“No,” his friend said, “you can’t drive your own car to the station.” He didn’t want her driving in on her own in case she took a wrong turn and pissed off, presumably. Nor would he agree to his partner accompanying her while he drove the squad car.
“Corroboration,” she said, letting him know that she understood. If she suddenly confessed that she’d attacked Kevin they wouldn’t be able to use it in court without a second officer hearing it too. He didn’t answer her. “So I’m a suspect?”
“He had a stroke.”
“If I’m a suspect you should caution me.”
But he wasn’t willing to arrest her, or let her go.
“Can I get something out of the boot of my car?”
They glanced at each other and said no.
“It’s another portfolio like the one upstairs, but it’s got the picture I was telling you about.” She handed them the keys. “You get it.”
Together, they walked down to the corner and found her car parked precariously on the turn of the curb.
“This is illegal. You can’t park here. You’ll get towed.”
It might have been the shock, or the worry, or just the officers’ cold officiousness, but Paddy found herself trembling with annoyance.
“Look, I was worried about Kevin and just stopped the car to run up and chap the door, OK? I didn’t think I’d be in there for a full fucking hour and a half, havering about.”
But they were unmoved. “You’ll still have to move it. What if a fire engine needs to come along here?”
“The ambulance got in OK.”
“Fire engine’s wider.”
They saw her look back accusingly at the squad car. They’d blocked the entire street.
“We can do that,” the younger officer said smugly, “because we’re on police business. But you’ll need to move yours.”
“Where to? There isn’t anywhere.”
“Put it down there at the turning circle.”
She threw her hands up. “Right,” she said loudly, “fine, I’ll fucking move it.”
They gave her the keys and she climbed in, shut the door, and started the engine. She threw her Volvo into first, mouthed “fuck ye” at the officers and sped off, heading straight for the main road.
It would take them fifteen minutes to get out of the narrow gully of cars they’d jammed themselves in.
II
The West End was the student quarter of the city and every second shop, whether a dry cleaner’s or a newsagent’s, had a photocopier in it.
She stopped at a newsagent’s near her house and opened the boot, sorting through the portfolio, pulling the photo of the black woman out and rolling it into a cylinder before shutting the boot and going in.
A hand-scribbled sign on the door said that only two schoolkids were allowed in at one time. When she got inside she could see why: she was in a shoplifter’s paradise. Crisps and sweeties were stored in boxes near the door, the magazines were in a blind corner by the exit, and they even had cheap toys piled up on a shelf at elbow height to a child. The woman behind the counter sat up nervously as she came in, as if expecting a fresh assault.
Paddy could tell by the concentric circle of dirt around the copy button that the photocopier had been used a lot. She made three black-and-white copies, moving the picture around to get Collins’s face in the center of the frame, then made an extra enlarged one and a color picture that didn’t come out very well. There wasn’t a lot of color in the background anyway but Collins’s shirt came out an irradiated pink that bled into his neck.
She was looking at it, worrying about the quality, when her eye was caught by a shadow in the cabin of the car. A rainbow of shadow in the passenger seat: the driving wheel. She realized suddenly that Americans must drive on the other side of the road, the car was left-hand drive. Collins wasn’t the driver. He was just the passenger: the fat man was driving him somewhere.
She paid the woman behind the counter and bought a giant chocolate bar and another packet of Embassy Regal, justifying the fags with the thought that if she wasn’t going to drink with Brian Donaldson, she’d better have at least one vice and overplay it. Guys like that never trusted the abstinent.
SEVENTEEN. LOVE WAS AN ACCIDENT
I
The Shammy was certain of its clientele, that much was clear. The barman was all but wearing a buckle hat and hollering begorra.
They sold Guinness on tap, two kinds of lager, Irish whiskey and Tayto-brand crisps. Everything that wasn’t smeared yellow with cigarette tar was green, even the seats. Wizened paper shamrocks were strung along the back of the bar, a souvenir of a St. Patrick’s Day past, although what the noble-born stoic would have made of the filthy bar was anyone’s guess.
Along three walls a high shelf held memorabilia of a less benign kind. A brass armor shell had a blackened commemoration band around the bottom. Dusty flags of several Irish counties, Mayo, Galway and Cork, were propped up in among tankards. A plastic replica gun and a small, very badly executed model of an H block from the Maze prison made out of painted cardboard, with tiny men sitting on one of the roofs, were placed near the front.
The centerpiece of the bar was a brass engraving of Bobby Sands mounted on a block of wood, his eyes not quite matching, his long over-the-ears seventies hairdo just as misplaced on his square farmboy’s face as it had been in real life.
The smog of cigarette smoke made Paddy want to light up herself, if only to mask the smell. She took out her packet and pulled out a cigarette, lighting it with a match, inhaling halfheartedly, and thinking she probably looked shifty.
A row of men sitting at the bar turned to stare as she approached. She had thrown on clothes this morning, but she still felt wildly overdressed. They were all wearing T-shirts or sweatshirts under black leather jackets and denims that hung under their beer bellies. She nodded at them.
“Howareye?” she said, running the words together as the Irish did, meaning to be friendly.
Someone snorted cynically. She took a covering drag of her cigarette and felt foolish, stepping towards the rail. The barman was resting a half-poured pint of Guinness under the taps, patiently waiting for it to settle.
“Ah, hello, I’m looking for a guy called Brian?”
“No one called Brian here,” he said. Scottish with an Irish twang, an affectation members of her own family used sometimes.
“I spoke to him the other day. I have some photos of the gentleman he was telling me about.”
He looked her up and down. “And you are…? Detective Constable…? Detective Inspector…?”
Paddy held her hands out indignantly. “Do the polis take fat birds now? I’m five foot four, for fucksake.”
He shook his head and flicked the Guinness tap back on. “No one named Brian in here, love.”
“Well, when No-one-named-Brian gets here, tell him Paddy Meehan was in looking for him and I’ve got the photos to show him. He knows where I work.”
Wood screeched against stone as one of the lineup pushed his stool back, stepped off, and squared up to her.
Paddy guessed he would have been the pride of the pack once. Now, fat had gathered around his middle, and his round paunch, starting below two well-formed breasts, was vivid under his cheap white T-shirt. His black leather jacket was elasticated at the waist, drawing in where he spread out, showing off what would once have been fine legs. He stepped into the light and she saw that a tidy slice was missing from the top half of his ear.
Paddy half expected him to chase her to the door, but instead, he picked his pint up and flicked his index finger at her, beckoning her to follow him. She stubbed her cigarette out in a nearby ashtray and walked after him to the back of the bar.
The booth was set at ninety degrees from the room so no one could see into it from the floor. It was dark, dimly lit with a yellowed wall light, the heat from the bulb burning a brown oval on the plastic shade. The benches were worn wood, the table marked with water rings and cigarette burns. He slid along a seat, his paunch pressing against the fixed table, and nestled in the corner, resting one leg along the bench, motioning for her to sit opposite him.