“Special effects,” she said faintly, trying to hang on to what she knew about how the world was supposed to work.
“What about your dreams?”
She wished she hadn’t said anything about the dreams, wished she weren’t thinking of them now.
But what else could she think of when it seemed that those fantasies were coming true? The circular stone room, the torches, the incense . . . and the man who stood too near her, embodying the heroes she’d grown up hearing about—it was all exactly as she had dreamed. Only she had dreamed so much more.
The rush of desire must have shown in her face, because his eyes darkened. But he held himself still. Waiting.
“What I’m feeling . . . it’s not the smoke, is it?” she asked finally.
“The copan might be intensifying your latent connection to the barrier, but it can’t create something out of nothing. What you’re feeling is the magic that’s in your blood.”
“What if I don’t want it to be?” Despite her best efforts, her voice trembled. “What if I just want to go home and forget any of this ever happened?”
“You can’t. Iago will come for you.”
She shuddered. “Not helping.”
“It wasn’t meant to be.” He paused. “None of us got a vote in this, either, and we’ve all had days we wanted to bail and let someone else take up the slack, except there wasn’t anyone else . . . until we found out about you.”
Her head spun—maybe with drugs, maybe with overload—and she tried hard not to let what he was saying matter. “I didn’t sign up for your game.”
Not bothering to correct her, he said, “I’ll do whatever I can to help you adjust. We all will.”
“I don’t want your help,” she said. “I don’t want any part of this.” But the words sounded weak, even to her. Emotions cascaded; fear, arousal, and confusion spinning together in an overwhelming mélange, pressing inward. Pinching the bridge of her nose in an effort to stave off the insanity she’d apparently inherited from Ambrose, along with his friends and enemies, she said, “I don’t know what to believe anymore.”
“What do your instincts tell you?”
She smiled with little humor. “My instincts have gotten me fired I don’t know how many times because I just had to experiment with an in-house recipe. They’ve hooked me up over and over with guys who say they’re ready for a commitment but aren’t really. And they sent me off into the rain forest by myself, because I’d promised Ambrose a proper burial. Let’s just say I’m not too high on my instincts these days.”
“That was then. This is now.” He took her hand, turning it palm up so torchlight hit the cut on her palm, which, incredibly, was little more than a thin scar now. “What is your gut telling you to do?”
Sasha couldn’t make herself look away from his damned gorgeous green eyes. In that instant, she realized she didn’t give a damn what logic dictated, didn’t care what it said about her sanity. She wanted him. Call it incense, instability, or magic; she didn’t care. For too long she’d been unable to take anything for herself, and this was what she wanted. He was what she wanted; he had been since she’d first awakened from the fantasy, warm and wanting, and feeling so damned lonely she’d nearly howled when she opened her eyes and he wasn’t there.
“No offense,” she said, “but I’m pretty sure these impulses are coming from significantly south of my heart.” She was trying to keep it light, trying not to let him know how much the dreams had meant to her. But, in tacit acceptance, she took the last half step that separated them, watching as his eyes blurred, hearing as his breath hitched, and feeling as he shifted to align his body with hers, though they weren’t yet touching.
“Then we’ve already got something in common.” He reached for her, cupping one big, capable hand along her jaw and holding her there as he leaned in and touched his lips to hers.
Under any other circumstance, Sasha would’ve drawn back at his words, which all but spelled out
“only sex, no strings.” But just then, with her body alight and her brain spinning with incense and desire, the proviso sounded right. And his touch was perfect. The contact brought sparks of light and heat, a sizzle of connection and a sense of oh, yes that rippled through her in waves, reverberating and overlapping, heightening as she murmured her pleasure and crowded closer.
Something buzzed at the back of her brain.
At first she thought it was a warning alarm, her unreliable instincts telling her this was a bad idea.
Moments later, though, Michael hissed a curse and yanked away from her, putting his big body between her and the door.
A seam appeared in the overlapping stones. Someone was coming in!
Michael crowded her back, sandwiching her between the carved wall and the heavy press of his body armor. His scent surrounded her, sharp and male, resonating with the taste of him. Without thinking, she pressed against him, reaching to touch his hips beneath the armor. His solid strength and the overwhelming thereness of him was an anchor, making her feel far safer than she knew she should.
But it had been so long since anyone had been anywhere for her, she’d take what she could get.
He tapped his throat mike and whispered, “Is that you guys? Fuck. They’re here.”
Sasha tightened her grip on him. “That’s not your friends, is it?” she whispered as the crack widened, then stilled. From the other side she caught a snatch of low-voiced conversation, some sort of debate. Was the mechanism jammed, or was the hesitation part of a plan, another layer of torture?
Michael glanced back at her, expression resolute as he said very quietly, “I’m going to cast a shield.
Cross your fingers that they don’t have a magic-sniffer with them.” He drew the carved knife from his belt and sliced it sharply across his palm in a move that was all too familiar to her and brought bad memories. Blood welled, looking black in the orange firelight.
Shit, she thought. The torches. There was no way Ia go’s men could fail to notice the flames, or the smoky air. “Should we kill the lights?” she asked, feeling like an idiot for buying into his paradigm even far enough to ask the question. But what if the tiny fireball hadn’t been an illusion? What if—
She squelched the thought, unable to go there after so many years of denial.
“They’d still smell the incense,” he answered in a low whisper. “But if we’re lucky and they don’t have a pilli with them, the shield magic should confuse all five of their senses.” He closed his eyes, his face settling into lines of deep concentration as blood dripped from his palm. When the first drop hit the stone floor, Sasha thought she heard a bell chime, and wondered if that meant his magic was working.
Then she wondered whether she’d crossed the border into Crazytown. Because as the door crept open, all she could do was pray that whatever he was doing worked.
Moments later, though, he opened his eyes and bit off a curse. “Nothing, damn it. I can’t find the blood magic. I don’t know—” He broke off and turned to her abruptly, his eyes hard and hot, and more than a little wild. “I’m sorry,” he said inexplicably.
Then, without any other preliminaries, he moved into her, plastered her against the wall with his big, hard, fully aroused body. And kissed her.
Shock held Sasha motionless as his lips touched hers. The first sizzle of contact arced from him to her and back again, and all she could think was Oh, and then Yes. She might have said the words aloud, because her lips parted and he deepened the kiss, sliding his tongue within to touch hers. His taste was potent and masculine; his strength surrounded her, pressed into her, made her feel that she was safe despite the danger. That she wasn’t alone. That finally there was someone on her side.