"Is that the teacher?"
"It must be." I took a step forward while the other two stayed back. One of them jacked a shell into the chamber of his rifle.
"Monsieur Venasque?"
The man in the window lowered his hands and looked at me.
"Do you speak German?" The only phrase I knew in French.
"Yes. What do you want? I'm in the middle of a lesson."
"I'm sorry, but would you please come out here and bring all of your students with you?"
He didn't move for a moment, then nodded at me and disappeared from view.
"Should we go in there to make sure? Maybe he's got a gun."
That made sense, so I went forward and entered the building alone after telling the others to be ready.
The place smelled of delicious flowers. There were bouquets of them everywhere, along with children's drawings on the walls, and a blackboard in front of the room with musical notes written on it. The children turned and all of them seemed either pleased or happy to see me. They looked to be about four or five years old.
The teacher was at his desk, holding an open briefcase. What made me smile was that his plain face reminded me very much of Herr Schleimer, the man who ran the Wьrstel stand at the end of my street in Vienna.
Seeing my smile, the teacher hesitated a moment, and then smiled back gratefully. I didn't want to encourage him, but didn't want to scare him, either. He knew what was going on. If he made things easier for us, that would help.
Closing his briefcase, he told the children to stand by their desks and be quiet as birds sleeping in the nest. He translated the sentence for me.
"Some of them are afraid of you. Their parents told them Nazis are monsters."
"Would you please tell me which of them are Jewish?"
"Why?" He held the briefcase flat against his chest, as if for protection.
"That's not your business. Which of them are Jews?"
Slowly, slowly, he put his free hand out, palm out, and pointed to the first child in the first row. "Celine!"
The little girl, serious and adorable, rose off the ground until she was floating horizontally a foot above her desk. Spreading her arms like a bird, or a child airplane, she veered softly left and glided across the room out the open window.
"Marcel, Claire, Suzy –"
These children, like impossible peasant angels, rose, and flying too, followed their friend out the window. I ran to watch them, not as a soldier but only a man dashing after wonder.
"Look! Look at them!"
Peter and Haider didn't need to be told: they had their heads back and looked as shocked as I'm sure I did. Without doing anything, we watched them fly away over a purple field of lavender.
Remembering where I was, I turned and fixed my rifle on the teacher. Who wasn't there. I looked around the room, but the only ones there were the children. I looked at a little boy and asked him in sign language where his teacher was. The boy giggled and threw up his hands as if they were full of confetti.
"I never knew what I actually did to make it happen. Even today I'm not exactly sure."
We were stopped at a traffic light next to the ocean. A bunch of surfers and their striking girlfriends walked close in front of us, toting their surfboards. Every one of them had long blond hair and third-degree tans.
"Venasque, where did you go? Did you actually disappear? I couldn't find you anywhere. How did you make those kids fly?"
The light changed and he accelerated without answering. It made me mad.
"Was I there or not? Was that one of my lives?"
"You know yourself about Moritz Benedikt, Walker. Remember the man on the gravestone in Vienna who looks like you? And the midget who pushed you out the window? That was your life too. You're beginning to find some of the pieces now and put them together. They're your pieces.
"Yes, you were there. Both of us were. That's where we met last. You never stop meeting the same people in your lives. It's necessary. You just connect up with them differently each time."
"What happened that day? Where did you go?"
"I don't know. I disappeared for a while. I only closed my eyes and said 'Help them' to whoever was listening. There was nothing else left to do! It was the first time I ever discovered we've got things inside to save everyone, only you've got to go deep down for it. God gives us a model kit with all the right parts, but no instructions. It's up to us to find that this and that go together. Most people don't do it, though. They glue things together fast and without thinking because they're lazy with their lives. They don't think of working harder and trying to make something beautiful, or maybe even important. Just a nice 'model' they can live in. But sometimes when you're pushed or scared, like I was, you use your model kit better because you have to."
I wasn't in the mood for Kahlil Gibran philosophy. "What about all the people who try to put the kit together right, but still end up in the shit, Venasque? What about all the nice Jews who were gassed, or the little kids who die of starvation in –" His look stopped me.
"Nobody said life was fair, son. None of us ever figure out all the right combinations. There's a way to learn some of them, but no – Hey! You see that girl there? The one eating the sandwich by the black station wagon? Do you recognize her? That was your red woman in Russia, the one you killed. Today she's having a good time at the beach with her boyfriend. She doesn't even begin to sense that the man who killed her a couple of lifetimes ago is driving by. Incredible! Do you know how important it is that she realize that? My God, it'd help her so much to get through this life if she went up to you and asked some of the right questions. But she won't. She's so lazy she wouldn't even know you if you walked up and said hello. Maybe she'd feel uncomfortable or drawn to you, but she wouldn't know why. But that funny feeling wouldn't interest her. The poor girl has another bunch of trouble coming up and she could easily avoid it if she put only a little time into trying to understand how to do things right. Not easily, but right. She won't. She's happy walking on the beach in California with her boyfriend's hand on her tushy."
"Do you really know what will happen to her?" I turned completely around to watch the girl. She was kissing the boy a foot away from the thundering traffic.
Venasque sighed. "Yes, I think I know."
"Do you know what's going to happen to you?"
"You mean do I know what's going to happen to you, Walker? No. That's what interests me like crazy. I haven't met anyone in years I can't read quickly. I'm not going to teach you just because I'm a nice guy. There's got to be something important for me in my students too. I know some things, sure, but I've got a long way to go, too.
"Wow! Look at the figure on that redhead! I love making this drive. You see enough beautiful girls to make you goofy for three weeks."
Outside Oxnard, we sat on the beach eating and watching the animals dabble with the water. The wind was blowing and kept the heat of the day off us.
Venasque loved sandwiches. In one of his mysterious boxes in the back of the car was our lunch, which consisted of two hero sandwiches as big and round as matching 1930s hotel armchairs. They were packed with so many crayon-colored peppers, pickles, hard-boiled eggs, cheeses, and cold cuts that, try as it might, the tongue couldn't single out one special taste or flavor from the others.
I was only halfway through my chair when Venasque got up, brushed his hands on his pants, and said, "Okay, let's begin."
Looking up at him, even knowing what he had done to me already, I couldn't imagine him capable of great magic. I put the sandwich down on a piece of waxed paper and stood up.
"Go find yourself a good thick stick, about so big." He spread his hands about ten inches.