A chill coursed through her. “So you don’t think we stopped them for good.”
His hands tightened on the wheel. “They’re like the hydra. You cut off one head and two more grow in its place. That probably wasn’t even the only lab, love. Just the only one I could find.”
“That’s… beyond horrible.” She watched him in silence for a few moments, wondering if he wanted to continue the search.
But he seemed to guess her thoughts without even looking at her. “I’m done. My life is with you now. Whatever we make of it.”
Her heart warmed and steadied. The man loved her enough to live. Given the way he’d been only a short year ago, that seemed miraculous.
He angled the car onto a tree-lined drive. Dirty snow lay on the ground, mounded up by the curb. It wasn’t pretty, but she could tell by his expression that they had arrived. Søren parked the car on the street, and she followed his gaze to the house with the red and white gingham curtains.
“That’s the kitchen,” he said. “I can see my mom in there.”
“Baking,” she guessed.
“Probably. It’s that time of year.”
A few weeks before Christmas-it was the perfect time for a family reunion. How much would it take before they believed her? Would they cry?
“Did they know about your ability?” she asked.
“Not really. It only affected them in small ways before-”
Before Lexie’s accident. Before he drove his car into a wall.
“It’s my turn,” she said then, gazing at the house where he had spent his formative years.
“I’m sorry?”
“You gave the last quote at dinner. We’ve been a bit busy since.”
He half smiled. “A bit. Is this a game we’re going to play forever?”
“Would you like to?”
“Yes,” he said gravely. “Please.”
“Then we will. Here’s your quote: ‘It will not change now/ After so many years;/ Life has not broken it/ With parting or tears;/ Death will not alter it,/ It will live on/ In all my songs for you/ When I am gone.’ ”
“Sara Teasdale.” There was no doubt in him, no hesitation.
“You’re sure.”
“Positive. The poem is ‘It Will Not Change.’ ” Søren took her hand, sober and focused as only he could be. When he leveled that look on her, she felt like the only woman in the world. “I bought a collection of her poetry, after…”
After you thought I’d died.
“Why?”
“I wanted to feel closer to you. I wanted to love what you loved, if I couldn’t be with you.”
Her smile frayed around the edges, tears swelling. It will not change. Death will not alter it.
“Then you know how I feel and why it is so important that we do this.”
“I do.”
Mia exhaled slowly. “Well, we can’t sit here all afternoon. Let’s go.”
She slid from the Infiniti and rounded the front. He got out less eagerly, weighed down with the memory of other failures. In his mind, this was a futile endeavor and she could never make his family believe. Mia knew he’d come to the door more than once and tried to tell them. For him, this was a nightmare, an unwanted affirmation of his ghost life. As she took his hand, she felt it trembling.
“Are you sure this is a good idea?” he asked hoarsely. “I don’t want them hurt. They’ve grieved. Accepted my loss.”
“And they shouldn’t have. You’re here. Right here. Watching your mother through the glass. Hell, you missed her so much you went out and found a surrogate. She loves you, Søren. Trust me when I say, this is the kind of miracle a mother prays for.”
Not letting his fear cloud her certainty, Mia led him up the icy walk. A bright, festive holly wreath hung on the red front door. She rang the bell.
After a moment, a plump, gray-haired woman answered the door. Her eyes were bright as a summer sky, cheeks creased with smiling. She wore a polite, puzzled look. “Yes?” Her voice carried the faintest accent, despite her years in the U.S.
“Mrs. Frost,” Mia said. “There’s someone here you need to meet.”
“I don’t understand. Who are you?”
“May we come in?”
It took nearly an hour of endless question and answer. At one point, Mia refused to leave when the older woman demanded she go. Her determination to give his family back to him would not yield, even in the face of Mrs. Frost’s grief. The tears didn’t move her, but she was lucky the other woman didn’t call the police.
“No,” Mrs. Frost said. “You’re a madwoman. I don’t know what you hope to achieve by tormenting me with this impostor, but my son is dead.”
“Is he?”
Søren made a small sound of protest. Judging by the tension in him, it seemed he was ready to call it a hopeless cause and go. Mia refused to give up.
An angry sheen lit Mrs. Frost’s eyes. “If this is my son, he would know. What happened when we went on vacation when he was ten.”
Mia glanced at Søren, who answered quietly, “We took a road trip. We were supposed to see the Grand Canyon, but Grete was whining about feeling sick, driving everyone crazy. She eventually puked down my dad’s back, and he ran the car into a ditch. We never got further than the Minnesota state line.”
The other woman rubbed her eyes as if awakening from a terrible dream. “Søren,” she whispered. “Can it be you? We never told anyone that story. Your father was too embarrassed. Was it… It was a mistake? It was not really you in that car?”
That seemed the simplest explanation, so he nodded, and then his mother swept him into her arms, sobbing. At length, she demanded, “Jer skidt djævel, why did you not call us? Why did you not come home?”
There was no accounting for those lost years, so Mia said softly, “He couldn’t remember where he belonged before now.”
“Is this true? You had… something wrong in your brain?”
“Yes,” he said, arms coming around his mother slowly. “I did. After Lexie died, I wasn’t the same man. I forgot… so many things.”
Pain flared in his mother’s face at the mention of her grandchild, but for her, it was an old loss, and she was too happy to grieve long. “Your father will not believe this. Elle and Grete will be overjoyed! I have prayed and prayed. Something in me, it said you were not truly gone, and that if I just believed hard enough, you would come home.” Tears slipped down her cheeks. “I have an apple strudel on the stove and fresh coffee. You need to eat. Come.” She took a step back and wiped her eyes. “This is your young lady?” She inspected Mia head to toe. “As she brought you here, it goes without saying, I approve.”
He wore a disbelieving smile as he trailed his mother into the kitchen. Mia took a moment to gaze around, her throat tight. The Christmas tree threatened to burst through the ceiling, and the ornaments didn’t match. Five different kinds of tinsel had been used to decorate it, and clearly, judging by the concentration of icicles on the lowest branches, childish hands had helped. That meant he had nieces or nephews. God, he was going to be so thrilled.
Remembering Lexie, the pleasure might be bittersweet at first, but he was too good with children to divorce himself from them entirely. And who knew what the future might hold? Tearful laughter came from the other room. She knew she needed to give them a few minutes.
So Mia stood, breathing the place in. There was warmth here, such glorious warmth. As Søren had promised, the house smelled of cinnamon and apples, nutmeg and allspice. It smelled of home. After all this time, they had both come home.
Ann Aguirre
