it, she thought. Keep a lid on it. But she couldn’t. She needed to spew. “Everywhere I turn, someone’s hiding something from me: couldn’t find anything useful at SimGen, you won’t show me your face or let me in on who else is in the organization. Hell, for all I know, OPRR’s got a secret agenda they’re keeping from me too! I’m sick of it! Sick to death!”
Zero said nothing, merely sat and waited for her to cool. Good move.
With a little more circle walking and fist grinding, the heat seeped away and she dropped back into the chair.
“Okay,” she said. “I’m back.”
“What can I do to make this better?”
“Nothing. It’s not you, it’s me. I always seem at odds with a world that I should be so thankful for. Look what the genome revolution has done. We’ll all live longer because so many genetic diseases have already been wiped out, and days are numbered for the rest of them. Heart disease, diabetes, high blood pressure, certain cancers—if they ran in your family you pretty much had to resign yourself to dealing with them at some point in your life. Not these days. Germline therapy has seen to that. Cystic fibrosis, sickle cell anemia, MS—hell,nobody has those anymore.”
“Jerry Lewis finally stopped those telethons.”
Romy had to smile. “There you go—something else to be thankful for. And then there’s…me. You know about my splice, I assume.”
Zero nodded. “Changed your life, didn’t it.”
Oh, yes, she thought. You might even say it saved my life.
She remembered adolescence as a time of chaos. Under the influence of the new hormones surging through her maturing body, her childhood fits of violence segued into other modes of acting out. When she was Reasonable Romy she was an A student, but then somewhere in her system a switch would be thrown and Raging Romy would emerge. If Reasonable Romy had a fault, it was that she felt too much, cared too much. Raging Romy cared for no one, least of all herself, and needed to go to extremes to feel anything.
She stifled a groan as she remembered the reckless sex—she cut a sexual swath through the willing males and females in each of the three high schools she attended, then jumped into drinking, drugs, shoplifting, the whole gamut. When she was caught dancing naked on the roof of the gym she qualified for emergency institutionalization.
During her time in the locked ward of the hospital, the doctors explained that Reasonable Romy was the real Romy, the only Romy, but at times her neurohormones would undergo wild fluctuations, causing her to act out of character. They said it was a form of what they called bipolar disorder and they had medications that would keep her neurohormones—and thus her behavior—on an even keel.
Wrong.
Oh, the drugs worked for a while. She survived high school and her parents’ divorce—Raging Romy’s behavior playing a major part in the breakup—And Got Through College Without too many incidents. During grad school she started noticing increasingly wide mood swings. She managed to earn her Ph.D. in Anthropology, but shortly after that she was out of control.
A parade of doctors tried a wide array of chemical cocktails to regulate her behavior. No luck. Finally someone suggested a radical new treatment—gene therapy. A defective gene in her brain cells had been identified as the cause of her disorder. Using a viral vector, they could replace the aberrant base sequence in the gene and get it back to normal functioning.
But no success was guaranteed. The therapy was still experimental in those days. The virus would target only areas of the brain that controlled her serotonin and dopamine levels; if it got to enough cells, the levels would stabilize, normalize. If not…well, there’d been all sorts of releases to sign.
Apparently the vector virus reached a sufficient number of cells: Raging Romy never showed her face again.
But she wasn’t gone. She remained in the unspliced cells, whispering, rattling her chains…a ghost in Romy’s machine. And when Reasonable Romy was angry or stressed, she could feel Raging Romy pushing her way to the surface, trying to break through to be reborn.
And the scary part was, sometimes Romy found herself cheering her on, almost hoping she’d make it. Because she’d felt so damngood when Raging Romy had the wheel.
“Yes, it did,” Romy told Zero. “I had a genetic defect spliced out of me and I’ve never regretted it. I’m more my own boss because of it. So why aren’t I overjoyed with our brave new world?”
Zero said nothing.
The perfect response, Romy thought. If I don’t know, he sure as hell doesn’t.
She sighed. “Anyway, our inspections were satisfactory—as far as they got. But they could be performing vivisection in that basic research building for all we know.”
She’d had two ongoing problems to contend with during the inspection tour. Lack of access to basic research had been the major issue. The other had been the relentless come-ons from Luca Portero; the man somehow had developed the notion that he was irresistible to women, and that Romy’s repeated refusals of his invitations to lunch, dinner, and even breakfast were simply her way of playing hard to get.
She didn’t mention that to Zero. What was the point? OPRR would be locked in court with SimGen for the foreseeable future and she probably wouldn’t see Luca Portero again for a long time, if ever.
But just thinking about that man only added to her edginess.
Zero said, “We’ll let the courts deal with the basic research issue for now. The good news is that after many man-hours of effort by a number a people, we’ve finally hit pay dirt on that license plate number you so wisely recorded—a number we wouldn’t know had you not thrown them a curve by showing up early. A lucky day for us when you joined the organization.”
She could feel his praise mellowing her—a little. Always nice to be appreciated, but how sincere was he? Was it that he had sensed her mood and was simply trying to placate her? So damn hard to read him without a glimpse of his face or his eyes. Almost as bad as email. Worse—even email had those annoying little smilies.
But she remembered his excitement when she’d told him about the plate. He hadn’t been faking that.
“About time something paid off,” she said.
“Not a big payday, I’m afraid, but who knows where it will lead. The truck was leased from a firm in Gooding, Idaho, by a private individual named Harold Golden.”
“Really.” She drew out the word. “What’s a private individual from Idaho doing on SimGen’s campus?”
“It gets better: Harold Golden’s MasterCard is sound, so the leasing company never checked him out. But we did, and guess what? Harold Golden doesn’t exist. He’s just a name on a credit card account.”
“How can you be sure?”
“Can’t be one hundred percent sure unless we find something like his Social Security number belonging to a soldier who died in Afghanistan or Iraq. That’s not the case here. The provenance of his Social Security number appears sound, but can you imagine a man who’s doing some sort of business with SimGen who has never taken out a loan of any kind? Who has one credit card on which he charges only one thing: the lease of three trucks?”