I smile back at her. “That’s good. I can’t really start a long-term relationship right now.”
“Me neither.” She shakes her head. “My tumor is a pontine glioma. In plain English, that means ‘Good-bye, cruel world!’”
I can’t think of anything to say in response. Shannon’s dying too. We’re in the same boat. I’m not happy to hear it, but at least I understand her a little better. She’s dying and she wants to talk. Maybe she thinks I can give her some advice.
“I saw you when the paramedics brought you in yesterday,” she says. “My room is across the hall and my door was open. You were unconscious, but I caught a glimpse of you before they wheeled your gurney into your room.”
Her eyes are dark brown. Above them, the wispy remnants of her eyebrows look like apostrophes. As I stare at her, I remember what she looked like in biology class a year ago: a pretty fifteen-year-old with shoulder-length black hair and dimples in her cheeks. She’s still pretty now, despite her swollen eye and twisted mouth. I want to tell her this, but I’m too chicken. “It’s weird,” I say instead. “This is a weird coincidence, don’t you think?”
“What do you mean?”
“I mean, us being here on the same floor of the hospital.”
Shannon stops smiling. “It’s not a coincidence. Your dad arranged it.”
“Arranged what?”
“Wait a second. You seriously don’t know about this?”
I shake my head. I’m bewildered.
“Your dad got in touch with my parents through the high school and told them there was a new treatment we could try. It was experimental, something his research lab had developed for you, but he said it might also be useful for other teenagers with terminal illnesses. He said he was recruiting kids to test the treatment and would explain everything to us at the hospital.”
It doesn’t make sense. I never heard Dad say anything about a treatment he’d developed for me. I can’t even see how he’d be able to do it. He’s a computer scientist, not a medical researcher. “I’m sorry, but this is the first I’ve heard of it.”
Shannon bites her lip. “Now I’m confused. Is there a treatment or not?”
Lowering her gaze, she looks down at the bed, which is covered with a thin, white blanket. Her eyes turn glassy, and for a second I think she’s going to cry. She’s clearly invested a lot of hope in whatever promises Dad made to her parents. It might be a long shot, but it’s all she has.
My chest aches. I don’t want Shannon to lose her last hope. I furrow my brow, trying to figure out what Dad is up to. I remember the conversation we had in his office before everything went haywire, and what Colonel Peterson said about Dad’s research. And something comes back to me. “You know what I think it is? It’s nanotechnology. That must be what Dad has in mind.”
She looks up, cocking her head. “Nanotechnology?”
“Yeah, the science of building very small things.”
“I know what nanotechnology is. I did an extra-credit report on that too.”
I use my right arm to roll onto my side. I feel like I need to sit up if I want Shannon to take me seriously. “Okay, my dad works with the Department of Defense, right? And yesterday he got a visit from this colonel in the U.S. Cyber Command. This guy mentioned a laboratory called the Nanotechnology Institute. He said they were doing some amazing work there.”
She gives me a skeptical look. “I did a ton of research for that report, and I never heard of that lab.”
“Well, this is classified government work. Very hush-hush. I’m probably breaking all kinds of laws by talking about it.” I manage to prop myself up to a sitting position, but the thin blanket falls down to my hips and I notice with dismay that I’m not wearing anything underneath. I quickly tuck the blanket around my waist. “Anyway, Colonel Peterson said this institute has developed microscopic probes that can be injected into the brain. And if they’ve already done that, who knows what else they can do? Maybe they also have nanoprobes that can repair genes. Or kill cancer cells.”
Shannon still looks doubtful. She rises to her feet and starts pacing across the room. “I read about nanoprobes for my report, and I don’t think the technology is that advanced yet. Scientists can make simple things, like tiny spheres or rods or tubes, but no one knows how to make microscopic killing machines.”
“Look, my dad can clear this up. I’m sure he’s in the hospital somewhere. He probably went to the cafeteria to get a cup of coffee. As soon as he comes back, we’ll talk to him.” I try to catch Shannon’s eye as she paces back and forth. “I’ll tell you one thing for sure—Dad lives up to his word. If he promised you something, he’ll definitely come through.”
She doesn’t respond at first. She keeps her head down while she paces, as if she’s looking for something she dropped on the floor. Then she lets out a sigh. “All right, fine. I’ll wait to hear what your dad says.” Without missing a step, she points at the door to my room. “That Colonel Peterson you mentioned? Is he somewhere in the hospital too?”
“I don’t know. Why do you ask?”
“When I sneaked out of my room to come here, I noticed a few soldiers in the corridor. They were standing at attention near the elevators.”
This is news to me. And not good news either. Why are there soldiers at Westchester Medical Center? Is Peterson expecting another attack? Will Sigma track me down and try to kill me here?
While I worry over this, Shannon keeps pacing. I notice that she’s waddling a bit, lurching to the left. It reminds me of the way I used to walk before my legs stopped working. That’s another thing we have in common. “So are you still going to Yorktown?” I ask. “Or did you withdraw from school?”
She finally stops pacing and turns toward me. A bead of sweat trickles down her scalp. “My mom wanted to pull me out, but I said no. School keeps me sane. I’d go crazy if I did nothing but chemotherapy.”
“But don’t the drugs make you tired?”
She shrugs. “Yeah, it’s hard to concentrate sometimes. But I still get the highest grades in my class.”
I’m jealous. I wish I’d stood up to Dad and insisted on staying in school. I went along with him because he was so worried about my breathing problems, and because he promised to let me use his computers at work whenever I wanted. But I didn’t realize how lonely it would be. Once I was out of school, no one stayed in touch. The emails and texts from my friends dwindled, then stopped. It was easier for them to forget about me. Even my best friends, the ones I’d known forever.
Shannon sits on the edge of my bed again. I swallow hard, preparing to ask her another question. I suspect the answer will be painful, but I need to hear it. “Do you know Ryan Boyd? He’s on the football team.”
She nods. “Sure, I know him. Big dude, good-looking. He hangs out with the other football jocks.”
“How’s he doing? I saw his name in the last issue of the school newspaper. He just won the Sportsmanship Award, right?”
Shannon leans closer, eyeing me carefully. “You were friends with him, weren’t you? Now that I think of it, I remember seeing you talking with him by the lockers every morning before first period.”
“Oh yeah, we go way back. But, you know, we haven’t talked in a while.”
She nods again, understanding. She knows how people avoid the dying. The same thing has probably happened to her. “Well, I can’t tell you much about Ryan because I don’t know him too well. When he’s not playing football he’s usually hanging out with the other jocks. And he spends a lot of time with this cheerleader he’s dating.”