“They know their crowd.”
He looked at Park, nodded him aside to a small bar.
Helmed by a very young girl in Harajuku anime-schoolgirl geisha chic, the service area was sunk several feet below the floor, putting the glossy surface of the bar, collaged with pornographic Disney-inspired animation cels, knee level to approaching customers. Cager knelt and nodded at the bartender. She dipped her head and began filling a small green bamboo pitcher with cold sake. Park squatted on his haunches, waiting as she placed the pitcher and two small, tightly tongue-and-grooved cypress masu boxes before them.
Cager poured both boxes full, picked one up, handed it to Park, took the other for himself, and lifted it.
“Kanpai!”
Park lifted his own.
“Kanpai.”
They drank.
Cager drained and refilled his box.
“I went to Japan for the first time when I was nine. For a year with my dad. Business. I found it alienating until I discovered the otaku. In terms of geek immersion, they were years ahead of me in every way. Of course, they had a natural advantage. All the most interesting technology was being developed for their market. My edge was that, compared to them, I was socially advanced. They trusted me very quickly and gave me access to their kung fu. Not pure code, which I’ve never had a gift for, but they helped me unlock game levels I didn’t know existed. Secret moves. When I came back here, I’d had six months on PlayStation and it hadn’t even been released in the States. It became a pilgrimage for me. Culturally I never penetrated deep. Too opaque. I’m low-affect myself. Not many outbursts like that one you saw with the phone. And I generally have a hard time reading other people’s moods. The Japanese in Japan are very hard for me. With otaku it doesn’t matter. No one cares what you’re feeling. My dad never grasped the fascination. He’s smart enough, but too old. He was over fifty when he had me. A gap like that, we can scream at each other and still not be heard.”
He combed his hair.
“That’s where I tried Shabu. To stay up. Keep playing.”
He put his box down and waited.
Park put his own nearly full box aside and opened the flap on his engineer’s bag. From a cylindrical pouch he tugged a cardboard toilet paper tube capped at either end with rubber-banded squares of cellophane. He undid one of the ends and drew from the tube a small package of crisply folded beige tissue. Untucking one corner of the paper, he peeled it aside, opening the package like a blossom, revealing the milky white coiled dragon nestled inside.
Cager nodded.
“Yes. That’s it.”
He reached for the dragon, Park pulled on the piece of paper it rested on, sliding it away.
Cager looked at him.
“Yes?”
Park placed the tip of his index finger on the barbed tail of the dragon.
“Twenty-five-gram dragon. Pure and real Shabu. Cash only. Up front.”
“‘Cash only.’ That seems a little shortsighted.”
Park shrugged.
“I’m a dealer. It’s a cash business. No one has come up with a barter model that makes sense.”
“They will.”
“Until then, the dragon is fifteen thousand U.S.”
Cager nodded and placed a fingertip on the corner of the paper opposite Park’s.
“Cash, then.”
He started to draw the dragon toward himself.
Park considered the moment.
When Bartolome had offered him undercover and he had accepted the assignment, he’d done as much research as he could on the topic without actually resorting to talking with other cops. No one was supposed to know about the investigation into Dreamer. So Park could ask no one what risks his new job might carry beyond the obvious. Not that he would have asked, anyway. Even his most serviceable relationships within the department were strained. His well-known inflexibility marked him for little more than scoffing dismissal from any undercovers he might cross paths with.
Flexibility was one of their primary job requirements. Average undercovers, most of them working cases that touched at the very least tangentially on the drug trade, had forgotten how to see the world in any colors but muddy gray. The briefest spell spent dealing with the economies of narcotics quickly erased all traditional valuations of right and wrong, good and evil, or, in the end, legal and illegal. The few undercovers Park had dealt with personally had distilled police work to an essence of us and them. Making busts wasn’t a matter of doing the right thing, of enforcing the law or doing your job, it was more akin to sticking it to the other side before they could stick it to yours.
Going undercover himself, Park had had little interest in learning from that perspective. Instead he’d gone to the books. Reading a handful of classic firsthand accounts. Both Sides of the Fence, Judas Kiss, Serpico, Under and Alone. He enhanced this reading with selections from the psych shelves, titles dealing with the pathology of lying, Stockholm syndrome, the limits of identity. And topped off with the copy of An Actor Prepares that Rose found on her own shelf, a leftover from her undergrad years.
Making his first deal, a purchase of a small amount of what Rose declared to be utterly hazardous stinky buds once she had persuaded him that he should let her smell the fruits of his labor just to be certain that he hadn’t been taken, he juggled the various teachings he’d plucked from those tomes. His jargon in place, hair as mussed as its length allowed, newly purchased vintage jeans and Bob Marley T-shirt donned, he’d found himself undone and frozen by the banality of the transaction. Far from feeling that his identity was at risk, he’d felt more as though he’d called for a Pink Dot delivery. His nonchalantly crumpled and balled twenties were a subtlety of character completely lost on the City College student who knocked on his door, asked politely if he was Park, came inside, and delivered a concise and practiced rundown on his current selection of wares, their various potencies, and the scale of pricing. Park barely managed to negotiate the buy without convincing himself that he’d been made and pulling the Warthog he’d put in his ankle holster. That was when the kid asked if he knew who had won the Clippers game. Later, unloading the.45 and locking it in the safe with a deep sense of embarrassment that he’d put it on in the first place, he’d realized that the silent, gaping stare that the out-of-context question had drawn as his initial response had been the most authentic bit of behavior he’d mustered during the entire affair. In those silent moments he’d looked more genuinely stoned than in any of the practiced tics and phrases he’d tried to employ. The fact that he’d known not only that the Clippers had lost but also the final score and the performances of the star players, and that he had sputtered all these details in one rapid burst after his endless pause, had only added, he assumed, to the overall impression of someone who hardly needed to be smoking another bong load.
So he stumbled into his character, the one that came quite naturally, built off his quiet and observant nature, his loathing of and incompetence at executing any and all lies. He was, when all was said and done, just acting like himself.
Yes, he had mastered the language of the trade. Yes, he had come to recognize the twists and kinks of human nature brought to the surface by habitual drug use and/or addiction. And yes, he had come to know what was expected from a dealer in terms of both professionalism and disregard for the weaknesses of his customers. But he learned all those intricacies as Park. Employing no techniques for building a sham persona to scrim his true intentions, becoming, instead, genuinely masterful in the skills required of a dealer.
When he was introduced as Park the dealer, there was absolute truth in the description. Just as, simultaneously, he might have been as accurately described Park the cop.
Being inherently Park in both rolls carried minimum requirements. One of those was that when engaged in either job he expected certain rules and standards to be lived up to. And one of the most, if not the most, central of those to his job as a dealer was the one that any and all dealers adhered to as religion: Cash, up fucking front.