Lately, the signs had been even more obvious, if she had cared to look. He had been eyeing her and it wasn't like a father should look at a daughter. He had been lusting after her, and it hadn't been only in his bean.
"Why me?" she sobbed, knowing that the deed was done. She had been incestuously raped and there wasn't a Goddamn thing she could do about it. Ideas of running to her friends quickly went away. She would be the laughing stock of the school if she ever told anyone about this and it got out. They would all point at her and snicker and think she was somehow inferior to them.
Brandy knew she couldn't stand that.
Being raped by her daddy was bad, but having her friends shun her as some sort of social outcast because of it was even worse. She would have to hear the shame in solitude. She couldn't share her burden with anyone.
The girl jumped a foot when she heard the faint creak of her bedroom door. "Who's there?" she called out, fearful – that it was her father returning to rape her another time. She would kill herself first, she vowed. Anything but allowing him to fuck her again.
"It's me, Brandy. Can I come in?"
"I guess so, Mom," the girl said, her voice trembling. She didn't want to see her mother, especially now of all times.
"I know what happened," the woman said immediately, as she sat on the edge of the bed.
"I didn't make him do it!" the girl sobbed. "I didn't entice him or anything. It wasn't my fault, honest!"
"I believe you, dear," the woman said, putting her arms around her daughter's shoulders. "It's been coming for some time. Your daddy drinks too much and it finally caught up with him. Try to forgive him, if you can. He's not really in control."
"Why did he have to rape me?"
"I think that's fairly obvious. You look a great deal like I did when I was younger. Your father sees this and perhaps it makes him think he's able to regain some of his lost youth. Being middle-aged can be a real drag at times, even more so for your father. He used to be an athlete, you know."
The blonde teenager could only nod her head. She couldn't possibly not know about her father's athletic trophies. They littered the house. Somehow, the girl could never quite see that potbellied man winning any kind of competition, unless it had something to do with drinking.
"He feels life slipping away from him. That makes him overly protective of you. He doesn't want to admit you're growing up, that you're a woman now. That would only make him feel older."
"He didn't have to rape me."
"No, but he's not the same man he used to be. He's groping for something he doesn't understand. He can never return to the way it was in the old days, but he refused to accept that. So he saw you tonight and something snapped inside."
"He was drunk."
"He was," the woman admitted, "but there's more to it than that. I don't think you're going to be safe around here any longer, Brandy. Not until Daddy gets some professional help."
"For his drinking?"
"That and other things. He… he hasn't been able to make love to me in months. I thought it was the drinking, but now I'm not so sure. Not when he can rape his very own daughter." The woman's voice carried a bitter edge to it now. "He's a sick man and you're not safe here, not now. That's why I want you to go stay with James."
"James? But he's so into that religious cult thing. I don't think I could stand him."
"I know, but he's such a fine boy. I'm not asking you to believe all those weird things James does. Just go and stay with him and play along – for a while. Until Daddy gets better."
Brandy had to think about it. She hadn't seen her older brother in almost five years. He was close to thirty and had always seemed more like a friend to her than an older brother. When he was twenty be got involved with same religious group. By the time he was twenty-two, he had been the leader. For the last eight years, he and his small band lived in a large house, secluded from the worldly rat-race and following an existence that Brandy wasn't sure she could accept.
Exile with her brother James or the threat of continual rape from her father. The options didn't appear too good to her.
Finally, she choked out, "I… I'll go stay with James. If he'll have me."
"He will, dear. I called and talked to him. While he wasn't exactly overjoyed, he is your brother and he seems to understand the problems around here. He said as long as you followed the simple rules of his religious sect, all would be fine and that you could stay for as long as you wanted."
Brandy nodded her head, wondering what she was getting involved in.
Brandy shivered as the cold wind whipped around her ripe, lush body. She stood, suitcase at her feet, staring at the imposing mansion of her brother and his Children of the Earth sect owned. The teenager hardly recognized James as he came from the front doors to greet her.
"My child, welcome, to peace and harmony." James was dressed in a coarse wool robe that looked like something out of the Middle Ages. He had he waist pulled in and tied with a double loop of chain, a small lock holding the chain fastened in he front. His hair had turned a little gray at the temples and his face seemed unfamiliar.
"James?" she said in a weak voice. "How are you?"
"I am at peace, Brandy." The name seemed to be like acid on his tongue. He almost spat it out. "Thanks for taking me in like this. You know how it is with Daddy, I guess. Did Mom tell you?" She heard herself babbling. The sight of her brother shook her a little. He seemed to be so saintly. It was as if the very idea of sin never touched his mind, much less his body. Brandy had never been around a true holy man before. After their minister had been convicted of molesting small children, she'd stopped going to church.
"I know all," he said. He looked as if he belonged in some cathedral to make all his statements. "And you have agreed to abide by the rules of the sect as long as you are here. You must be purified before being allowed to mingle with the others."
"Purified?" the girl asked. Thoughts of bathing went through her mind. A nice long hot bath would relax her. "Sure, any time."
His eyebrows rose slightly and he smiled for the first time. "This way then, dear sister."
She waited for him to offer to take her suitcase, when he didn't she hefted it herself and went through the big doors of the mansion. The girl had expected to see a sumptuous interior. This had been a ritzy house once. She was a little disappointed to find the inside as barren as the outside. Austere, she guessed was the proper word.
"In there. The purification ceremony will begin immediately!"
She dropped her bag and went through the door James had indicated. The girl stopped dead in her tracks. It looked more like a torture chamber than any religious place she had ever heard of. Whips in racks lined the walls. A brazier burned in the center of the room, branding irons in the coals glowing red hot. A set of stocks dominated the altar, behind which was a crucifix. The crucifix was the only indication this was a church and not something out of the Spanish Inquisition.
"James? What…?"
She had no chance to say anything further. Hands grabbed her and dragged her to the altar.
"What the hell's going on?" she screamed, when she regained her breath. Busy hands worked at her clothing, fumbling, pulling, unbuttoning. She felt her jeans sliding down her trim slender legs. Trying to keep her legs spread wide apart so they couldn't undress her, she twisted to face her brother.
The man stood impassively in the center of the room. The look on his face was one of mild displeasure.
"You said you would undergo the purification ceremony. To stay here, you must!"
"Well, fuck you, James! I'm not going to do any such thing if you have to strip me bare-ass naked!"
"Do so," he said, his voice cold and commanding.